Never Again
He's dead.
I will never see that smiling face again. I will never see his head of white, spiky hair give his constant position at my window away and never again will I simply leave him there feeling safer than if a pack of ANBU had guarded me.
Never again will I throw my chair at him after a particularly irritating perverted comment, breaking the window and leaving a very frightened Toad Sage booking it across town to escape an enraged Slug Princess.
Never again will we share sake til early in the morning, when all we had left in our systems is bawdy half-nonsensical singing and stupid cuddling before we fell asleep in the same bed.
Never again will we be discovered in the same bed by a scandalized Shizune with raging hangovers, after which we will pretend it was nothing at all when it was a little embarrassing and awkward for both of us. We only cuddled when we were kids, after all. And fifty is not fifteen, if you know what I mean…..
I will never again hear him singing bawdy songs in the nude at my window at three in the morning in the deep of December because the dumbass has gone drinking alone and overestimated his tolerance. Never again will I haul him inside and put him up in my guest room because I can't have one of my best ninja freezing to death….and I won't have my only true friend left killed because I was too annoyed at him to deal with his drunken antics.
Never again will I feel his lips when, in the aforementioned drunken antics, he actually lands a kiss on my cheek. I never told him about it and he doesn't- didn't- remember, any of the…multiple times it happened.
Never will I get to give him that date I promised.
Never will I have a chance to let him in deeper, because just being that close to me killed him anyway.
Ok... This was an upsetting foray back into my Naruto OTP... But I'm not the same person who started Adventures. Things have happened in my life...and said things prevented me from updating. Or working on my stories at all, really. I'm sorry guys. REALLY sorry for the long rant that was left in Adventures- I was under massive pressure and all it took was one anon complaining about me updating to set me off at the time...
For those of you who haven't read Adventures in the Afterlife, welcome! And cry your eyes out at my unexpectedly tragic JirTsu...
(Sorry if you actually cry...)
Anyhow, I always love reviews and this will stay a oneshot unless I end up depressed again and want to make this a sad drabble dump. Unfortunately, my Naruto OTP is ripe for sadness like this. I love 'em, but canonically... Jiraiya's dead. And he's stayed dead and oh my Ra is it depressing... T_T Once I get out of the dumps this fic has encouraged, I will attempt to update Adventures in the Afterlife. I'm currently rereading it to get a bead back on where it was headed before my life went off the rails with college... Thank you so much for your patience, those of you who reviewed Adventures with such kind reviews. I was a different person when I wrote that, but I will endeavor to finish it anyhow because you guys are waiting on me.
...A rewrite is possible.
Good bit of news- I have a new computer and also have a lot more will to type! That means I can definently follow through on Adventures, once I've caught back up on it. Again, thank you thank you thank you thank you ALL for being so nice about my not updating in a year! Best wishes everybody!
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-June
(Lol I nearly doubled the length of this fic with my author's note _ )
