I loved Kylo with all of my heart. Behind his tough, intimidating surface was a very scared, vulnerable, yet loving man. My feelings and relationship was unexpected. When I first stepped onto Starkiller base, I didn't think for one second that I would fall for one of the First Order's commanders. Kylo felt the same. He wouldn't have it any other way..that is until Supreme Leader Snoke caught on.
The Light…it was growing inside of him. Pulling him. Me. I was his light.
"Have you learned nothing from your training? Have you succumbed to the light?"
Kylo's head snapped up to Snoke, "No. Never."
"Something is holding you back. Someone."
Kylo clenched his jaw, "Supreme Leader, I-"
"Get rid of her. You have come to far to only have some girl hold you back from your true self. Those feelings are a weakness."
"Yes, Supreme Leader." With that, Snoke's image faded. Kylo's heart felt heavy in his chest. What was he going to do? He didn't want to kill me, but he knew if he didn't Snoke will have someone do it for him. So it had to be him.
Later that night, Kylo paced around his quarters. He asked me to meet him there after my shift was over. His thoughts were swarming his mind. He gripped his lightsaber hilt tight. The doors hissed open and I walked in with a smile on my face. I stopped in my tracks and my smile faded. It was replaced with a look of concern.
"What's wrong, Kylo?"
"It's hurting."
"What is?"
Kylo stopped and look at me. He looked scared and I've never seen him scared, "My heart. It's hurting and it shouldn't."
"I don't-"
"It's because of you. You make me feel things that I shouldn't even be feeling. They make me feel weak."
"Why are you saying this?" I stepped closer to him and he immediately pointed the lightsaber hilt at me. I stopped.
"You're bringing me towards the Light. I can't go there. I-I have worked too hard for this."
"Then just tell me what I have to do."
"Y-You have to die." I searched his eyes hoping that he didn't mean it,
"You're holding me back. You're my weakness. I can't have any weaknesses."
My eyes began to water, but I wouldn't the tears fall, "Fine, do it then."
Tears started falling from Kylo's eyes, "That's just it. I can't do it. I love you too much."
I slowly walked over to Kylo. His lightsaber still pointing at me. The hilt touching my chest right over my heart. I grasped his hand that was holding the weapon, "You don't have to do it."
"Yes, I do." Kylo whispered.
I shook my head and you let the tears fall, "No, you don't." And with that, I pushed the button and the lightsaber ran right through me killing me instantly.
Kylo's eyes widened and immeadiately pulled the lightsaber out of me and caught my falling form. Tears flowing freely as he held my limp form, "No! Tiffany, please! I'm sorry! Tiffany! Why? Why did you do that?" Kylo rubbed my cheeks hoping that somehow I'll still be alive, "I love you. Please, don't leave me." Kylo hugged my body as he sobbed.
Kylo thought he felt pain and anger before, but not like his. Was I his weakness? Yes, but I was also his strength. And now he felt all was lost and he could only blame himself.
