If anyone was to ask of you, I'd smile, remembering all good. You may have done some things that are unimaginable, but they had to be done and you did them, even against your own will. You thought of the bigger picture and not just yourself, you always were the one to save us, even from ourselves. Always trying to save someone else, not even thinking that you yourself were the one who needed saving more than anyone. If only we had noticed, I had noticed, anyone. All it took was for one person to see that you were the one who needed to be rescued, but no one did. You were getting further and further out of your mind, getting more and more lost and eventually you would be gone for good. You would soon be so far gone that no-thing and no-body would have the ability to bring you back. It would only take a little more time for that to happen and then you would be gone forever.

I blamed everyone for what happened to you, including myself, in fact I blamed everyone else to cover up the fact that it was me who I blamed the most. I, of all the people, should have known what was going on, but I didn't realise until it was too late. You were to far gone by the time I realised what was happening to you. I kept thinking to myself, "If only I had been a little sooner, it wouldn't have taken long." But no I was too wrapped up in my own little world to notice.

I am so sorry for that, I feel like I caused your death because I could have prevented it but I didn't. I practically killed you myself. Do you know how that makes me feel? I sit here alone at night now, that's when it hits me the most, at night. Lying awake until the early hours, just lost in a shadow of regrets. Regrets for you, regrets for me and most of all regrets for us.