"Ren….get your ass up right now." Yea, this was my morning wake up call, lovely isn't it? Next I heard the door handle being shaken. "Why the fuck is your fucking door locked?" I moved from the comfy body of my boyfriend and turned to yell back at the door.

"It's locked because I am changing hold on a sec, Joe." I replied trying to by some time. "You got five minutes to get your fucking ass out here before I tell Billy your door is locked." He snapped back at me. Great, Billy stomping in here with a guy in my bed, nonetheless Baggy, is all I fucking need this morning. I shook the body next to me, trying to be as quiet as possible. He grunted, making me put my hand over his mouth. Not a smart thing to do with a guy in a gang. He flipped me on my back in a second. Thankfully I kept my hand over his mouth. "Joe is at the door you have got to get out of here." I whispered. He nodded his head in acknowledgement and I removed my hand. He quickly gave me a kiss and went out my window and down the balcony to his own right below mine. I quickly found clothes and opened the door, to Joe standing against the door frame.

"Who the fuck was in there?" He growled out.

"What the fuck are you talkin about Joe?" I snapped back.

"Since when do you lock your fucking door?"

"Since there are fucking gangbangers and their sluts walking around like they own the fucking place. I was fucking changing, and didn't want anyone walking in." God I should be a fucking actress.

"Whatever, Billy should be back soon, better get this place cleaned up." He ordered walking away from me.

"Hah! You're fucking funny Joe; I was asleep while you guys partied, so you can clean. I will make breakfast." I stated walking past Joe. I knew as long as I promised food to Joe he would clean so that I didn't have to. We walked to the living room. Bodie was still asleep on the couch with some girl on top of him; Dog was at the table holding his head. I guess the rest of the guys could actually make it back to their own apartments for once. I surveyed the room and was happy that I had decided to cook instead of clean. I turned and walked into the bathroom. I walked back out and handed a bottle of aspirin to Dog.

"You are fucking amazing, you know that baby girl?" He stated, taking two pills out of the bottle.

"No problem. Soooo, bacon, eggs, and pancakes sound good?" I asked walking into the kitchen.

"Yea." Joe called from the living room. "Man this shit is fucking disgusting." I and Dog both laughed. I quickly turned back to Dog. "You can help him you know." I stated giving him that Darley look. He immediately stopped laughing and got up and helped Joe.

I had turned on the radio in the kitchen and immediately started making food. I was oblivious to everything around me. Soon two hands wrapped around me. I squealed turning to find Baggy standing in the kitchen, with a huge grin on his face. He checked behind him and quickly grabbed my hand and pulled me in to the dining room, pinning me against the wall.

His lips quickly found mine. I knew this wasn't a good idea, but with Baggy I could not help myself. Both of us got so caught up in each other that we didn't realize when someone entered the room, and cleared their throat. Both of us jumped, Baggy pushed as afar from me as possible.

"Jesus, Bodie, give me a fucking heart attack. I thought you were Billy." I hissed, holding my hand over my heart. "Yea come on man you know better than to do that shit." Baggy added in. Bodie had walked in on me and Baggy kissing one night at a party. He was the only one who knew about me and Baggy, and thankfully he kept it to himself.

"Yea and you two know better than to do that shit in the fucking apartment with Joe in the other room and Billy due here any fucking minute. You two trying to get your asses caught or what?" He snapped.

"Ren, what the fuck you burning" Joe asked walking into the kitchen to find me.

"Shit." I said running back into the kitchen. One of the pancakes was burned but that was it. Just as I was throwing it in to the trash can the front door opened.

"Morning, you hungry?" I questioned turning back to the stove. Billy threw his bag onto the couch and leaned against the counter opposite the stove.

"Yea, you ok?" He asked, lighting a cigarette. Why the hell is he asking that, there is no way he knows right?

"Yea, why wouldn't I be?" I asked turning around to face him.

"Naw, your face is just really flushed is all." Baggy coughed from the dining room. I remained looking at Billy, trying not to react Baggy's outburst. Damn, what is he trying to give us away or something? "You sure you're not getting sick?"

"I am fine; my face is probably flushed from the heat of the stove is all." I explained turning back to the food. I placed all the food onto platter dishes and walked into the dining room. I grabbed a bunch of plates and silverware and added them to the kitchen table.

