Chapter one

Hot pain fills my arm as I feel him pull the band tight, he's trying to cut off circulation, and its working,I'm feeling pins and needles already. This isn't good, I could lose feeling completely in minutes, and then I'm in a real heap of trouble. He lets me go, and I hit the ground,hard,rolling away from him,then sit up against the wall. I watch as he puts the same type of band around the kids neck,to strangle him, as the others run away,except for Richter, who makes his way back to me, then gets down to my level,and smacks me. "I can't believe you lied to me you little bitch, you are going to get what's coming to you"he says quietly as I feel him grab me hard, then roll me on my back as I try to kick out,and have no luck,he gets his knee in my back,holds me down,then I feel a hand go down my waistband. Right as this happens,he makes it past my boxers,but nothing more, shots ring out, he goes down on top of me, blood getting on me,and on the wall. It's my team thank goodness,the situation is humiliating,but I know they know I can't help it,that I did the best I can.

I feel a hand on my shoulder,and a voice, it's Chris, "Easy Jim,we got you, Luca help me get him rolled over"she says as I realize he's sitting beside me. I feel them get the dead weight off of my back,no comments on how Ritchers hand is down my pants,then roll me onto my back. "Shit his arm, we need to get that thing off of him now,it's causing loss of circulation"she says as I feel something cold against my arm,sorta, it's a knife, and they cut off the band. I get a glimpse of it,and it's bad,real bad, I can see where it cut into my skin,there's some blood, and I can't feel hard anything,I can't move it. "Chris I can't feel it, there's nothing there,it's numb"I say shakily, scared mostly,and crashing from the adrenaline. "Shh I know Jim,we're going to get help,Luca go let Hondo know we're going to need the medics"she says as he gets up,then she helps me sit up. I feel her wrap her arm around me as the tears finally come,I hate crying in front of anyone,but I'm scared,and she gets that,she understands that.

"How bad did it get Jim, did he do anything to you other than your arm"she asks as I feel her rub it,to get some feeling back,and I start to feel some pain,ouch,that's almost worse. "It got bad, he put the band on my arm,to prove a point,then he let me go,I hit the ground,then he put the band on that kids throat, then he came over to me,smacked me, then got me on my stomach,put a knee against my back,then when he was putting his hand down my pants you guys shot him,he didn't do anything,he got past my boxers"I say. "Oh Jim, it'll be ok, I'm here for you,we all are, I can keep the part of him putting his hands down your pants between us if you want me to,shh easy I know it hurts"she murmus as I feel her hug me. Out of everyone on the team,she's the one I've gotten closest to, I'm close to everyone of course,but we just clicked.

I hear footsteps approach us, and I look up to see medics approaching us,a guy and a girl. The girl kneels down in front of me,and introduces herself as Ana, and her partner as Brett. "Ok,can I take a look at your arm honey,I'll be as gentle as I can Jim"she says, "yeah that's fine,I can't really feel anything,a little bit of pain is it,ow"I murmur feeling her palpate my arm, taking a look at where the band was tied. "Ok,that's not good honey, you might have a crush injury from how tight the band was,we need to get you out of here and to the hospital alright, are you ok for me to put you on an oxygen mask"she asks as Brett hands her the mask,"yeah,am I going to be ok"I ask feeling that bone gripping fear make it's presence known,I'm so unbeliavbly scared,I feel Chris squeeze my shoulder as she gets the mask over my face,over my nose and mouth. I see Brett come over to me, with the gurney,and they lift me onto it gently,then strap me in. I feel her squeeze my hand gently,in support as we start moving,and before I know it we're at the ambulance. They get me inside,then I hear Chris asking if she can come with me,and she is told yes that she can. They get in,Brett into the drivers seat,and we take off as I see her reach for a needle,to start an IV. I hear her tell Chris to keep my attention on her,keep me distracted while she does what she needs to do,and she does. "Jim look at me, there we go,focus on trying to squeeze my hand"she says gently as I try to squeeze her hand that's in mine on my injured side. I can do it barely, it hurts, but I can do it, "he's doing it, he can squeeze my hand,barely,but he's doing it"she says as I feel a pinprick,then tape being put on my arm as she tapes the tube down,and it's over.

"That's good, Jim can you squeeze my hand for me"she asks as I try to do so,weakly,but I can. "Your doing great,I'm going to get a pulse on you ok,then we'll get your shirt off so I can check your heart rate"she says gently,taking my hand on my injured side in hers,and taking my pulse,then writing it down. "You've got a little bit of a pulse,which is good,and your heart rate is good"she says as I feel the cool scissors against my skin,and she gets my shirt off, then puts the sticky pads against my chest. At this point we come to a stop,and the doors are pulled open,we're in the ambulance bay, that's a good thing. They get the gurney out,and I'm swarmed by a doctor and a few nurses,and I hear Ana tell them everything she knows,and gives them my vitals. We start to move inside,and I feel a nurse lift my arm,to look at it,and it's too much,I cry out in pain, oh god it hurts, so guess it's not numb anymore. "Ow,ow,make it stop,it hurts,it hurts"I murmur,feeling tears prick my eyes. "Shh,I know honey, we need to get him on some heavier pain meds,he's really hurting"I hear her tell the doctor as we get inside the room. "Ok,give him some Dialudid, it'll help with the pain"she says as I see a syringe,and she puts it into my arm,into the valve,and the next thing I know I'm really out of it,and have no idea what's happening to me,other than seeing a white light,and the pain dissipates again.