SAILOR MOON 180: Reawakening of the Goddess
Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon nor any other anime's that may randomly pop up in the middle of this document, I am only borrowing them in order to continue the question of, "what would happen if this was different and that was added?" Chemistry is fun in literature, no worries about the explosion destroying the house or lab.
Author's Note: We have all seen Serena/Usagi be sooo nice, caring, and utterly polite to people... and we have also seen her go ditch the scouts for one reason or another, usually the scouts betray her in some way, and so on and so forth... How about an attempt at a total twist? The main warning will stand that people will be OOC, things will be twisted around, and I will probably be rather biased.
Note: This is a rewrite of the previous version. My original idea was to rewrite the entire series, much like my Yu-Gi-Oh series "What Might Have Happened," but as can be seen it didn't work out as well. This version condenses the first season into one chapter and will begin in Sailor Moon R (which should be the third anime arc with the Black Moon family). I know people may not like this version as much as the previous, and if that is the case I will attempt to finish the original as well as this one but no guarantees.
Summary: Tsukino Usagi was a prisoner in her own mind, locked away behind a crystal key a long time ago by a desperate Queen. After years of fighting she is losing against the power that has taken over her body and is dangerously close to losing… until a new enemy gives her the hope she has been searching for.
1. WHO I REALLY AM
Diary of Tsukino Usagi.
TO: Usagi
FROM: Naru
Happy Birthday! I didn't know what to get you for your birthday this year and when I was browsing the local mall this book just called out to me that it was ideal for you. I love you like a sister, Usagi, and sometimes you look so sad despite the smile you plaster on your face every day. When I sat down and thought about why this gift called out to me I came to the conclusion that you need a means of venting yourself. So many times you looked ready to say something and yet you never could, I remembered how frustrated you looked.
I hope you can finally say what you will, even if it is writing it down in these pages.
Osaka Naru
Best Friend and Study Buddy
Entry One, No Date.
I don't know my real name but when I was adopted my new parents named me Tsukino Usagi. I am now sixteen and my family has lived in this prefecture in Tokyo, Japan— Juuban— since I was five. The first friends I made were Naru, who gave me this diary, and a local hobbyist (or "geek" if you wish to label him) named Umino and they have stuck by me through everything. I wish I had the ability to pay them both back.
I should start at the beginning, which would be what happened when I turned fourteen and started to go through this truly weird phase where I found myself falling into against my will, I encountered a talking black cat with a crescent moon mark— she called herself "Luna." Right there was the beginning of this downward spiral, something I consider a descent into madness that sucked me in. Maybe I should explain a few things about myself before I explain about what is going on around me, with me, before I get too far into the present and leave no real context.
This phase, as I mentioned just after my brief introduction, began when I hit puberty at age thirteen but climaxed at fourteen. Before that point I loved to run and even took kendo lessons; I was always punctual and the person that people could rely on; hell, I even liked to read as well as rant about books; above all I loved to wander without a real direction! Then, one day, I felt something curl around me and… POOF! It was like a light switch was turned off and I went from content and reliable to airheaded, overly cheerful, and flaky.
For the sake of all things sacred, I went from maintaining a steady 3.75 GPA and taking kendo lessons to barely passing and nothing. Before I turned fourteen my parents even agreed to buy me a sword, when the time came to it, if I finished with a 3.75 GPA three times… I did so and I still have the IOU and the savings account they set up. Before I hit fourteen I had made friends with the red headed boy who was the instructor's prized apprentice, who was a private person and did not like to talk too much about himself so we'd talk about everything else but one another. I miss my daily trips to the Magicbus prefecture, thankfully I can write letters and e-mails to Fujimiya-kun. I explained a few things and he accepted them without question, since he knew how much I loved taking kendo lessons.
His last letter told me about his day job as a florist. I wish I could plan one good day around the urge to send his colleagues into a fit of silence and near shock, as well as the demented fan-girls he complains about in every letter into seizures. It would have been so worth it, more so to have a camera on hand. All of these lost opportunities, lost get together, lost fun, lost time… all lost because of something I can't talk about or even begin to understand!
In the end it was a terrible 180 degree turn from who I really am to someone that wasn't me. I can't tell anyone either because whatever changed me is blocking my ability to talk about it. I lost lifetime friends because of that change, but only one managed to stick by me, and I lost so much. If I could cry, I would, but all I can do is smile a fake smile and watch from behind my own eyes as this entity… this thing ruins everything. Unfortunately that was the first even of what later snowballed out of control, I almost wished I could have brought myself to end this suffering.
I am not myself. I don't even have control over my actions. I am a prisoner in my own body, in my own mind, and my only moments of freedom are the brief moments when the power that controls me seems to have exhausted itself. That should answer any unasked questions about how I came to be writing in this diary now.
