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''And I don't wanna fall to pieces''
-Avril Lavigne
"So will you?" His deep dark blue eyes gazed at me and brought me back to reality with his question. Mike Newton was staring at me across the table waiting for a response. Ugh, he's such a creep. Can't he take a hint I'm with Edward, and always will be? I looked down at my science desk, trying to ignore him. I was tracing the patterns on the desk when the door opened. All heads turned towards the door, to see who was coming in. A shot blonde freshman named Erika came in. She was a student aid at the office. Erika handed Mrs. Scott a small yellow paper and they chit chatted for a few minutes. Erika's head bounced up and down quickly at each word the teacher spoke. Ha, freshman. I still feel mikes gaze on me so I look up to answer him.
"Will I what mike?" I say in a bored tone still staring this table desk.
"Will you come watch me play football this Friday? I could use a good luck charm, besides you haven't been to any social events besides prom last year." He said in his normal annoying voice. Lord please help me. Is this guy for? I mean come on, he asks me out everyday more than once a day and I always turn him down, but he keeps asking. What do I have to do to make him leave me alone? Maybe I should just get a restraining order. Besides he's freaking creepy. The way he's always looking at me. I was about to turn down mike yet again, but was interrupted by the teacher.
"Isabella Swan." The teacher called. My head snapped up immediately hearing my name.
"It's just Bella." I corrected her for the millionth time this year. I walked to the front of the room and took the note thankful for the teacher's interruption. I took the note a curiously gave it a look over. Apparently I had an emergency phone call. Hmmm, this is unexpected, I wonder who or what it's about. I've never gotten a call at school let alone an emergency phone call. It was probably just Edward checking up on me. The he spent chasing after Victoria was truly terrible. Quietly and quickly I left the room without a second glance back at Newton. Thank you, lord. I walked slowly down the hall to the main office letting my thoughts wonder to random places. I let my hand drag along the cold tile wall as it made a bunch and clicking noises from my nails. I wish Edward could have stayed with me, but he had to go. At least he promised he'd be back. Finally I reached the main desk.
"I have a phone call?" It came more out as a question, as I handed the receptionist the note.
"Oh. Right this way." She said politely but her old face held a frown and eyes full of sympathy.
"Here you go sweetheart." She said then handed me the phone.
"Hello?" I spoke into the receiver.
"Bella its Alice." The voice that came onto the line said. Alice? What could Alice want? Oh god, what if Edward or another Cullen's is d…de…d... I couldn't even bring myself to say that four letter word. Breathe Bella breath.
"What's wrong?" My voice was emotionless because of fear.
"Bella, nothing's wrong, I just wanted to check up on you and make sure you were ok at school, and give you an update of everything." She said slowly. I instantly unfroze and relaxed a little. Thank god no one got hurt.
"What is it" My voice was completely monotone.
"Not much we chased her around town some but she keeps disappearing somehow, but then pops up again and… Holy shit! Edward! Oh my fucking god! Bella I got to go, bye.…" She hung up. The phone fell out of my hand and hit the tile floor. I couldn't hear any sounds from around me but I could see people talking to me. I just broke down in the front office, causing heads to turn, but at that point I honestly didn't care. I don't recall when or how I ended up outside in the pouring rain, but here I sat on the front steps on the school just sitting here like a statue letting rain drench my whole body and not care. The nurse tried to get me inside afraid I'll catch a cold, but honestly right now it's the only thing holding me together. The rain somehow is keeping me calm and from passing out. Somehow the smooth rhythm of it is keeping my breathing at a nice slow pace. I sat there and sat there not moving, not even to go inside to stop my shaking, when the nurse brought me a warm blanket from inside. Of course it was wet in seconds, but it kept me that much more warm. After ages the final bell rang so I stood and got into my truck I put the key in a turned the ignition and put the heat on full blast. Alice told me to wait here for her or another Cullen after school so now here I sit playing the waiting game. I waited. And waited. And waited. Just as I was about to drive myself home I heard a loud knock on my window. I jumped as my heart pounded quickly in my chest, then I realized it was only my best friend, Alice. She looked saddened. What happened was my first thought when I saw her face?
"What happened?" I asked when I opened my truck door.
"Move over Bella." Is all she said?
"What happened?" I asked again
"Move over Bella." She repeated.
"What happened?" I screamed not giving a damn that people were staring at me.
"God damn it Isabella Swan, move the fuck over and I will tell you on our way to my house." She growled. I shrugged back and did as I was told letting her take the driver's seat as I sat in the passenger's seat.
Bella, I have something to tell you, but well I just don't know how." She said slowly. I instantly froze in fear Oh my god what if Edward got hurt.
