I Own none of these characters, they belong to the CW and the writers of The 100.

So this is my first chapter of my first fanfic ever, but it is the beginning of a story, please let me know if I should continue. I have never written anything like this before so I don't exactly know proper structure or anything, but I gave it a shot. Hope you enjoy. It occurs after Episode 2-9 of the real show.

Take Some of Mine

Chapter 1

As Bellamy followed Raven towards the tent she had setup for her radio work, he couldn't help but think there was something in the look she had on when she invited him to follow her. When they arrived at the tent she seemed even more skittish than the look he gave her suggested.

"So this is what we need to happen. You are going to want to find their communications hub nearest to the top of the mountain where the satellite is." Raven began. Bellamy was carefully looking at the contraption which she meant for him to bring with. It was so complicated looking that he began to wonder if he was going to get through this alive. He knew that Clarke didn't mean what she said, she has been through a lot lately with Finn's death. Something caught his eye on the table. As he leaned down to get a closer look at the writing in front of the radio he began reading what must have been a note, written in small print.

I'm sorry, but I need to be the one to do this…

He felt a sharp pain on the back of his head before everything went black.

"Bellamy." He could faintly hear someone calling for him. "Bellamy, get your ass up!" He heard the voice again, but couldn't quite remember who it belonged to. It couldn't be, it wasn't possible. "Seriously, we don't have time for this." When he heard the voice the third time he knew he wasn't hearing things in his head.

"You can't be here, you are dead" Bellamy said as stoically as possible, because he wasn't going to really believe he was talking with a ghost.

"Well, I am, and there are a few things we need to get figured out before this, whatever this is, ends." Finn responded, as seriously as he had ever sounded before.

As Bellamy sat up and gathered his surroundings he figured he was still in the tent where Raven brought him to show him what to do with the communications. "She hit me in the back of the head didn't she?" He asked, somehow knowing that this imaginary version of Finn had the answers.

"Yes, she did, but she is right, you can't do this, and she possibly can." Finn replied. "She isn't doing it for you, she's doing it for everybody. Do you understand?"

"Yeah it makes sense with all the technical things, but how is she going to survive through all the defenses?" He asked, knowing that she is more valuable for most of the parts of this single person mission, but worried secretly about how much danger she would face. "Is it too late to go after her?"

"You need to stop worrying about her, she will get it done. Raven is something special, she's too intelligent and driven to not make it. What you need to worry about is Clarke." Finn replied hoping to gain his full attention.

At the sound of her name he instantly became fully aware and needed to know what was wrong with her. "What about Clarke? Is she in danger?" He asked with sincere caring in his voice.

"She has a lot going on in her mind right now, and I'm concerned my death will change who she is, which is one problem. The main reason however is because the ones who came down in the ark are going to figure out a way to get rid of her. She has positioned herself as the leader of all the sky people, and there are many adults that will not continue to allow this. They won't allow a couple of teenagers to rule. There are few ways which they will decide to deal with this, you understand what I am saying?" Finn replied,

Bellamy noticed his hinting voice that he figured he was trying to relay the fact that the only sure way to get rid of her without causing issues within the people would be to have her killed off in an accidental way, such as a great battle ensuing against Mount Weather to rescue more of her people.

"If we do get the 47 out that will tilt the scales in her direction, which they definitely don't want. Damnit this is why it took them this long to go get the people in Mount Weather. They could see the dynamic of those that had already been surviving on the ground. They sent us to die, and now they want us to fall in line again." Bellamy said aloud to Finn, but he had been thinking it in his head. He figured before it was only paranoia, but lately there had been a great deal of unrest with the youth appearing more powerful with the grounders. The adults were watching children successfully create an alliance with the grounders and they trusted the kids more than the adults. This was obviously going to boil at some point, but he never in the world thought they would try to kill Clarke.

"Well get me back there then so I can help her." Bellamy said with true rage in his voice.

"Wait, Bellamy, Damnit you don't understand do you? You can't just go fight with them, and you can't just tell Clarke that her mother may be privy to plans that involve killing her off. You need to expose this whole idea. This may be the only thing that will truly tilt the scales, or at least will allow the 100 to get away from the Ark for good." Finn was practically begging him with his voice not to overreact.

Bellamy knew as he said it that Finn was right, well whatever Finn is right now, he is right.

"Yeah, I get it." Bellamy said sounding almost defeated.

"Good, now go take care of it. I know you can do this, I know you will protect her, because you see her as I did. Don't ever let her go Bellamy." Finn's voice trailed off as he spoke until he barely heard him say the last words.

"Bellamy!" Clarke yelled his name as she kneeled over his body that was unconscious on the ground. "Bellamy please wake up." she whispered softly into his ear. She was trying to be somewhat seductive because he wasn't presently in his body. When he responded she wondered if he took it that way.