"Joe, Dog, come on foods ready." I called, as everyone started stuffing their plates and began to eat. Billy sat at the head of the table, of course, with Bodie and Joe flanking his sides, Dog sat by Bodie, and Baggy sat by Joe, I was seated at the other end of the table across from Billy. We all had just about finished eating when my phone rang. I received a Darley look from Billy as I reached for my phone, I just rolled my eyes, and I was use to being at the end of that glare. He hated it when my phone rang when we were eating. I went to turn it off, but then saw the name. "It's dad." I said flipping the phone open, receiving a growl from Billy and a look from Joe.

"Hello."

"What the fuck are you doing?"

"I am on my way now."

"You better fucking be, and make sure you tell that fucking Nazi to get to fuckin work on those perfectly good fucking corners I gave him. I want more fucking money out of him and his halfwit friends."

"Alright. You want some breakfast?" That received a glare from everyone at the table.

"Yea, but hurry your fuckin ass up."

With that he hung up. I closed my phone and stuck it back in my pocket. I grabbed my plate and headed for the kitchen. Unfortunately I had to walk past Billy to get to the kitchen; just as I was almost past him he grabbed my forearm.

"Shit Billy that hurts." I announced, moving closer to him to try to ease the pain.

"So he fucking calls and you fucking go running, now?" He spit out.

"Are you serious?" I asked, rolling my eyes. "Fuck Billy, how many times we got to have this fucking conversation?" Billy got up and pushed me hard against the wall, making me drop my plate and glass, shattering them on the floor. It was same wall that Baggy had me pressed against earlier, but that was out of love, and this was out of pure anger. The thing is that I couldn't be pissed off at him for doing it because it wasn't me he was actually angry out; it was our dad Bones that anger in his eyes was directed at.

"How many fucking times do I have to fucking tell you I don't fucking want you fucking going over there?" He snapped.

"Billy, I have to you know that." I pleaded, looking him in the eyes.

"You better get there and get that shit done with. I want you home before I fucking wake up, or I am gonna come over there and get you my damn self." He said, pushing off me.

Shit that gives me four-five hours at the most, hopefully that will be enough. I stayed against the wall, as he turned to the others. "Now I am fucking going to sleep, Joe clean this shit up. Bodie and Baggy take her over there, and then get your fucking shit done." He ordered, leaving to go to his room. As soon as he was gone I went to my room and grabbed my laptop and everything else I needed to work at the shop. I met the guys in the living room.

"We walking or what?" Baggy asked.

"Umm…let me get his keys. Can you make a plate of food please?" I motioned to the rest of the food and headed back into Billy's room.

I quietly knocked once, and then entered his room. He was sitting on his bed, untying his boots. "What, Renny?" He asked the anger in his voice from earlier was completely gone. He had a sweet tone that only I heard. I don't know why but he could be the sweetest man in the world to me, but only when it was just me and him. Even if Joe was there he still had to pretend to be the big bad Billy.

"Can I have your keys so Bodie can drive me over there, please?" He simply took out the keys and held them up for me to take. I walked over and grabbed them, he didn't let them go. He grabbed my hand much softer than before. He looked down and saw that my hand was already bruising from earlier. He gently rubbed his thumb over it.

"You alright?" He asked just staring at the bruise.

"Yea, you know me. I can deal with it." He laughed, and let go of the keys.

"Look I hate you having to see him, you sure you're ok to go over there?" He asked finally looking me in the eyes.

"Yea, I will be fine." I stated, kissing the top of his bald head, and walking out of his room.

I threw the keys to Bodie as we walked out of the apartment. He shook his head, "Damn girl, I swear you're the only one that can get these keys out of his hands."

Baggy and I laughed. "That may be true but you're the only one he will let drive it besides him." We all got into the car. Baggy took the backseat, leaving me with shotgun. Soon we pulled into Bones' Bodyshop. I grabbed my stuff and kissed Bodie on the cheek, then turned around and kissed Baggy. "Look go get your shit done, and I will call you when I am done, we got about four and a half hours till he gets up and gets pissed that we aren't back yet." I announced as I moved the seat forward so Baggy could move from the backseat to the front. I turned to walk away and got pulled back in for another kiss.

"GET YOUR FUCKING ASS IN HER REN." We heard come from the shop.

"Well guess that is my cue to go to work. Later, babe." I gave Baggy peck. I leaned in close to his ear, "I will text you if he has a run for us, so have a vehicle ready." I waved to the boys and walked into the shop. I walked all the way to the back office, ignoring everything else. Bones was just taking a seat at his desk.

"Hey pop." I said happily. "Got some bacon, eggs and pancakes for ya." I announced setting the plate to the side of him. I placed a kiss on his cheek and headed toward the other desk.

"Nazi fucking know you dating one of his halfwit friends yet?" He questioned.

