1. Solace
I've almost forgotten what morning looks like. Sometimes when I look into her eyes, I can see who I used to me.
I've recently taken to wandering the halls of the ship. There is a certain peace in just hearing the sound of your footsteps on the hard floors.
The Woglinde is a magnificent ship, truly. Although in the depths of space, madness creeps on you unawares. Just today, one of our new additions - those beige coats who have authority from God knows where - yelled at me as I walked through the hanger. I'm not sure why, but the object we picked up from space has everyone on edge. One of the crewman, even, asked for my e-mail address. No crewman usually approaches people from our department.
I came very close to the end today. Allen chastised me. Everyone else held their eyes down. But I can feel it close - her. I saw her again today. In the machine. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy. Most of the time, though, I only remember the reflection of those eyes, those bright golden eyes.
Miyuki had a gun made for me. It feels odd attached to my hand. When I walk down the halls, I can feel the walls shaking, as if the world were about to collapse. I don't know why she felt it necessary to give it to me. But I can't not carry it around now, or else she'll be offended, most likely. And I remember the last time I offended her, unintentionally of course. She sent a flash flood into the simulation, and I ended up spending fifteen minutes waiting for the clouds to clear before I could gather more data.
I miss him.
-Shion's diary