"Ok princess." He replied sounding extremely tired. Her soft whisper sent chills down his spine, but he wasn't about to tell her that.

"Oh thank God. What the hell happened to you? I thought you were getting ready to leave? When I hadn't seen you for a half hour I came looking. Where is Raven? She asked sounding completely confused. She was extremely relieved to see him and conscious no less. Ever since she told him to go on his solo mission she was filled with dread and thoughts of losing him, she couldn't lose him.

"Wow you ask a lot of questions. Sorry princess, but I was planning to leave, and then Raven knocked me out and went in my place. I really am sorry, I didn't see it coming at all." He replied, feeling really bad that she had gone for him, but now he knew why it had all happened this way.

"What? So Raven is breaking into Mount Weather by herself? What if she doesn't make it? It was a long shot even for you, but for her? What are we going to do?" She asked, sounding for maybe the first time ever like she didn't know what to do at all. Clarke Griffin truly was lost dealing with whatever killing Finn had done to her. She was starting to wonder if anyone would survive, maybe she was leading them all to their deaths. She had killed one of their own, it didn't matter the circumstance, she had taken Finn's life and it weighed on her constantly. She kept thinking she was seeing him, like as a ghost. Was she losing her mind.

"Clarke." Bellamy said firmly to get her to stop talking, with no success.

"Did she even bring a gun? How is she planning to get in? Did she take your map?" Clarke kept talking without skipping a beat, but Bellamy was determined to stop her rambling.

"Ok Clarke, if you don't stop talking, I'm going to have to make you stop." He said, hoping it would have an effect, but he could see she may not have even heard him, her eyes were starting to swell with tears as she began to cry. "Oh, No, Clarke… I didn't mean to-" He began to say before he figured out that this had nothing to do with him. He sat up next to her leaning in front of him and pulled her towards him. At first she resisted, but slowly she began to lean towards him still crying and shaking. He held her there like he had never held another before. He wasn't one for intimacy outside of sex, so he was never really the cuddling type. This wasn't about that though, she needed him, and he needed her. They were a pair that led their people, and he respected and cared for her deeply. Not even he was sure how deeply, but he knew sitting there, his arms wrapped around her, and her head resting against his chest crying, that he couldn't live without Clarke Griffin in any capacity. "Don't worry princess, I'm here for you." he said softly into her ear as he swept her blonde hair back. He wasn't going to tell her that she did the right thing, because that wasn't what was bothering her. She was dealing with losing another person that was very close to her that she had felt die by her hand. It wasn't about right or wrong, it was strength and love then that saved Finn from a horrible death, it was weakness now that told her she could never love anyone. Pain demands to be felt. From under her breath Bellamy barely heard her say "Love is weakness." As she continued to cry.

"Love isn't weakness Clarke, it's strength. And you can have some of mine if you need it" Bellamy replied quietly into her ears. He never said anything he didn't mean, and she knew that. He wasn't sure however if he was referring to her having some of his love, or his strength. A few seconds after he said that, he heard her crying start to settle and then die off. She emotionally shook herself off and slowly moved away from him. He hoped he hadn't scared her off, he himself didn't even know what he meant by it, so how could she?

"Alright, so Raven went by herself. Ok, so what do we do now?" She asked Bellamy as she stood back up. She was a little embarrassed by her breakdown, but she couldn't stop thinking about what he had said. Love isn't weakness, it's strength, and you can have some of mine if you need it. He had said that to her, she could replay it in her mind. Did he mean she could have some of her love? Or her strength? What did she want him to mean by it?

"Well, I saw this note on her desk that I was reading when she knocked me out." He found it in the same spot it had been, but the main radio and most other things had been removed from the table. He began to read it aloud. "I'm sorry, but I need to be the one to do this and you all know it. The only way we are any help inside the mountain is if we can take down their defenses, and there is nobody more skilled than I am for that task with who is available. I don't believe I will need to fight with the plan I have, so don't worry I will come through. I'm sorry Clarke for how I put Finn's death on you. These knife wounds of mine are superficial, but it gave me a small idea of what he would have been put through. I really appreciate you not making him go through that. Bellamy, don't come after me, I can do this, please trust me. I will check in when I hit my first position, the radio left here should be the only one you will be able to communicate with me on, but do not use it to contact me, I will call when I can. Be safe and Fight well. Raven." Bellamy sighed as he put the letter down and picked up the receiver. He could see that she was concerned for Raven, but deep down he knew Raven would find a way.

"Well, that's that then, she is on her own. Now we need to figure out the rest of this battle plan then." Clarke shifted into command mode as quickly as she fell out of it in the tent. As she began to turn around to leave he grabbed her arm. What surprised her wasn't that he grabbed her arm, but that she was hoping so bad he wouldn't just let her walk out, and he didn't.

"Clarke there is something else, but I have absolutely no idea how to bring it up." Bellamy stated. He knew he had to tell her about his time with dead Finn, but he just didn't know how to say it out loud.

