My name is belle swan, I am 19 years old, and I am scared of finding love again, u see I have been screwed over, at lot the last year and a half.

First there was Edward Cullen, my first love and the one that broke my heart, messed with my self-esteem. And nearly got me killed, by leaving a certain red haired vampire.

The only thing I really miss about edweird would have been his family. I miss my little pixie and her gentle husband. I never really got to know jasper very well, but he once told me I was worth it. Also he helped me so much. I felt him there. I never saw him, but I know he was there.

My teddy bear and his ice queen, even though Rosalie didn't like me. She is perfect for Emmett. I am glad he has her. I hope they are happy where ever they are. I do not hold a grudge there.

Then there was Carlisle and Esme, I don't even nowhere to start with that bit I don't think, I will ever be able to forgive them, they let edweird take everything from me. Carlisle was meant to be the coven leader, yet he let him order everyone away from me.

I finished school with help from the wolfs , they helped keep Victoria away from me long enough for me to finish school and finish everything I needed to do. It nearly broke me when she got through their defences one night, and killed someone from the tribe. I left the next day I could put them through anymore.

So it brings me to the second part of my super natural nightmare.

I met a vampire, while I was in England, he was sweet and caring to start off with until he found out I knew about the Cullen's. It seems he didn't like them, he thought of me as his pet. Fed of me little bit at a time. I escaped and found myself in a little seaside town, in the east of England. I met some people that I was shore they could help me, I got in contact with Charlie. God how I missed my dad.

I had asked Charlie to help me, but he didn't have the money, it would take a while for him to find the money to help me home. I couldn't help but be disappointed. I wanted back in the states at least.

One of the people I had met, her name was maria, she was a force to be reckoned with.

She is one of the people, that once u make friends with her, u remain honest and she will help u out anyway she could. At the moment, I have been staying with her.

At 18 years, she is different I don't know how to explain. She is a bigger girl at a uk size 18. But her heart is even bigger, just in the time I have been here, I have seen people take the mick out of her. I have also seen here arms, she tries to keep them covered. She has two bite marks on here arms, vampire marks. I know she has seen mine. I feel a kin ship with her, its something we both understand. Its something we will conker together. I hope when I go back to the states she will come with me.