My 180 in personality aside, things got more clichéd as well as worse after that. My already messed up life was now filled with long nights of fighting odd beings called "youma" in a short skirted uniform that makes me feel unclean after "transforming." Occasionally we end up fighting costumed villains, all that claim to be from our past or the future, which cause massive property damage that is making the government feel rather annoyed. My parents would be most disturbed if they had to deal with the issue of the Scouts and paying back damages to local stores, houses, and what-not. I wish I could quit, but Luna and this disgusting thing I became will not let me stop. Let be known here, in these pages, that it isn't my choice to continue this cycle and it isn't my wish or ambition to have super powers. Am I insane? Possibly, but I don't really care anymore.
Back up a bit, I wondered off topic again. Sorry. I am now a Sailor Scout, specifically of the Moon… of which one, I don't know, but I have a general title and represent a small orbiting ball of rock. The short skirt makes me feel dirty, the speeches are cornier then stale un-popped popcorn , and it seems magic and common sense do not go well together at all. I should have been caught by now! How many Japanese teenagers can say they have ankle length blonde hair up in a bun on either side of their head? ONE! The government cameras and the like should have caught me by now!
Ahem. Yes, rant aside. I am Sailor Moon, a week later Sailor Mercury (aka Mizunio Ami) joined the team after she mysteriously transferred from a prestigious boarding school into something akin to public schooling. That is an issue. She is easily a genius, a prodigy, and probably could have graduated from high school at the age of thirteen yet she attended Juuban Middle School, with no challenge. It seems someone else is screwing around with her life as well because that is easily the most crippling change of mind I have ever thought of and since I am stuck in my own head I have a lot of time to think about this before writing it down. I think she suspects something is wrong with me, but she stays silent. Maybe she has the same issue I do about talking out loud about this issue.
Isn't like anyone reading this would believe it. Pessimism thy name is Usagi.
Two weeks later Sailor Mars (aka Hino Rei) joined the team. She isn't bad, but I think with her miko background she is more sensitive to whatever seems to be guiding or controlling us. A few times I have sworn she stares at me a little longer, other times almost like she pities me. If she knows she doesn't bring it up, but that may be for the best. She still attends her private school, paid for by her politician father, and lives with her priest Grandpa and a former drifter known only as "Chado" to us… he's an American who is studying the Shinto religion now. Both are in love, which even I can see when this force that controls me watches them without trying to stuff my face with cookies or donuts I hate, but she is ignoring the signs. When I saw her out on a date with Chiba Mamoru (aka Tuxedo Kamen) she looked ready to hurl or her face was stuck in a permanent 'I just ate a lemon' look. Luckily Chado is more patient then he let on and reads between the lines rather well, or so I am assuming.
Sometime after Rei's admittance to our exclusive, forcibly created, club we managed to defeat two Negaverse Generals and were starting on the third when Sailor Jupiter (aka Kino Makoto) joined. I don't know what to make of the girl since she doesn't seem to care about the fact that she is being controlled by an outside force. Then again with her past, which I will not write here, maybe she doesn't care or… I don't know. She gives me the creeps with how she indulges these disgusting habits this other thing has, not even Ami or Rei do that!
Sailor Venus (aka Aino Minako)… she is a real piece of work that I can't even put into words. I downright despise her and both of the talking cats and if I had a chance I'd beat her black and blue with my dusty bokken I would definitely do it. End of discussion.
Entry Two, No Date
Sorry for the abrupt cut off in my first entry, I needed to take a relaxing bath since my anger was at a new high after pouring my emotions into this book. If I get a chance I'll have to thank Naru for getting this for me since I feel a bit better, who knew that venting to an unbiased "ear" could help loosen the knot in my ribs from bottling all of these emotions up?
Anyways, it is now after the daily scout meeting and a good time to pick up where I left off yesterday. I'll hopefully add a bit more about Makoto and Minako in this entry, but I discovered today that Rei and Ami are actually rather interesting and I think we could have been friends if we had not been forced together as we had. Maybe I can still forge those bonds with them if this controlling force is ever removed. Oh yeah, right… back on topic…
The Negaverse, as ruled by Queen Beryl who destroyed the Moon Kingdom and the like, was defeated before I turned fifteen. They were a bit misguided, but not generally bad… I think. The generals were, in the end, eliminated by either one another or Beryl for their failure, before the last general took over their operations it was discovered that I was the reborn mythical Moon Princess and my tears of Chiba Mamoru (aka Tuxedo Kamen, whom I have not covered yet as a person I know) who turned out to be the reborn mythical Prince Endymion. Anyone else sensing a disturbing pattern here? Moving on, time passed and Chiba was turned evil by the Negaverse and epically failed at being a villain. That discussion was brought up at a meeting, oddly enough by a skeptical Rei, only to be cut off by Minako and Luna who said that his "overwhelming love for the Moon Princess" is what made him falter when it came to fighting us. The look on Ami's face made me think she wanted to call "bullshit," unfortunately she didn't.
I hung around after that meeting, patiently waiting until they all left the temple with Luna going with Minako, and heard Rei laughing hysterical while repeating that answer out loud. Brownie points for her.
