21st November, 2017

Dear diary,

I am seeing this guy almost every single day. Is this a coincidence or something? He stares at me for the whole time when I am sitting in the train. I don't really mind that he stares but still it does feel a little awkward. He keeps his eyes on me the whole time. I don't know what is going through his head during the whole time that his gaze is fixed on me. Just like me, he also has no companion inside the train. Neither does he talk to the people sitting beside him. It used to be super awkward in the beginning but now it has become a pretty much usual thing for me now that I have experienced it a whole bunch of times. He doesn't even blink and seems so stiff as if blinking for a split second will make me disappear from his sight or something. Does he know me?

He is so gritty that even when strangers are gaping at us, he doesn't flicker or dwindle but focus on me. It's a little creepy but I have managed to keep myself occupied with my cell phone or either a book or something. I wonder whom does he stare at when I stay at home and not go to work. That's a huge question by the way….

I finished my diary, turned off the lamp and went straight to bed trying not to think about the mysterious guy. I curled myself into the soft and cozy blankets and tried to sleep. As I shut my eyes, all I could think of was his icy blue eyes staring right at me from some corner of this room. I opened my eyes wide to double check. I sat up on the bed and gazed around my dark room hoping not to find someone and gladly, I was all alone. I went to the bathroom and washed my face. When I came back into my bedroom, the first thing that caught my attention was the curtain that was flowing in the direction of the wind from outside the window. As I went towards the window, I could feel the chilly wind all over my body. I steadied my pace to finish the task sooner. Grabbing the curtain, I closed the window shutters somehow. Then, I took a deep breath and went back to bed. The bed felt way warmer than my cold bare feet. I curled into it and went to sleep…finally.

I woke up the next day at quarter past seven. This was a little late than what I used to wake up daily. I kept sitting in my bed for a couple of minutes thinking or probably over thinking of the recent past events in my life. Then, I finally climbed out of my bed which had to be done despite of how cold the weather was. I finished the mundane tasks and got ready for work. The last thing in getting ready for work was having a glance at a full length mirror which I did. Everything looked perfect in the mirror. I had my black boots on with a sleek white knee length skirt and a frilled top. I grabbed my overcoat from the wardrobe and took it with me to the dining room where I was about to have a small breakfast. I put my coat on the couch while I went to toast some slices of bread for me along with a hot cup of coffee. I grabbed my cup of hot coffee from under the coffee maker and the toast. I finished my meal by half past nine and I was ready to go out. I grabbed my cell phone from the kitchen counter and headed out. I clutched the sides of my overcoat even tighter because the wind was thrashing against my body. I was late today so, there was no chance that the mysterious guy would still be in the train. Yeah…there was no chance. After walking for a couple of minutes, I reached the train and went inside. I took my seat and…

OH MY GOD!

HE WAS STILL HERE!

WHAT!

"Are you kidding me?" I uttered under my breath.

This was literally the most insane and ridiculous thing. I was an hour late than my usual routine and this guy was so crazy that he…whoa…wait, no, what if he is late too. Yeah…it could be.

So, after convincing my mind I went on to use my cell phone pretending to be busy. All I could think of was the night before and how I wrote about him in my journal and the thought of icy blue eyes which made me wake up.

Wait….

ICY BLUE EYES

And with this thought in my head, I got the strongest urge to lift up my eyes and gaze into his eyes like he was already doing. I kept looking down at my phone's screen instead. I closed my eyes and all I could think of was the way he stares at me and I felt as if there was something deeper in his eyes than what it seems to be. I felt his eyes upon me and I started smiling. Well, that smile appeared out of nowhere. I felt as if we both were doing the same thing. I don't know what happened but as I opened my eyes I looked up as if I was absolutely sure that I will find him staring at me and it did happen. He was staring at me. I couldn't help but smile this time and it felt stupid. Not stupid to smile in front of him but the people who were surrounding us. I didn't want this beautiful moment to be open to anybody but US. I smiled but he didn't smile back but I could feel that he nodded his head a bit and that was REASSURING as hell! I knew that he knew what I thought in my head.

I felt immensely happy. Suddenly, I felt so much energy in my body that I could run miles without having a drink of water or a break. And I felt warmth generating in some part of my body despite of the cold weather.

This experience was so surreal and so beautiful that I wanted to capture it somewhere forever.