"No, you know he will kill him." I laughed walking back over to get to work.

"And what the fuck makes you think I won't fucking kill him for touching you." I gave him a hug from behind.

"Because then you would have no one to watch out for me when I do your runs now would ya?" He laughed.

"You got me there. I don't fucking like it though." He snapped back.

"Yea, well Billy doesn't fucking like me coming over here. What did you say to him this morning? He was in a hell of a mood when he got back." I questioned, grabbing the money that Billy had dropped off that morning. Shit, I could answer that question for myself. This pile was small.

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Billy thought I worked for dad by just counting the money, if he knew I was the one that delivered the guns and other things he would surely kill Bones. See to me Bones was dad, because just like Billy he had a soft spot for me, said it was because I looked so much like mom. She died while giving birth to me. Joe was four and Billy was eight. Bones took to drinking and the hard life when she died, leaving Billy to raise me and Joe. All three of us grew up on the streets, more so Billy and Joe than me though. When Billy turned fifteen, dad sent him and the boys to go work some corners selling drugs me and Joe were sent to stay at one of the other guy's apartment. Most of the gang lived in 'the Hall', dad use to live there to, but eventually moved into the trailer that was right next to the shop. He left the apartment to Billy. Everyday though, I would go with Billy to the shop and stay there while Billy cooked his stuff. This is how I got into counting the money. About six years later when I turned fourteen, everything changed. Billy now cooked stuff at 'the office', an abandoned mental hospital at the edge of town that no one went near. When I turned fifteen my dad decided that I would be a good delivery girl, thinking that the cops would not think that I was capable of trafficking guns around Boston. But since he didn't trust the people he sold to, to not take advantage of me in anyway; so, he sent Baggy on the runs with me. He choose Baggy because I was the most comfortable with Baggy cause I had spent a lot of my childhood at his house cause his sister use to watch over me and Joe. No one knew about that but Bones, me and Baggy. And that had been my life for the past five years. Now at nineteen years old, I was dating Baggy, and had more secrets from my brothers than I ever thought possible. What a family I have right, a father who is a gun smuggler, one brother who is a gang lord, another brother who sells and does drugs like no other, and then you got me the one everyone thinks is so innocent. I might not have the temper that the boys in my family due, but trust me I could hold my own when need be. Thankfully all I had to do most of the time was just say my last name and I got left alone.

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"How much you got?" Bones called over from his desk.

"Umm… so far, two g's. But I still got a little more to count." I announced recounting the money that was in my hand. He had made me lose count. After I was done counting I got out my laptop and wrote it down in the spreadsheet I had set up on my computer.

"We got 3,560, total. That includes both yours and Billy's earnings." He growled at that.

"How much did those fuckers make?" He snapped.

"Umm… 1,230." I whispered knowing that was not gonna be good for the next time Billy saw Bones.

"I fucking swear if he is fucking stealing from me I will fucking kill him." I just shook my head and continued to record things into the books, as he ranted away about how he was going to kill Billy and the boys. That is when it clicked in my mind.

"Holy shit." I gasped out loud on accident.

"What?" Bones snapped walking over to me.

"I just figured out why he doesn't want me over here?" I stated looking at Bones

"What the fuck you talking about, Renny?"

"Billy, you threatened to kill me if he messed up didn't ya?" I asked staring straight into his eyes.

"Gets him to fucking work don't it." He laughed going to sit back down.

"Your fucking horrible you know that?" I laughed right back at him. Well now it all made since, Billy had never seen the way me and dad are, so he wouldn't get that he was lying when he talked about killing me. God if someone was to kill me I would definitely feel sorry for them, they would have to deal with Baggy, dad and Billy. Not sure who would do the more damage, though between Billy and dad.

"Look call boyfriend and tell him you got some drop offs." He announced pulling guns out of the safe.

"How many? And when is the first one?" I questioned getting out my phone.

"Four and the list is on my desk." I walked over at looked at the list. Shit, we were gonna have to go all over town to do these drops. We should just be able to make it back before he wakes up though.

Bby, 4 dps, 1st in 30 min, hurry 3 ya. I was almost done packing my belongings when my phone went off.

K, b there in 5 3 ya2. I finished packing my stuff then headed over to the safe. I put the money in the middle of the safe and then grabbed the list for the guns. Together me and Bones put all the guns into the bags they needed to be in for their drop offs. As soon as the last bag was zipped up, Baggy appeared in the door way. He immediately went and grabbed my stuff off my desk then headed over to help me.

"Dad what car do you want us to take?" I questioned.

