Chapter one
I look next to me. Jacob is checking the bike for one last time. The engine is roaring softly, but continuously. Jacob has got a little frown on his forehead. Then he nods and gives me a big smile. That took most of the hurt away. It always did after Edward left. Jacob is my one and only sun. He melts away the hurt and anger. Yeah anger.
At first I was really hurt that he left. Even his name brought pain in my heart. But then I realised that I was rejected. And anger filled most part of the empty space. He left me in the woods! All the time he betrayed me. Like I was his toy. Stupid it is, I am. To believe He loved me, and I loved him. I still do and I still am hurt. But I am angry to. All that time. Sometimes I just wish he had let me die when James bit me, then I wouldn´t be hurt so much.
But he´s not de only one I´m angry with. I am angry with myself. I´m mad with me because I´m hurt so much. Most of the time I think. But then I want to raise my voice and get more angry so I won´t be hurt so much. I want to outdo the hurt. But then Jacob´s soft voice brought me back to earth.
'Nervous, Bella?' he asked smirking. Well, yeah I was. I was doing this because I wanted to see Edward. I saw him when that lee... I mean Laurent. Jacob has a bad influence on me. He keeps calling every vampire leech/ leeches, including the Cullens. He hates Edward. I kind of feel bad for him, because I'm using him for the one he hates the most. I hate Edward, but I love him to. This is so complicated!
'A little,' I say smiling up at him.
'Well, I'm not going to stop you so... Go head and break a leg.' And with that I took of.
The wind was rushing though my hear. The sun was burning on my skin. But the speed, it was fantastic! I felt free. Like nothing could catch me. Like nobody could hurt me...
Edward. He did. And I'm coming looking for him. And almost immediately a face appeared at the corner of my view. But it wasn't Edward.
'Stop, this is dangerous.' A voice whispered low. I didn't know the voice, neither recognize it.
'Who are you?'
'You will get hurt.' It whispered again.
'I already am.' Suddenly it appeared right in front of me and I crashed down. My body was burning and my eyelids were heavy.
'Bella' I heard someone shout, but it was too late to stay awake.
I'm tired. Leave me alone.
Then my eyes closed
