I feel like I have lost him but I cannot let him see that. He is happy now. I wish for his happiness.
This wasn't how i pictured my return. It never ocurred to me that John might have moved on. As my time away drew closer
to an end, I would find my self ocassionally devising scenarios in my head of how it would be to return. I never pictured this.
I cannot let him see, I must hide it.