i was sitting on my bed listening to my ipod
1. gone forever
2. pain
3. on my own
4. me against the world
5. hate
6. keep away
so on so forth. most of the songs i listen to now are because what happened a year ago, after they left my lives been miserable. for a while i was hoping for a freak accident, something to take the pain away. But i realized i didn't need them and moved on. i laid back. i don't know why i listen to these songs anymore they just remind me of what happened.
Flashback
"hey we escaped be happy"
"no thanks to you"
"WHATS that supposed to mean!"
"you didn't give a damn what happened to us last night. if we got out or not if we LIVED or not!"
"wha? how could you think that!" the rest of the flock walked into the room
"max you, you cant be trusted any more" angel said from behind
"what in the freaking world would make you think that"
"you keep disappearing all the time, the flyboys and erasers are attacking more than usual"
"yeah that proves a lot. why not just go to court with this" i shot back at him sarcastically
"max j-just leave. it will be easer for all of us"
"FINE" i headed for the door "and im sorry for saving you little asses over and over again" i snapped at them. i unfolded my wings and took off.
End Of Flashback
i shuddered at the memory. what they did to me, if only they could've seen the damage they had done. the first month i was depressed, crying my self to sleep every night. it got worse after that, i well, i wanted to die. the pain of them, what they did wouldn't leave i just wanted it to stop. i don't know what stopped me from suicide but im still here aren't i? the pain has stopped, it was replaced by hatred anger and revenge.
i heard thumps on my roof.
"we cant just walk in!"
"But we have to tell her"
"its not going to work, face it she isn't coming back"
"Well I have to try!" there was a pause
"what's that music?" it turned quiet, they were straining to hear what i had playing. i turned it up. serves em' right it it hurts em.
i feel so much better now that your gone forever
tell my self that i dont miss you at all
not lying dening i feel so much better
now that your gone forever
and now your gone forever
and now your gone forever
the song was over and skipped to the next track.
"well damn"
"ok thats NOT a good sign"
"see what i mean its not going to work"
"WE HAVE TO TRY!"
pain without love
pain cant get enough
pain i like it rough
cuz i rather feel pain than nothing at all
"ok lets do this she's obviously awake" the next thing i heard was a knock on the door.
"screw them" i said under my breath. the door opened and they walked up stairs. they found their way to my room. they walked in.
"max?" asked fang
"ugh what do YOU want" he sighed
"we we want you back" i laughed at that
"max, we need you" nudge pleaded. all of them even fang looked defeated, hopeless and sad. was this just an act to get me back?
"no"
"W- WHAT!" exclaimed gazzy
"i said no get that through your god damn skulls. IM NEVER COMING BACK FUCKING NEVER!"
