6 months have passed since the death of kamina. I was sitting on the deck of the battleship simon had hijacked with kamina. I stared out at the sea, wondering. Everyone was out either swimming or playing on the beach, so that gave me some quiet to think it over. I heard footsteps behind me and as i turned around i saw yoko bending down towards me. "You okay? You seem a bit depressed." She said, as i could sense the concern in her voice. I looked back at her "oh, uh, yeah. it's just...". She looked at me, puzzled. "What?". I couldnt tell her. "Its nothing." I said, smiling and rubbing the back of my head, like it really was nothing. "Well if it's nothing then it must be something". I had no clue what she meant. "Is this about kamina? Look dont sweat it tony, thats the past, we need to build our future, isnt that what you said?." I turned back facing the sea, not saying a word. Yoko walked up and sat by my side. "Is it? Is it about kamina?" She wondered. "No..." i just flat out said it. "Then what is it?" She asked, smiling at me. I looked at her, my body full of depression. "Its just, your always avoiding me. Ever since kamina died, you just block me out of your mind, like you dont even want me here. I lost my bro kamina, and ever since then... you havent even spoken to me let alone looked at me... do i not exist in your life? You were my closest friend and you casted me aside like i was nothing. Am i nothing to you?" She looked at me shocked, her eyes widened. "I-i'm sorry. i had no idea that you-" i cut her off as i got up and started walking away "Of course you didnt...nobody ever does." and with those words i vanished into the ship. I started packing a suitcase as i didnt have alot of things. I heard a knock at my door and kittan began speaking. "Tony! Its kittan! Listen, you wanna talk about it?" I yelled back "Theres nothing TO talk about!" "I overheard you and yoko talking this afternoon." Kittan attempted to explain but he had no idea what i went through the past 6 months. I pressed a button and the door slid open. "Hey why is there suitcase on your bed?" He was oblivious. "Isnt it obvious? Im leaving." I told him as i shut my suitcase. "Why?" He asked me. I turned toward him quickly "Because i dont belong here!" "Woah c'mon man you're blowing things out of proportion." He sounded upset, i wouldnt blame him. I turned back around quietly "No. Things were never in proportion to begin with." I shut the door behind me. I layed on my bed, thinking about how happy everyone would be if i left. Then i heard a knock at the door. I got up to answer it while yelling "Kittan i already told you im-" i expected to see kittan standing there since he bugs all the time, but when i opened the door, i was suprised to see nia standing in my doorway. "Oh hi nia, what can i do for you?" "Hi tony, have you seen simon around? She was wondering, i hadnt seen him since this morning. "Last time i saw him he was in the hanger polishing gurren lagann." I told her reassuringly. "Is something the matter?" She could sense the depression in my voice no matter how much i hid it. I invited her in since she always has good advice. She sat on my bed "So, what is bothering you?" Little did i know that my window was open and kittan, yoko, and simon were listening to everything i was about to say. "It started when kamina died. The day after that, yoko's feelings towards me, not like she loved me or anything, they just shut off. It feels like for 6 months she didnt want anything to do with me. So until this day i still feel like kamina's death was my fault and that she hates me for it." I had said everything that needed to be said. "so you wanted to know how to go about this situation, right?" Nia knew what i was wondering. "Yeah pretty much." I told her, in a depressed voice. "Well what you need to do is tell yoko how you feel. Let her know its not your fault that he is dead." At least she tried. "Thanks, i'll do that" as i said that she spots a tear leaving my right eye. She puts her hand on my sholder "Hey, everything will be fine." "Thanks nia, you make me feel wanted here." I told her, but as she got up she said "you are wanted here, you just dont know it." I thanked her once again and escorted her out of my room. I look out my doorway to see her off and turn to my right and see kittan, simon and yoko walking towards me. "Hey tony! Whats up!" Simon tried to get my attention. I stepped back into my room and shut the door before they could get here. I zipped up my suitcase and stopped. I looked at the nightstand to see a picture of me and yoko smiling with kamina and simon next to her, posing as well. I picked up the picture and looked at it for a moment. I took it and ripped off the side with me on it. I want no memories of me here. I took the part of the photo with myself on it, grabbed a lighter and set the top right corner on fire and set it back on the glass nightstand. I heard a knock on my door "hey tony, its simon. Open up." I walked over opening the door with the suitcase in my hand. "Hey tony whats up with the suitcase, you look like youre going somewhere." He asked me, jokingly. "Its a long story." I told him with sadness in my voice. "I know, we heard you talking with nia." He told me as yoko and kittan walked up behind him. "Just leave me alone." I told them as i made my way past them, dragging my suitcase behind me. "Leron, how long until we hit land? The sooner i get out of here the better" i may have sounded rude but it wasnt intended. "Having troubles with yoko i see." He already knew. "How did you know?" I asked. "Everyone on the ship knows. Since yoko is only 14 and you 16, you must learn to forget things like this." He told me reassuringly. "Today was the first day in 6 months she has given a shit about me." I explained. He said "So you like her huh? Even so, you musnt hate yourself for it. If i cant stop you from leaving, we hit land tomorrow night." "Thank you leron. I best get some sleep" i walk back to my room thinking "what if leron is right? What if im just fooling myself." I open the door to my room only to find yoko sleeping with the burnt picture of me held close to her. I set down the suitcase and take the picture of me and put it on the nightstand. I grab my blanket from my suitcase and cover her up. As doing so i see her hand in her shorts. "Was she...To my...Never mind." I remove her hand from her shorts and cover her up. "Goodnight, yoko."