"Laryssa, why don't you go shopping today with Esme, Rosalie, Alice, and Bella?" Edward suggested.
"That's such a great idea, Edward, sometimes I think you can read my mind!" Alice giggled.
Only Emmett laughed at her dry humor.
"It sounds good to me!" Rosalie put it.
"I'll only go if Laryssa goes." Bella chimed in.
Bella was my favorite sister, always putting others first.
I hated the rest of them.
You could say I was stupid for not loving them, but I just didn't fit in the picture.
I was more stand-offish.
I didn't try to make friends in my human life.
I didn't see the need.
I had myself, and that was all that matters.
Rosalie was too girly for my likings.
Alice was too annoying and got into your face a lot.
Emmett didn't like me, I didn't like him. That was the end of that.
Edward was okay. He still bothered me, with him reading minds, and all.
Jasper was my favorite brother. He didn't bug me. He never asked questions.
He just observed.
I liked him.
Maybe I liked him even more than Bella.
What did it matter anyway?
Carlisle wasn't that bad. He let me come out of my shell.
That was fine with me.
Esme was cool too. She was my mother I never had.
In my human life, I had a father who drank too much, and a mother who worked too much.
I did most things on my own.
Which was fine with me.
I went to school, came home, and went to bed.
I never did homework, I didn't see the need. If I wasn't going to college, then why even do stupid work?
My life was going no where.
I didn't really care.
Then, I was attacked in the woods.
It was fine with me, though, because I was just about to commit suicide anyway.
Yes, that's how bad it was getting.
The Jasper guy found me, when he and Alice were out furniture shopping for their new home.
They had been hunting.
They took me to Carlisle and he helped me cope with the fact that I was a vampire.
I looked like I was numb on the outside.
I sure as heck wasn't on the inside.
I wanted to know, why didn't I have to die?
Why this?
Why me?
Now, I have to live forever. Unless I try to commit suicide again.
But this is too much fun.
I get to brutally kill animals for food.
How exciting.
I don't mind that part of it much. It's the fact that the Cullen's are always observing me.
They say I dealt with the vampire thing so well.
I didn't care, though.
I just wanted to get out of there.
But then, one day, Bella came to my room and asked me if I would like to talk.
I did.
For some, strange reason I explained everything. She understood.
That's why I decided to stay.
Maybe there was something for me here.
Maybe I could be part of their family.
Nah. I think I'll probably just end up going to the Volturi. I don't know that much about them, though, and that's another reason why I'm staying.
I have to know what they do.
Did I mention I have weird powers?
Yeah, you know, how Edward can read minds??
I can control my thirst like Bella, and I can control anyone's next move.
It doesn't really work that well, though.
I can only change their thoughts in their mind, and I haven't been able to get my powers to the max.
I can make Emmett stick his head in the toilet if I wanted to.
But I don't, because then I would look like a snotty little brat.
I don't want that as a reputation.
Sorry, I got really off track. Back to the story shall we?
"I'm not really up to it. You guys go! Have fun!" I tried to sound enthusiastic.
Which was really hard because I've never been excited about anything before.
Well, maybe when I found I had the power to dunk Emmett's head in the toilet.
But that was only for a short time because I had to think about the consequences.
Just then, Esme walked into the room.
"What are you girls doing today?" Esme asked, her motherly side showing as she sat on the sofa.
"Alice, Bella, Laryssa, and I are going shopping!" Rosalie cried.
Oh great, how did I get dragged into this??
"Just go Laryssa. Have some fun for once in your life!" Edward said back.
Dang him for reading minds.
"Can I come too, ladies?" Esme asked.
"Of course!" Alice exclaimed.
"Let's go shopping!" I mumbled.