note: I do not own BLEACH although I wish I did
Chapter 1:
I am alone in this world. My dark world which i am in. I reflect back into the last moments of light I see.
I grip hyorinmaru with such force my hands almost bleed. Aizen is unharmed and smiling. Unohana was right. Ichigo is the only way aizen could be defeated. Blood drips over my eyes. My head has been cut open. Aizen still stands smiling but it feels like i have been cut open in my torso. I feel something sharp against my neck. "Make one move and you'll die." Booms Aizen in his deep voice. I stab hyorinmaru into Aizen. Its finally over. Suddenly I feel slicing on my neck.
No... Black spots start swimming in my vision. No. I hear Matsumoto. "Captain!" No! My soul starts deteriorating. No! Nothing is left. NO!
Blackness is all around me. There is nothing there. My soul is at peace. Suddenly I am jolted out of nothingness and I can't see. Its all black still.
I feel normal human souls yelling and swirling around me. Whats going on? The souls combine with my soul. Suddenly I am transported into hueco mundo. How did I get here? I feel my neck. No gash. I look down. What? I still have my shihakusho pants on but my top is gone. My hands are white and they have claws. Am I...? I can't even prosses the thought. My body is covered in a white shell and there is a hole in my chest where my heart is or was.
I finally think it. I am a hollow. How? I never had any influence with hollows unless I am fighting them. I have a craving inside me. I hunger but not for food. I do not want to but I think I have to consume other hollows or human souls to sedate my hunger. The pain is almost crippling. I yell. No let me rephrase that. I scream. Its not my voice but that of a hollow. Poor Matsumoto. Poor Hinamori. I hope they will cope with the loss of me. I know I am dear to them. Sorry about leaving you. Not my fault.
I spot another hollow and my right hand instinctly flies to my left shoulder to grab hyorinmaru and kill the hollow. But its not there. Only air. Suddenly my new feet start racing towards the hollow. Before I can stop myself, I take a bite out of the other hollow. I can't stop myself from eating the hollow. Its all gone. I stop. I have absolutly no control my body.
How could I have done that? What's done is done. There is no way I could have stoped it. Finnally I submit to the will of my hollowfied body. My mind sinks down into blackness. I start dreaming. Vivid dreams. I dream of me as an arroncar. I look almost normal. But I have a hollow mask over my right eye. There is ice running through my white spiky hair. I have espada clothes on and there is a six on my right shoulder. Am I espada six? Does that mean Luppi is dead? Finally. But I forgot. This is a dream. Its not going to happen. Hopefully Ichigo has defeated Aizen by now. He was the only chance. If he failed, then everyone is doomed.
When I wake up, my body has morphed into a tiger shape with light blue stripes. I growl. "Can I talk?" I can. Good. My voice is normal. I need to get as close to narmal as possible. But that only means if I become an arroncar. Which means I have to eat more hollows. Which also means I need to eat more human souls. Great. Well now at least there is a goal in my life. There is another hollow. Sort of reminds me of a fox. At first I start heading towards the hollow but now I can stop myself. Then I am reminded of my goal. So I run to it completly voluntary. I take a huge bite. I am completly disgusted with myself with this thought but actually it tastes not that bad. Sort of like juice from a fruit. I'm not exactly sure what fruit it is but it's sweet and juicy. The liquid coming from the hollow is greenish blue and is a little thick. At least if I close my eyes, its not that bad. Wait... What am I thinking? Hollow-like. Thats what I'm thinking. Well, I still have my goal. It's only to try to be back to normal. As normal I can be.
I fall asleep and have the same dream but this time when I wake up, I didn't change my appearence. Something else is changing though. I can't put my finger to it, but it's there.