"Well, you and I are always honest with each other for the most part, I suppose we could start there." She replied, as matter of fact as she had ever sounded. She loved how they were straight up with each other, it was unlike any relationship she had ever had with a guy. She began to wonder if what he was about to say was romantic in nature. He never really came out and told her how he felt for her, but she knew there was something between them. She just didn't know if what was between them could ever function as a couple. She had thought about it often, just never really decided.

"Alright, but you have to really hear me. You know who I am and what kind of person I am, so just open your mind ok?" He said sounding a little more childish than he would care to admit. Maybe he could leave dead Finn out of it for now. "Alright, well the other day I noticed something that didn't make sense to me at the time. When you went over to the grounders with Finn and everything, the adults were really unhappy with what had transpired." He was sorry to bring it up and cause her pain, but he had to and she seemed to understand. "You established yourself as the leader of not only the 100, but the Ark also." She tried to interrupt him, but he waved her off. "Now, at the time I didn't think much of it, but as days passed and how they drug their feet with this rescue mission and how I have seen some of them acting recently, I know there is a serious problem in front of us." He ended, giving her time to follow up. He didn't want to scare her, so he gave her a shy smirk.

"So, you think what, they are going to banish me or something, or discredit me?" She responded. Wondering to herself if her mother could be involved or not, or if this could even be possible. She knew that the Ark and the 100 would separate eventually, because they could not agree on how to live together.

He wasn't sure any of this was even true, so telling her that her mother may have a plan to have her killed was out of the question, but he needed her to believe him that she might be in danger. He knew it not only because of Finn, but putting everything he had seen in the past few days painted a much clearer picture when he knew what he may be looking for.

"No, Clarke. I think they are going to have you accidentally killed in this rescue…" He didn't mean for it to sound so bluntly, but he needed her to know the severity of it. "I think they mean to get rid of you by accident while you try and save your people. So, when they get back the 47 from Mount Weather, they no longer have you to lead them, but must fall in line like the rest.

"Oh my gosh, I never even imagined it like that. They don't want us to get the other 47 and come back, because they know there is no way they will continue to live in the structured society they had planned. So if I die, rescuing my people with the council, they will have everything they want. What about you though Bellamy? If I am on some hit list, then so are you. There is no way they would allow you to continue to lead the 100." She concluded.

He knew right when she said it that it also had to be true. Maybe dead Finn didn't mention it because he never liked him or whatever, but he knew in his heart the truth of it. "They don't want either of us to make it back to camp, because if we do with the 47, they know we will not stay." He knew they were fighting for the 100, what he didn't know until right then, was that they were actually fighting the Ark.

"I wonder if my Mother is in on this?" She said it kind of like a question to see if Bellamy knew she was involved.

"No, now look princess, I don't know if she even knows about it, but I imagine if she does, you will be able to tell now that you know. So what do you think we should do?" He asked, moving the subject in a different direction.

She knew he was changing the subject on purpose, but she let it slide for now. Whenever he called her princess she felt warm inside. When Bellamy says princess it sounds nothing like how Finn sounded saying it. She thought at first that it should bother her because it was the last thing Finn said to her. Thanks, Princess… She couldn't help it, but she liked it when Bellamy said it, not like mocking her for being an elite on the ark, but more like it was just for them, like she was his princess. She stared at him for a little longer than she had planned because she felt him shake her arm to upset her daze. "Well, I think we need to keep this as quiet as possible. You and I need to remain together at all times, and if we see this happening or even close to happening, we turn it into our advantage. We make sure everyone from the Ark and the 100 know what plans they had for us, to kill us off again to further their idea of democracy. This may actually allow us to leave Camp Jaha without issues, could turn into a win/win for us." Clarke said trying to keep a positive attitude on things.
"So we just turn it to our advantage them trying to kill us off?" He asked with a playful tone.

"Yes we do, we've made do with less. I trust you to get us out of this." Clarke said truly meaning every word.

As she finished talking she moved toward him with her arms outstretched and he embraced her in a genuine hug. "I'm always here for you princess, I will keep you safe." She broke the hug and kissed him on the cheek. Before she turned she smiled at him with a smile he had never seen before, and realized then that she had never looked more sexy. "Wait." he said, hoping to catch another glimpse of that smile, but realizing it was gone. "Remember we are supposed to stick together." He recovered with making her giggle, which he loved the sound of also. There was something wrong with him, as much as he tried to deny it Clarke Griffin was under his skin. He'd known it oddly enough ever since the moment she took away Atom's pain when he could not. He couldn't even think about another girl because she filled his mind. What am I supposed to do about this? He thought to himself. There is no way she could ever feel that way about him after what he had done. When they began to see other people as they are walking back he became Bellamy the leader again, and tried to get the princess off his mind.