Some more time passed and we all teleported, no joke and don't ask me for the details because it was like a psychedelic kaleidoscope warp hole travel method, from Japan to Antarctica. We were not wearing any protective gear for that biting wasteland, only the mini-skirts and bodices with high heels… in the true land of snow and ice and again there is no rational or logical explanation to why we did not die of hypothermia within the first five minutes. Then began the epic near-final battle where we fought five weird faerie looking youma who had slightly more powerful versions of our attacks. Thus began the Shakespearian tragedy where everyone eventually dies.
The first of our "group" to die was Ami, who slammed her futuristic computer into the jewel on the forehead of the blue faerie youma. Good move, only wish the powers that be hadn't screwed Ami over with such a useless attack as bubbles. Wonder if there is a way to tweak the magical attacks… not like I can suggest it at the moment. She was then entombed in ice in a macabre scene that still makes me shy away from ice sculptures. Second was Makoto, who tried to stop my controlled form from running towards the obvious trap and mirage of Tuxedo Kamen hanging by vines in the middle of a frozen wasteland. This just reinforced that the power that took over supports blonde stereotypes. That aside, not much can be said in Makoto's favor since she chased after the Motoki mirage, who is engaged to marry Rita when she returns from her first African expedition and graduating from a private college with a degree in Archaeology. How she keeps forgetting that, I will never know, and how she thinks he will actually dump Rita for her I don't wish to think about. Anyways same as Ami, only not as amazing and disturbing but that is my hate talking. Third was Minako, and personally I wanted to do a victory dance when she died but that is my petty side coming out. Last was Rei, whom I thought kicked major ass as should the Scout of Mars and representative of the Roman/Greek War God Ares. I never want to get on her bad side… damn.
Not much else I can say about that… they all died even if I really mourned two of the passing before being whisked away to face Beryl and the evil Mamoru. That was anti-climactic, which is all I will say, since he died and then the thing controlled me died taking Beryl out. Then the power in control of my body woke up one day, like nothing happened, without any memories of what happened over the course of the last seven months.
So, how am I able to write this all down? I watched everything happen and the power doesn't reach me that and the power's memories were reawakened because the Earth is danger yet again. You can almost hear the powers that be screaming, "Here are your memories back now go sacrifice yourself to save this planet again. Kthxbai." Thank you, new enemy for the new migraine you just saddled me with, I hope you suffer a humiliating loss. This time they call themselves "The Black Moon Family" and they are here to get revenge for being kicked out of the future utopia that is Crystal Tokyo and they are trying to capture Chiba and I's future daughter, Chibi-Usa who is technically 910 years old yet still looks like a ten-year-old kid.
No lie! Interesting kid, but she is in serious need of an attitude adjustment. That just makes me think that Chiba isn't ideal parent material and that this power that is controlling me has absolutely no taste whatsoever. Then again, I don't like him in any way, shape, or form.
Oh… maybe I should tell you my thoughts on Chiba Mamoru (aka Tuxedo Kamen) now. He's a good five years older than me and attends a local college, of which I know isn't Tokyo U. He also slinks around Juuban a good bit, usually in outdated clothes and from little I have seen of him he lacks a real personality. He insults the controlling power, acts like he is all-that, and has a tendency of stalking teenage girls in his "Tuxedo Kamen" form. On top of that he gives cheesy inspirational speeches, similar to the ones that Shingo told me a girl named Mazaki Anzu from Domino City (Shingo is friends with Kaiba Mokuba from Domino City, they both play soccer together) likes to make.
Oh yeah, he throws red roses as weapons. Why couldn't he have been like Erik from Phantom of the Opera? At least he had a wicked voice that made women melt, not to mention a lasso and his homicidal tendencies! I could easily overlook a deformed face for a personality, skill, and a voice. But no, I had to get the defective Phantom with a cheesy poetry/speech complex! Proof positive I'm either a defective magical girl or a revolutionary in the genre.
Laugh yourself to death on that thought, please.
With that flushed out, the new enemy is from the future and doesn't like what has happened so instead of doing the rational thing and settling down in the present they want to kill us for something that hasn't happened. This honestly sounds like a B-Rate American Sci-fi movie. Hence our present situation… on top of all that insanity, I should, add Chibi-Usa now wants us to go to the future to fight this enemy without causing a Time Paradox by meeting up with our future selves. I forgot to mention that three of the four other Scouts have been kidnapped, in a last ditch effort of the Sisters before they were turned to dust, and taken to the future… which is why Chibi-Usa is pushing the issue. Maybe, instead of taking out the Black Moon Sisters and Rubeus, I should have just given them the damned crystal and a nice 'Thank You' card for taking it off of my hands. After all, it is the root of all troubles thus far. Then again the power controlling me may not have let me have my way.
Maybe I should go to therapy, I don't think my mind is in the right place and this is all one big nightmare. Maybe I am in a coma…
