Pain. Confusion. Anger. These were her emotions after hearing that stupid word. Goodbye. Paige was almost breathless as she watched Emily climb into the car and drive off with the other girls. The simultaneous looks of pity and distrust doing nothing to calm the storm inside her.
For a moment, Paige could do nothing but stare at the spot no longer containing the car. She racked through her brain trying to discern what she could've said differently. As if different words would have made a difference in this situation. Part of her feels like Emily was just waiting for her to screw it up so she needed no reason to go right back to Ali's side. The other part, the one that knows Emily loves her, wishes she had acted a bit more rationally. Maybe she should've trusted Emily to handle it, but if Emily had gotten hurt.
"No. Just stop Paige," she angrily whispered to herself.
Paige couldn't apologize for her previous actions or words tonight. Allison almost killed her. She couldn't lie to Emily. Allison meant nothing to her and upon learning that she was in fact alive, the only emotion she had was pain. That girl brought nothing good to Paige's life, but yet, she saw how excited Emily was to learn she lived, and needed her help in particular. That's what hurt more than anything.
"I just don't get it."
Shaking her head, Paige started to make her way back home.
Emily told her she was letting go of Ali. Saying goodbye. Emily knew what the girl did to Paige, and yet, a minute of face-time with her and none of that even mattered. She can't help but feel when it comes to Emily Fields, she'll never matter more than her friends. Or at the very least, be equal to them.
Her pace picked up as anger started to overwhelm her. Now running, the only thought running through Paige's head was finality. She was done with it all. With Emily, with the other girls, A, and most especially with Alison.
As she neared her steps, Paige gathered her emotions. From here on out, she done apologizing for her actions. Done trying to seek approval from the person she loved. Love shouldn't be like that. You should want to share your lives, your fears, hell, you should want to at least see each other more than once a week.
"I want to swim, I want to graduate, and I want to never look back."
"Screw this place!" Paige yelled as she walked to her door.
Entering into an empty house only made Paige's conviction to get of here grow. She had no ties to Rosewood anymore. Her dad didn't care where she went as long as she was swimming.
Paige started to peel off her clothes deciding she needed a shower to get away from this day. Starting tomorrow, "It's all about me."
