Tag to "Nothing Gold can Stay"
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The Mentalist and it's characters are not mine. Thanks!
I watch him walk away. Again. Which number is this one? I tell myself I've lost count but that's not true. I know each one, each moment. The only thing Patrick Jane has ever been really great at is leaving. And each time he does it's spectacular. Each one is has its own flavor, it's own depth of pain.
I hit bottom every tine. How low can I go? The tears I feel in my eyes threaten to fall, they blur my vision and add a sense of unreality to this moment. It's fitting that I would stand in a cemetery I feel overwhelming by loss. Today, I lost an agent, a friend, a lover, myself and my future. I dare not ask myself what more there is to lose.
As I watch him leave, the tears finally escape and leave a searing trail of heat and shame. The breeze is cold against my cheeks as it tries to soothe the hurt. My breath catches and escapes in a low, soft sob. I hold my breath and feel it burn in my lungs. My lips tremble involuntarily and silent sobs shake my torso. I take deep breaths to calm myself. I allow the last of my tears to fall and wrap my arms around myself. I straighten my back and stand tall. I bite my lips as his rejection courses through me.
I'll be fine. I always am.