"Yours." I had a car, but it stayed at Bones, cause Billy would have a cow wondering where the fuck a got a car. My car was a Jeep, yea the boys liked their American muscle but I liked my little Jeep. Though Baggy drove it most of the time, because I always had to get out handling the deals.

"OK, I have some other plans today so I will just bring in the money tomorrow." I stated as I gave him a kiss on the cheek and then followed Baggy out to the jeep.

I sat in silence as Baggy drove, about ten minutes into the drive the silence drive him insane. "Ok so what has you in such a quiet mood?" He questioned.

"Did you know that Bones threatens Billy?"

"Babe everyone knows that." He laughed at me.

"But did you know he doesn't only threaten Billy with his own life, he threatens him with mine?" I snapped back.

"Umm…" He avoided all eye contact.

"You knew?" I screeched.

"Well yea, that is why Billy always has one of us drop you off and pick you up. And why he gives you a time limit."

"Jeez babe, you could have told me. I mean wondering what his fucking attitude is about me going to the shop makes me think he found out about me and you doing these drops."

"Sorry I know that Bones would never hurt you, I mean I think I am the only one that knows you are spoiled rotten by both Billy and Bones. Both may treat you like shit sometimes, but the love in their eyes for you is plain as fucking day, baby girl." I just sighed, as Baggy pulled to a stop at the first drop off. "Ready?" He asked putting his gun in his waist band.

"Nope." I stated giving him my usual answer to that question. I grabbed the first bag from the back of the Jeep.

The first drop was an easy and regular one. Chris Hemmings was a twenty-nine year old gang lord of Lexington, who got new guns from Bones every month or so. He was the first person I ever delivered to and I and he had grown very fond of each other. He had become another brother, and since Lexington was a good distance away I and Baggy never had to worry about these guns being used against our own boys in a gun fight. Baggy didn't have his gun for Chris, but in case someone decided to try and ambush us. Chris and his boys also knew about me and Baggy. Whenever I and Baggy wanted to go out to a party and be a couple we always went to Lexington to party with Chris and his boys. Everyone in our gang knew of Chris and his boys, but none of our boys knew any of them on a personal level, so we knew our secrets were safe with Chris.

Baggy and I waited by the back of the Jeep as we watched Chris pull in to the warehouse and walk over to us.

"Hey baby girl." He greeted, giving me a huge hug. "Baggy, your woman is looking better than ever, think I might just have to shoot you and take her!" He joked. Chris always joked that he was gonna steal me from Baggy one day.

"What makes you think I would have you?" I joked snuggling closer to Baggy, to let him know that I had no intention of leaving him. Yeah Chris was hot and charming, but I know the life of a gang lord, and I will choose a gang member over a gang lord any day of the week. A member of a gang had a much easier life than a leader.

"Well if you ever change your mind, you know where to find me baby girl." He announced. I just shook my head and laughed at him. "So, you should have three new toys for me."

"Yup and the ammo you asked for. How big are you guys now?" I asked.

"Well the two nicer guns are upgrades for some of my boys who did a good deed for me, and the other one is for a new member. So, I believe the last count was about ten in the inner circle and about 25 lackeys." Baggy whistled at the number. Billy had seven in his inner circle, and only about ten lackeys. Only the inner circle was considered part of the actual gang; lackeys were there to do the stupid shit, and sell sometime.

"Damn, well the two presents are $2,500 each and the third is only $1,500. So, your total is $6,500 for the guns. You want anything else?" I questioned.

"Not this time, but here is an extra five hundred. You can either keep it or give it to your boss man, I don't care." He stated handing me the money and sticking the guns into his car. As he was about to get in the driver's seat he yelled over to us. "We are having a celebratory party for the new guy in the inner circle tonight if you guys want to come."

"We will see, Billy was in a bad attitude today so he might be making Baggy work and locking me away in a damn closet, but I will text you and let you know what it up." I answered. "And thanks for the extra; I'll make sure you get it back somehow."

"Don't worry about it, keep safe on the other drops and I will talk to you later." He got in his car and left.

Baggy and I got back in the car and headed for the second drop off point. "So you think we can get away tonight? I kind of want to see who got into the inner circle. I mean the last person added to the inner circle was Marcus and that was what? Three years ago." I thought allowed to Baggy.

"Yea I was kind of surprised to hear that to. And I worked last night before I came over, so I can get off tonight. I think the problem is gonna be getting you out of the house, Joe and Billy watch you like a god damn hawk lately." He stated.

"Yea trust me I know, I thought we were dead meat this morning." I laughed. "But you do what you got to do to get out and let me handle my brothers."