'To die now or to die later that is the question' I thought as i sat on the roof of the rugged two story house. Behind me was the window to my shabby room, i did not have much but i was greatful for the little i had. Beyond me and the roof were pine trees, some as tall as a skyscraper and others as small as the house not including the even smaller trees that were fighting below the others for the yellow rays of sunlight that shown rarely here in the white winter cold land. I layed onto my back to watch the returning stars as they began to blink their lights on one at a time as dusk continued its role in life, 'So what now?'

Imaginary images of the 'Saim Hain Sole Circus' as it was called, appeared in my head. I had never seen an amusment park or circus before but i bet it was truely amazing like they say the 'Saim Hain Sole Circus' is like.

As i continued to watch the sky i had almost fallen asleep, if it had not been for that last banging noise from downstairs i would not have jumped so high and on alert. Hearing nothing i grabed my small backpack and put it on before chaos would errupt, that first bang was only the beginning here. Ducking back into my room i checked to make sure i had everything, with only a few ragges for clothes and shoes it was not much to keep me warm in the snow i would have to walk in.

"But it's better then staying here" i whispered softly to reasure myself as i ducked out of the window and quickly in a few steps jumped off the roof. Landing with a thud on the ground i stayed where i was to be sure that 'He' would not be comming after me. A quick glance onto the pourch revealed the black Sniper rifle laying against the wall next to the door, ammo scope and all, and even a small pocket knife. "Just as planned!"

Quietly i stepped up onto the pourch and stuffed the ammo and knife into my almost empty backpack. Footsteps heading upstairs alerted me that it was time to go, grabing the gun i ran into the forest while puting the strap of the gun around me to carry the gun easier.

It was quiet untill the engine of a vehicle started up, "Crap why can't running just be the easy part for once?!"

Looking up into the trees an idea formed, stragely it was not tree related. Looking back ahead i found a high mound of snow before i jumped and barried myself in it. With only enough view for one eye to look outside i watched quietly waiting for the on comming vehicle to pass. It seemed like ages while waiting in fear for the thousandth time in my life. I noticed now that it was beginning to snow, helping me by covering up my trackes quickly.

A light show through the trees blinding my one eye that was watching as it stopped. My heart pounding in my chest as panic over come me, watching him step off the rather large four-wheeler.

"You bitch!" he yelled kicking snow around "Where the hell are you?!"

He walked around more stoping right next to my mound of snow, "Stupid kid will freeze to death out here anyway" he barked as he turned towards his four-wheeler. Releif sure felt good at the moment as it washed of me seeing the sight of him leave.

'I was free for once, after all my 16 years of life here in Alaska i was free from his torment forever!'

After the excitment had died down a bit, i realized just how much of a situation i was in. I was homeless, had no food, barly clothes and defence, and i was absolutely freezing like cold water in a 100 degrees below freezer. "Guess that brings me back to my first question, To die now or to die later?"