A/N: This is my first Glee fic! I'm excited about it, hopefully you guys will like it too!

This is set during Rachel's party during Blame it On The Alcohol, its just another direction I could see that night going. This will probably be a two shot unless inspiration strikes and I can figure out how to continue it.

Disclaimer : I dont own glee... if I did, lets just say some stuff would be different.


"Who wants to play spin the bottle?" Rachel asked maybe a bit more loudly than was really necessary, but who cared she was having fun.

The statement was met with several yeses and a few cheers.

"Ok then let's do this!" Rachel said grabbing a bottle and motioning everyone to come sit in a circle.

"So when you play spin the bottle, what happens is..." Rachel began to explain.

"We all know how to play elf, let's just roll with it." Santana yelled.

"Ok then." Rachel rolled her eyes and spun the bottle.

"Kurt!" Brittany and Quinn yelled.

"Oh yay!" Kurt chuckled as Rachel leaned in towards him. She placed her lips on his for about a second then backed away.

Kurt made a face "Defiantly gay." he whispered to himself, causing Blaine to laugh.

Kurt gave the bottle a spin and watched. Santana.

"Is there anything I should be worried about?" he asked as he moved towards her.

"Nope my doc says if there is nothing showing then it's not contagious." Santana told him.

"Ew," Kurt said making a face but leaned in anyways.

"Is she taking about herpes?" Blaine quietly asked Quinn, who just gave him a look.

"Your lips are really soft." Santana told him as she pulled back.

"It's my nightly skin regimen," Kurt told her "There's several night time creams then Burt's Bee's Wax chapstick before bed and Soft Lips during the day."

"Burt's?" Santana nodded towards Quinn "Thanks Hummel."

"My pleasure." he smiled.

Santana spun the bottle "Brit Brit," she beamed "Get your hot ass over here."

Brittany met her in the middle of the circle. Once Santana's lips touched Brittany's they seemed to forget there were other people there. It wasn't until Artie cleared his throat after Santana's tongue pushed its way into Brittany's mouth, that they slowly backed away.

"Long time…" Santana winked at her.

"Yeah, why don't we do that anymore?" Brittany asked

"Cuz your dating Artie." Santana replied in a deadpan tone.

"Oh yeah!" Brittany beamed "I love Artie."

He just smiled off to the side and shook his head.

"Brittany let's get this show on the road." Mike told her excited to see who the next person would be.

Brittany nodded and spun the bottle "Rachel," She smiled "I've always wondered what it would be like to kiss your lips." Brittany told her as she moved over towards Rachel.

"Oh?" Rachel asked uncomfortably and then smiled.

"Yeah, they just move around so much when you sing it's like a game of tag." That caused the circle of people surrounding them to laugh as Brittany leaned in to kiss Rachel.

Rachel's eyes stayed wide open giving Kurt a look that said "please help me."

"They are a bit firm but soft," Brittany said licking her lips "kinda reminds me of making out with Kurt."

Blaine's eyebrows shot up as he turned to look at Kurt.

"Yeah, Brittany and I totally dated last year." Kurt explained with a chuckle

"Yeah, I don't really know why we broke up though." Brittany commented.

Mercedes just patted her on the shoulder, shaking her head.

Rachel spun the bottle again and watched as it landed on Kurt again.

"Well this is getting old fast." Santana rolled her eyes as Rachel kissed Kurt for the second time. "Maybe you guys would like to include some other people, unless you really just wanna make out with each other. Which would be weird considering Hummel is capital G Gay and Berry….is, well Berry."

Kurt spun the bottle for the second time and watched. A small gasp left his lips when it landed on Blaine, causing several people to cat call and cheer.

Kurt's face immediately turned red as he looked at him. It was going to be their first kiss and Kurt wasn't sure if he wanted it to be in front of everyone.

Blaine leaned forward and kissed Kurt on the cheek then shot him a small smile and wink.

"Boo!" Santana yelled and a few others joined in.

Kurt was both a little disappointed and relieved at the same time. Seeing his face Rachel placed her hand on top of his and gave it a little squeeze.

Blaine spun the bottle and watched as it landed on Rachel.

"Go easy on me." Blaine grinned as he leaned over Kurt to meet Rachel who was sitting on the other side of him. The two shared a pretty steamy albeit short kiss. Kurt seemed a bit uncomfortable but it was nothing compared to the look on Finn's face.

Rachel cleared her throat then spun the bottle, it landed on Mike.

"I gotta hand it to you Berry, you are really getting around." Santana laughed.

Rachel just shot her a dirty look as she pecked Mike quickly on the lips.

Mike took his turn and kissed Quinn on the corner of the mouth then returned to his seat.

Quinn spun the bottle and it landed on Mercedes who looked a bit uncomfortable, so Quinn simply kissed her on her forehead.

"Cheap!" Santana yelled.

"Not everyone has made out with the entire population of Lima, and can just kiss so casually." Quinn shot back at her.

Mercedes took her turn as Santana rolled her eyes at Quinn. Moved over and kissed Tina on the cheek.

Tina spun Artie and the kiss that followed seemed a bit awkward for everybody except for Brittany "Aww, how cute." she commented as Artie chuckled and spun the bottle and sat back as it landed on Finn.

