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This story is set during City of Heavenly Fire after Sebastian sends the angel's wings with the note that said "I'm coming." He told the Clave he wanted Clary and Jace, but in this story, he also wanted Jocelyn and the Clave gave them to Sebastian to save themselves. Sebastian had the Endarkened tie their hands so they wouldn't fight and then he took them to his kingdom in Edom.

"Look at all of this Clarrisa! This is all ours. Yours and mine, my queen." Sebastian says excitedly.

"Where the hell are we?" Jace asks. Their hands were still bound while the Endarkened held them so they couldn't run or attack Sebastian like Jace so desperately wanted to do.

"Hell is right, little brother." Sebastian grinned.

"We are in hell? This is your idea of a kingdom? The kingdom of what? The dead?….I'd rather die then rule hell forever with you!" Clary spat at him.

"You remind me of father. I do everything for you, give you everything, and still, it is not enough! No 'thank you' or 'good job'. Why is it that I am not enough for you? I'd burn down the world for you. I'd kill for you. I'd die for you! I would give you all and all I ask is for your love and loyalty in return. To be mine and mine alone. What will it take to make you see that we were always meant to be together? Meant to rule together as king and queen. You were made for me, and me alone. Not angel boy! He has always gotten everything. He took my father's love and praise after he took my name. And now, he has taken the only thing that was mine and mine alone. My sister, my love, my heart. The only bit of humanity I have left. He can have all of those things and keep them but he CAN NOT have you! You're all that I want…...all I have!" Sebastian yells in fury.

"You are completely mad! Do you know that?" Jace says to him.

"Yes, I am mad. But aren't we all?" Sebastian says pacing around them like a lion stalking his prey. He stops in front of Clary and steps closer to her.

"I've been waiting for the perfect moment. I've found a spell that will take me back in time. I will go back to the day your mother abandoned me and stop her and you will be raised with me. You will never know Jace and you will love me." Sebastian said with a wide and evil grin.

"What? You can't be serious." Jocelyn says.

"What spell? I've never heard of any spell that could take someone back in time to change fate." Jace says, not believing anything Sebastian said. "I think you're lying. You will probably erase our memories and replace them with... angel only knows."

"I assure you that I am serious. As serious as you were the day you abandoned me." he says looking at Jocelyn and then turns to Jace. "I can't lie. I have thought about changing all of your memories, but memories are tricky and they can always come back." Sebastian says. "You wouldn't have ever heard of the spell. It's ancient dark magic that is from another world entirely. It took me a while to find it but I finally got it. It takes many things that are hard to find but now that you 3 are here, I can finally complete the spell." Sebastian said as he grinned.

"What do you mean 'since we are here'?" Clary asks.

"Well, dear sister. I needed two more ingredients to compete the spell." Sebastian smiled wickedly.

"What does that have to do with us?" Clary, Jace, and Jocelyn all said in sync.

"I need the heart of the one I hate the most...and since I can't decide which of you," Sebastian says gesturing to his mother and Jace, "I will just have to take both of your hearts. The woman who abandoned me and the angel boy who took everything from me." Sebastian said as he grinned murderously.

"No! You can't! I won't let you!" Clary said with her eyes blazing at Sebastian.

"You can't stop me, little sister." Sebastian said.

"Then why am I here if you just needed them? Then why take me too?" Clary asks. "Wait…you said 2 more, so what is the last one since the heart was meant to be one?"

"Very perceptive, dear sister." he said as he smiled at her. "You see, that is one of the reasons why I love you." Sebastian says as he walked closer to her, grabbing a piece of her fairy red hair and playing with it in his fingers lovingly.

"Get your hands off of her!" Jace spat, trying to pull out of the Endarkened's grip to no avail.

"There is one more thing I need and the spell will be cast." Sebastian says ignoring Jace's protests.

"And what is that?" Clary asks as she grits her teeth. Sebastian steps closer; looking her in the eyes.

"The heart of the one I love the most." Sebastian says and Clary's eyes go wide.

"But you are a demon...and demon's can't love." Clary says sounding a little confused.

"That is where you are wrong, Clarissa. I'm half demon which means I'm also half shadowhunter. I do have feelings, although you are right. I never knew love, never had love, and I never loved anyone. That all changed when I met you because I love you. I've never felt...these feelings with anyone else. I've never given a second thought to killing anyone. I've never cared for anyone else's safety. I've never given anyone mercy or a second chance. I have only given those things to you and you alone. You make my heart race when I'm close to you. My blood feels like it's boiling when I touch you and when you're near. You make me feel this weird feeling in my gut. When I see you with anyone else, it feels like my chest is being squeezed and it becomes hard to breath, making my heart hurt. I've never felt this way...and it's strange and all new to me. I love you. I don't want other people touching you or owning you or hurting you. I want you to be around, to admire me and to see what I've done; what I've accomplished. That's love. isn't it?" Sebastian says as he takes the lock of hair still in his hand and smells it. "Strawberries." he whispers while looking at her. They way he looked at it was the same way Jace looks at her. With...love.

"So, you love me... but you are going to kill me?" Clary says.

"You will only be dead for a short time. I promise, my love, you will feel no pain. Once the spell is complete and I go back in time, you will be alive once more in the womb of your mother. It will be like today never happened. In fact, it will never happen because everything will change. So I'm really only killing the you that is the Clary now so the you that should have been will be born." Sebastian said as he caressed her cheek.

"Please, don't do this. If you love me, please don't." Clary says, practically begging.

"I'm doing this because I love you." Sebastian says back to her. He gets closer until their faces are only inches apart. Clary turns her head but Sebastian grabs her head with both hands so she can't move away from him and pulls her face back to him. Jace and Jocelyn are now screaming at Sebastian while he completely ignores them.

"Just one last kiss." he says against her lips. He brings his lips to hers very gently. She doesn't respond. He doesn't seem to care and just keeps kissing her while Jace and Jocelyn are screaming for him to stop.

"You bastard! I will kill you!" Jace snarls at him.

Sebastian pulls back from the kiss and puts his face in the crook of her neck and buries his face in her hair; taking in her scent one last time. He pulls back and looks at her beautiful emerald eyes as Clary looks at his dark eyes that are now filled with pain and sadness. One tear escapes his eye making Clary gasp. She never thought he could cry...but here he was. Crying.

"Why are you crying?" Clary asks softly.

"I will never regret anything as much as I will regret having to do this...but sacrifices must be made." he said as another tear rolled down his face. That's when Clary remembered that he needed her heart. He had to kill her and it pained him to do it. Maybe he really could feel after all? Maybe he can love.

"Brother, please." Clary said weakly.

"Close your eyes. It will be quick." he said as another tear rolled down his face. Clary looked at her mother's tear stained face and then looked next to her at Jace. He was looking at her with tears in his eyes. The boy who never cried. Her golden angel looked so broken and in so much pain.

"I love you Jace…and I will love you until I die. And if there is life after this, then I will love you then as well." Clary said with tears falling down her pale face.

"Clary, I love you. No matter what, I will find you. I will find you." Jace said as tears now covered his face. Clary closed her eyes and Jace's voice was the last thing she heard. He was repeating what he said to her over and over. "I will find you."