I had a feeling that something was going to go wrong.

It started the day that we asked Lily to have our baby. I wasn't sure what the feeling was, I just knew that something bad was going to happen. Severus thought that I was just going through a mood, but I knew that something was weird with James and Lily. It seemed like she was way too happy to have our child, but I put it off as happiness for us wanting to take the next step. We were planned to be getting bonded soon, and then we were buying a house. We had it picked out and paid in full, but were waiting for us to finally be legally together. We wanted to have that house be our house as a couple. It would be decked out with everything for a new couple, and it would be child-safe. It had the strongest wards that Albus helped us put on it, and it would be very safe.

But even thinking about having this new house, and my soon-to-be husband, I still felt that something was off. That something was going to happen that would change our lives for forever, and it would affect our baby...

I put it off, but it nagged at me for sometime, until I was so paranoid that I couldn't walk down the street without looking over my shoulder about fifty times. James noticed that something was up, and I told him about my feeling. He said that it was just stress at the bonding being so close. It was the day after next, but I was excited for it, not anxious. There was somthing about the way that James was talking, and how he sat that further induced my feeling. He seemed tensed, and unrelaxed around me even though he used to be perfectly fine around me...

I told Sev about this later, but he just said that James was stressing about Lily, and to make sure that she would be fine throughout the pregnancy. She was about two-thirds of the way through her first trimester, and everything seemed to be going along wonderfully.

But that feeling was still there in my mind. But yet again, I pushed it away , because I had so much to do for the bonding.

I was getting cold feet...

I mean, I love Sev, and he knows that... But I can't help but wonder what would happen if we didn't get bonded? I mean, we don't have to get bonded... We can still be together and not pronounce to the whole world that the already disgraced eldest Black son is also a fag and is getting married to a half-blood, right?

Wait.

Where. The. Hell. did that come from?

I thought I had gotten over all of their brain-washing...

They must be using telepathy to turn me into a mindless... (hold on, what are those metal muggle things? trobits? no... robits? No... Ribots? Robots! That's what they are the tricky bastards...) robots? A possiblity...

But that just means that I have to bond with Sev even more now.

So...

Tomorrow, the day of the bonding, is going to be hectic. We'll be running around, greeting people, getting ready, finding the rings (which ahve already been lost three times... The damn things are just too small...), and hoping to God that James did not forget that he is not supposed to be making googly-eyes at Lily...

Fuck... We're screwed...

I mean, I understand how that they just got married three months ago, but shouldn't that be enough time for them to stop being so... Touchy? And I know that they haven't stopped doing it...

Wait.

Lily has my baby in her, right? Right.

And James has been putting his thing in...

Shit...

Casi baby, just try to not let this scar you for the rest of your life... Just for information, that normal ones don't look like that... Normal ones are bigger... But don't worry baby, I'm sure that yours will grow to be normal size... James just has an issue with size...

Well back to the bonding...

I hope everything goes well...


Everything did not go well...

Everything went perfect.

You know that unsettling perfect? It was that kind of perfect.

Everything was set up perfectly. We went down the aisle perfectly. We went through the ceremony perfectly. The rings were not lost. We said our vows. We kissed at the end. We danced at the reception. We then drove off in a just married broomstick... Everything went so well that I was hoping that something would just go wrong...

But we made it home... And we did honeymoonly activities... (I'll spare you the gory details)...

We checked up on Lily and James the next day, and she went and got a doctor checkup. She was going along great.

But that feeling was back when I saw the shadow in her eye... But who knows? I trust my best friends...

Everything will work out...

I hope...