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Chapter One
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Spock exited the Science Building at the Academy and turned in the direction of the medical facilities building. Spock had contacted his cousin Sirin and the family friend Lo'vaak. They were Vulcan healers and he had need of their services. He had noticed a shift in his bodily functions that were of deep concern for him. As a matter of fact they were troubling-and Vulcans don't get troubled. For them, if it is Kadith (What is, is) it becomes necessary to analyze, break the matter down to its simplest elements and deal with it. What Spock found most unsettling was, not knowing.
He was very concerned about the possibility of the approach of Pon Farr. He and his mother had always assumed that his hybrid condition would prevent his experiencing this hormonal imbalance that was part of the Vulcan experience. In retrospect, he had to admit that his mother would have gone through quite a few Pon Farrs with his father. In view of his present experiences, their initial conclusion had been wrong. A blood test would confirm or contradict his suspicions. He was not sure if additional tests would be necessary but he was willing to endure whatever poking and prodding necessary to give him the answer. Upon confirmation of his suspicions there would be the need to speak to Nyota. Of course today's conversation with The Healers might put an entirely different focus on her fulfilling her role as his bondmate, his aduna.
Before he and Nyota had embarked on any intimacy he had explained the Vulcans unique physicality, their peculiar needs and that hormonal madness called Pon Farr. She had listened, absorbed and questioned. The decision she made was based on her love and concern for him…"We are in this until I die, it is a reality that we will have to deal with. How could I say no to you?"
When they embarked on their physical joining he was amazed at her. Her petite body would not allow him to not be sated. Later she nick-named their first time as Spockh aduna's kaha'wan'. (Spock's wife's trial of endurance). Although her acceptance and their initial bonding brought him the most fulfillment he had known up until that point in time, he had to admit the natural conception of his son and his aduna's pregnancy and their subsequent birth, had completed him in every respect.
Spock was now by Terran estimation, thirty-six earth years. Behind him were missions on the Enterprise, and years as an instructor at Star Fleet Academy. In all those years his appearance or carriage had not changed. At the Academy he had been offered positions that would remove him from the classroom, but besides his family his passion was teaching. Of course, to observers, passion and Vulcan did not belong in the same sentence, but his wife Nyota, knew differently.
As a Vulcan it would have been wrong to say he was proud or happy with his life. But the Standard words contentment and fulfillment were adequate descriptions of his current mental state. Though for a certain, neither one of those words conveyed the true depth of Spock and Nyota's devotion to one another and to their sons. None of this was displayed on his visage but his wife knew how to read the messages conveyed by his eyes, for they spoke volumes to her.
Spock always marveled at Nyota's ability to quickly adjust to fit circumstances. She continuously adjusted, firstly to accommodate him, then to the absorption of The Vulcan Way, his family, his meditative needs, the twins, et al. She always appeared to be one step ahead of whatever was going to surface. Their bond was aglow and had weathered many storms. His bout with depression that followed the Va Pak (Immeasurable Loss) was when her value to him and his need of her solidified. She was indeed half of his heart and soul, his Ki'hat'n'allawa.
He entered the medical building and made his way to Lo'vaak's office.
He and Sirin greeted him at the door. Lo'vaak then placed the 'office closed' sign in the door window and they proceeded to a rear examination room.
"Cousin," Sirin said, "We will administer all the tests at our disposal to establish your present state. Of course, we both have 'safe rooms' in our homes that could provide the necessary isolation. Is this what you have planned if your time is upon you?"
Lo'vaak volunteered, "Christine and I could take the boys."
Spock shook his head,
"No, I will go to New Vulcan and Nyota and I will first see T'Pau and then go to the caves. I am certain that Sarek and T'Nei will take the boys. .."
Returning to the present he asked,
"Will the blood test provide an irrefutable diagnosis?"
Both Healers answered, "It will."
Lovaak continued,
"The test will be the barometer to gauge elevated levels of yamareen, (hormone released during Pon Farr). A daily check will reveal when the readings reach a critical level."
Spock removed his instructor's jacket and rolled up the sleeve of his shirt. Sirin performed the puncture and Spock observed as the vial filled with the emerald green fluid. After being around Nyota all these years and attending whatever injuries she received, it almost seemed strange to observe the emerald green color of his life's blood. Even the twin's blood was red, although lighter than their mother's crimson. .
Lo'vaak took the sample from Sirin and then he went to the laboratory at the rear of his office.
"So cousin, if this first test indicates that the hormone is elevated, come every day to Lo'vaak's office after his normal hours so your blood can be drawn and tested. Everything will be held in the strictest confidence. Once you have told Nyota, tell her to speak to Rachel."
Spock was tense awaiting the results. He finally said,
"How did Rachel fare during your "Time"?
Sirin got up and stood before his cousin and friend,
"I understand you are worried about Nyota. Believe me Spock Terran females have amazing resiliency, tenacity and creativity. My first Pon Farr experience with Rachel proved this. She weathered the storm with a few bruises and of course sensitivity in her genital area. She did sedate and restrain me once and at the end I was the worse off. She did not sleep for four days. Apparently even in my madness I was focused on not injuring my Beloved. Nyota will do likewise, she will save you.
Lo'Vaak came back, grim faced,
"I would say two weeks before the observable evidences of 'The Fever' presents itself. Make your plans and advise the Board you must go to New Vulcan to address a serious health issue. I will supply you with a very cryptic medical note.
Lo'vaak questioned, "Will you speak to Nyota tonight?"
Spock nodded in the affirmative.
"Then we will bring our wives to your home tomorrow," was Lo'vaak's idea.
Sirin agreed.
Spock rolled down his sleeve and put his instructor's jacket back on. He was deep in thought. His concern was not in anyway brought on by his questioning Nyota's acceptance. No, it was his fear of possibly causing injury to what he loved most in the world, his Aduna, Nyota.
He sent to Nyota,
"Do not prepare last meal for the two of us. I will bring sustenance from Wong's. Just prepare something for T'Paal, Kov and Zon and later we will enjoy a meal together.'
When he arrived home he was greeted by Nyota who instructed him to take a seat. She removed his boots, massaged his feet, sat on his lap and peppered his face with kisses.
He took her palms and kissed them. He looked at her small frame and inwardly shuttered. The thought of himself even bruising her perfect skin terrorized him. He carried her to the family room, walking in his bare feet. He placed her on the couch, went into the kitchen and secured plates and eating utensils. He helped her plate and then placed the first fork full to her lips. She smiled and took his offered food. He then watched as she took food from her plate and offered it to him. She was waiting for him to pick her up and hold her tight as he took her to their bed. Instead his head was bowed and he then took her hands again and she felt the agony is transmitted.
Very softly he said,
"I am entering the early stages of "My Time." I am fearful Beloved for I do not wish any injury to come to you by my hand."
"Is that all." was her reply.
"I thought there had been a death in the family."
She cradled his face in her hands and kissed him with a kiss that spoke trust, devotion and yearning.
"You will not injure me deliberately and T'Pau will instruct me. Beloved, you need not worry; I will not allow anything to happen to YOU. Her words were like a refreshing release in his mind, and at that point he did take her to their bed. This would prove to be not a night for sleeping. It was a night for affirmation, vocalization of their devotion, and it was almost like their introduction into intimacy, their "first time."
Of course after they had been spent, and he had took a substantial amount of time just observing his Aduna sleep, then Spock retraced his steps to the family room and placed the remaining food in the stasis unit. To waste anything, was not 'The Vulcan Way.
