Title: The List

Author: Juliecollard87

Rating: TEEN

Couples: Michael/Liz, Max/Tess

Disclaimer: I don't own Roswell or anything for that matter.

Summary: This is the story of Liz Parker and how she became the women she is today. After finding out her best friend is dying Liz and Tess make a list of things to do before Tess dies.

Prologue

I was twelve years old when I stopped believing in god; the day my mother lost her life to breast cancer. My name is Liz Parker. I was what most people would call an out of control teen. My shrink told that my father, Jeffery Parker made me see right after my mother died told him it was my way of acting out because my mother had just died. He told him I would calm down after time. Well, it's been seven years and I guess you could say I have tried to put those days behind me. Not because I have forgotten my mother I will never forget her.

My story is a simple one really. Everyone in life has people that change them sometimes it's for the better and other it's for the worse. Someone you may think is for the worse ends up being the best thing for you change you the most.

The wheels of my story into redemption started rolling long before I had my falling out with God. It all started with my mother. She was a kind woman. In the years after her death my father would scream at me to be like her. I don't think I ever had it in me at that time to put others before myself.

Well, my mother like all mothers had a life before me. It's hard to imagine my mother being my age with the world in front of her. Nancy Parker was Nancy Williams, and she had a best friend named Sidney Gilbert. They did everything together since pretty much birth. They found love and got married just two months apart from one another. Then they got pregnant together within months. I was born first, and then Tess Harding followed shortly after.

Tess and I we were destined to be best friends just like our mothers. Tess's father walked out on her mother before we were two, I have no memory of him. It would not be the last bad thing to happen to Tess. When we were seven her mother was killed in a head on collusion while Tess and I were at school. My mother's kindness to others shined bright that day, even though her hurt losing her best friend. She did the right thing letting orphaned child move into our home even though I know they could barely afford to support me. There are days in my life that I will never forget, that day was one of them as my mother sobbed and told both Tess and I what had happened.

After the death of Tess's mother we became even more inseparable than ever before. Those days after her mother die I believe was why we were more than best friends we were sisters. That sisterhood was challenged again when my mother died leaving Tess and I alone with my father that had no idea how to raise two teenage girls.

The first time I had sex I was 12 years old, after my mother's funeral. I remember just wanting to be anywhere but there. Sex did that for me, got me away from my pain. Tess I don't think ever forgave me, and in some way I don't think my mother did either. It was the beginning of the end for my good girl name. Like a lot of young girls I used sex as an escape from my problems. By the time Tess my diagnosed with stomach cancer our sophomore year of high school I was sleeping with a different guy practically every week. By the summer of junior year I had slept with so many guys I had lost count.

Senior year came like a blur, by the end of the school year Tess had been given six months to live. Tess, she never let anything get her down even in her death sentence as a way to change me. Stop me from the life style that I had been living. I know now that Tess was more of a woman than I will ever be.

However, this is not a story of her losing control of her body to cancer. In some ways it is but it is so much more than that. This is the story of a list, a list that changed my life. As I pull the folded in half piece of pink paper with Tess's curly hand writing I know that it was one of the factors in making me a women.

But, to be honest there are four factors. The List, Tess, Max Evans, and Michael Guerin, I wish I could say that Max and Michael had nothing to do with it but deep down I know that these four things hold the key. That summer after senior year I became a woman that my mother would have been proud to know, and this is my story.

Chapter One

"Tess this is stupid you need to lay down and rest. You're going to make yourself sick." Tess looks back at me with a smirk on her face.

"How much sicker do you think I can get" she says with a smile.

"I don't understand how you can be so calm about this Tess you were given six months to live today." I tell her trying to get her to sit down but she keeps going through our closet like a mad women. "What are you looking for anyways?" I say standing up next to her.

"Our crush book" she says like I should just know.

"It's on the top shelf." I say pulling it down handing it to her. She smiles really big and runs jumping on her bed. "Ok, what's this about Tess? What do you want with a list of the guys we had a thing for way back when" I give her a questioning look.

"Well, if you remember there are two things in this book a list of every guy we both ever had a crush on but there is also a list of our hopes and dreams. Things we wanted to do with our lives." She says opening the book to a page with lots of writing on it.

"Tess, I don't really see what this has to do with anything we made that list we were eleven." I say laying down with her on the bed.

"You know I never want to die like my mother. She never had a chance to do anything with her life besides have me. I promised myself that before I died I would experience everything I could. I thought I had more time," she sighs. "But, I don't." She says looking down at the page. She lets out this laugh that is music to my ears, "I can't believe you wanted become a roadie for Brittney Spears. Does she even have roadies?"

"Shut up! Like I said we were eleven when we made this list I want completely different things now?"

"I know I just want to use this list as a jumping off point for a new list I want to make. I mean this list has a lot of things that we can't do anymore. Like, you saying you would be a virgin till you got married." She says with a sigh. Tess, she doesn't understand why I have a need to have sex with every guy I meet. Her words not mine.

"I thought we weren't going to fight about this anymore." I say getting off the bed and going to the closet putting things back where they go.

I feel her wrap her arms around me. "I know, I'm sorry I just want you to be happy because I love you."

"Who says I'm not happy."

"I know you're not, you want a connection with someone. Someone that will love you know matter your past." Again it amazes me how well she knows me. It also dawns on me how much I am going to miss her. "Is this what you really want to do? You know with the list."

"Yes, I want to make the most of my time." I walk away from her and picking the crush book ripping out a piece of paper to make the list on. "Here make the list I will do anything I want me to." She smiles she looks happy and that makes me happy.