Disclaimer: I do not and never shall own Star Trek.
"Spock, please report to my quarters as soon as you are off duty"
"Yes, Captain."
Great, now what does he want to see me about? Stop being illogical! I do not feel! I do not wish to feel! Not now… not now.
I walked up to the Captain's door and told the computer to let him know I was outside.
"Come in Spock, you know you don't have to ring the doorbell!"
"You wanted to see me Captain?" I asked. I was careful though to sound as I always did, and not the way I wanted to.
"Yes, I thought we could play a game of chess." He sounded so happy and carefree, and it made the way I was feeling so much worse. I made my way over to the chess board and sat,
"Captain, I believe it is your turn to begin."
He made his opening moves and said "How was your day?"
I knew that there was something else he really wanted to talk about, but he also didn't want to bring it up.
"I had a…. satisfactory day." There were so many other words I wanted to say and I chose satisfactory. Typical of me, never saying what I mean.
"Spock, I've been worried about you, and I want to make sure that you're alright before I leave for my honeymoon."
There it was, the big ugly subject had reared its head. Jim doesn't even know that I am against his marrying Ivy. I want to tell him, and yet I don't think I can.
"Jim, I do not think that marrying Ivy is a wise decision."
"She's not just another pretty face, Spock, I love her. I want to wake up every day by her side and live life. "
Something snapped, hearing him say that he loved her, I couldn't do it any longer!
"Why do you think I stayed here all these years? Did you really think, just like everyone else, that I didn't want a command of my own? You are the one always trying to convince me to show my human half, well here it is, and I don't think you will like it!" I was furious now, and words were flying unchecked through my mouth. "I love you! I always have and always will!" I realized then what I was saying, what I had said. "I …I…"
Jim just stared at me, and said nothing.
Author's Note: Hopefully you've read this far! And hopefully you liked it! And hopefully you aren't too confused! In case you are Kirk is marrying this Ivy character (not so sure who she is yet, I would guess she is beautiful) and will be leaving to go on his honeymoon, leaving the ship with Spock. Understand now? Good. Well unless you review and tell me how I did nobody (but me) is going to know how Kirk reacts! Please, Please review cause I know it's going to get good! ;)