"What is it" My voice was shaky although I was no longer cold from the rain my body was shaking, basically scared half to death.
"Victoria killed Charlie and Edward…" Was all she had to say? I broke down crying as tears flowed and flowed out of my eyes and down my cheeks. I don't think I've ever cried this much in my entire life. I didn't hold back I just let it all come out all the emotions I was feeling ran down my face like a dam was broken and my tears was the flood. I don't remember how long I've been here this large white sofa crying my heart out to no end. I cried and cried into Alice's chest until I grew weary and tired. I can'tbelieve it. I won'tbelieve it. He promised he'd be back! HE PROMISED!They haveto be okay. They just have to! It's my entire fault!Was my last thought before my eyes closed and I eventually fell asleep and drifted into horrific nightmares.
~-Dream-~
I don't know why but I had this wired urge to go to my house and that I needed to protect something, I don't know what, but I had a feeling it was important .My legs and arms pumped harder and faster as I neared the house running full speed. I dashed up the front steps and pushed the front door open and stopped cold at the sight before me andlooked up panting breathlessly. A high pitched laughed boomed and echoed around the small old worn out house. Victoria. Victoria's bloodshot red stained eyes looked into mine.
"No." I yelled as loud as I could. Victoria's eyes never left mine as she drained the blood from my father's body. Another laugh from someone else came out as I sobbed and begged her to stop. I whipped my head to the right to see a young blonde haired guy tearing apart Edward. I pled and pled for them to stop but they ignored my pleas. After Charlie was completely dead and Edward was torn apart and the pieces were burned, Victoria turned towards the male."Now it's your turn riley. I only used you to get my revenge, and now that everything's justified your next." She hissed at him. And put the whole house on fire with both her and me in it. For wired reason thought I felt as if there was something missing from the picture, well a someone. Someone more important than both Edward and Charlie put together. But somehow I felt like that person would soon be in danger as well.
~-End of Dream-~
My body was thrashing around as I awoke screaming. The skin under my eyes was raw from all the crying I did earlier and it hurt to open and close my eyes. My heart, that Edwards once loved to listen to, was beating so fast it hurt a little. I clutched my chest in pain, but it soon went away.
"H-ho-h-ho-how d-iii-d s-s-s- do it-it?"My voice barley came out. The salty tears were burning the raw path of skin under my eyes, but I couldn't contain myself.
"I don't think…" Alice began but was cut off by Rosalie.
"No! She should know. It's her fault after all that our brother's dead, her father was just a worthless little human that was at the wrong place at the wrong time."Rosalie hissed. She was right. It is my fault. It's my fault my father's dead. If I had just listened to him and stayed away from Edward, they'd both still be alive. Even more sobs broke out. Rivers of tears streamed downed my face and onto Alice's shirt. I don't think she minded she just held me there, that or she just didn't say anything. I feel like a total bitch, here they are comforting me when they lost their son/brother as well and I'm not even trying to comfort them. I can't believe my dad is gone. I'll never be able to cook him another meal, go fishing with him, or anything. I should have spent more time with him. Should've, could've, would've, but didn't. My fault! Please god, let me take their place, I would gladly take their place. Just let me see them one more time, I will do anything. It's my fault!
"When did you become such a bitch Rosalie? What the hell happened to the girl I married, because you're not her."Emmet yelled. I flinched back. Emmett rarely yelled, and I've never seen him yell at Rosalie. This is my entire fault. I tore apart their family
"I became a bitch, when that little hussy came into our life and messed up, almost beyond repair. She is just a human you guys. A. Worthless. Waste of space. Just a stupid H-u-m-a-n! For crying out loud!" Her voice was full of so much anger and hatred. Rosalie looked ready to pounce at me when there was a growl at the back door. We all turned our heads to see…
A/N from Cicifreakinsutton
So I would like to tell all my reader that I'm terribly sorry and there's no excuse as to why it's taken me so long to update. Also as you can see I have made some changes to the story because I felt like the one before was just too plain and short. I had a horrid case of writers block and I knew that if I didn't change a few details in the story I would not be updating on this story again. So I hope you guys liked it & I will be updating sooner and more often to ALL of my stories.You can thank my cousin for that because she begged the hell out of me till I sat at the computer and started typing. Love you guys.
Cicifreakinsutton
A/N from The cousin:
Well I am glad you did finally update, I really did bug her so much she stopped talking to me! Well for a good two days. I am going to beta these stories of hers and make banners which if you want she will put my profile link on hers and click on it and I have the banners on their ;) I look forward for more chapters to beta and you better write them and I will write mine