"Finn my man!" Artie smiled and held his arms open. Finn looked a smidge nervous until Artie laughed and said "Just kidding playa" and held his fist out to him.

Finn laughed and bumped it.

"This is WAY too G rated for my liking." Santana said annoyed.

Finn took his turn and kissed Tina quickly, Tina spun Sam and kissed him lightly on the lips.

Sam spun Rachel who he seemed excited to kiss. He made a big production of moving over to where she was sitting and right before their lips met he made sure to catch Finn's eye.

Sam seemed to hang in a bit longer than Rachel was prepared for. Causing her to shoot a look over in Finn's direction and Quinn to jump up when the door bell rang even though it wasn't her house. Rachel spun the bottle and it landed on the newly empty space.

"Alright!" Puck clapped his hands together "just walked in the door and I'm already getting hit up in spin the bottle," he joked as he walked into the room. "Who's the lucky lady?"

Finn looked pissed.

Rachel looked like she might actually cry if she had to kiss Puck in front of Finn. Everyone else watched the drama unfold in silence.

"Sorry Puck that's my spot," Quinn told him, lightly shoving him aside.

"Hott." Puck commented as Rachel crawled forward looking relieved.

"I owe you." Rachel whispered as Quinn's lips met hers.

"Believe me you don't." Quinn responded, trying not to meet Rachel's eye.

"Alright, come on Quinn." a few people encouraged to get them away from the awkward situation that they seemed to have sidestepped for now.

The rest of the game went pretty quickly without real incident.

Quinn spun Mike and kissed him quickly on the lips. Mike got Brittany, and Brittany spun Artie, where she got up to kiss him and stayed the rest of the game in his lap.

Artie spun Tina, again. He leaned forward and kissed her on the forehead.

Tina kissed Kurt, who spun Mercedes.

"Finally I get a piece of that." Kurt grinned.

"You coulda had a piece last year" Mercedes laughed as he pecked her on the lips.

Mercedes spun the bottle and it landed on Rachel.

"This is turning into the stuff dramas on the Lifetime are made of." Kurt joked as the two girls shared a kiss.

"There does seem to be a lot of girl on girl action going on." Blaine agreed.

"Ok maybe the Logo Network then" Kurt laughed.

Rachel smacked his arm as she waited for her most recent spin of the bottle to find its mark. She was laughing with Kurt and Blaine when she saw their eyes go wide.

She turned back to the bottle to find it pointing at Finn.

She took in a shocked breath and everyone seemed to do the same around her. Rachel slowly moved forward to meet Finn, and then almost as it just occurred to her at the last moment,she changed directions and kissed him on the cheek.

Finn sat there for a second after Rachel backed away and stared at her. After a moment he backed up silently and spun the bottle. After an extended wait due to the force with which he spun the bottle, it landed on Santana who grinned evilly at Rachel.

"Watch and learn squirt." Squirt she almost purred but looked disappointed when Finn maneuvered around and kissed her cheek.

"Ok!" Quinn announced "Enough of that drama, let's do something else, please."

"Rachel can I talk to you?" Finn asked a bit harshly pulling her up by the elbow.

"Uh, ok..." she muttered giving Mercedes a scared look.

"Alone." He added pulling her down the hall towards the laundry room.

"What the hell was that?" he spat as he closed the door behind them.

"What was what?" she asked confused.

"You can kiss everyone else in the damn Glee Club, Mike, Sam, Brittany, Mercedes Kurt Quinn and you all but made out with Blaine and I get a kiss on the cheek?" Finn yelled as he started pacing the length of the small room.

"Ok 1." Rachel started screaming back at him "Blaine is GAY, you might as well say I was making out with Tina…. And 2… I didn't want to upset you" She added losing her steam at the end.

"Upset me?" He screamed "You didn't think it would upset me to see you making out with all of our friends?"

"I'm sorry Finn!" She yelled "What did you want me to do? Not play? You are the one who told me you needed space. You broke up with me. So EXCUSE ME for not wanting to make you uncomfortable by being forced to kiss me. I was trying to do you a favor."

"I broke up with you because I was mad at you! Not because I stopped loving you!" he yelled back.

"Oh yeah fine! Be mad at me, but you were making out with Quinn last week and what she did to you was WAY worse than….Wait" Rachel stopped mid yell "What did you say?" she asked turning to look at him.

"I said I was mad….pissed even." He added looking at her a bit confused.

"No after that."

"That I was hurt?" He asked not seeing what she was getting at.

"No, …no. You said you haven't stopped loving me?" She asked carefully.

"No I didn't." Finn denied immediately.

"Yes you did." Rachel whispered.

"Ok FINE!" Finn yelled startling Rachel. "I still love you, THERE are you happy?" He yelled.

Rachel smiled for a moment "YES I AM!" She yelled back at him.

"Well good I…. wait, I'm confused," Finn said "Why are we still yelling?"

"You seemed to be more at ease yelling….so I went with it" she smiled sweetly at him.

"Well yeah, I guess I'm.." he looked at her trying to remember what she had said "more at ease yelling because I'm still so pissed" He told her.

"Oh." she whispered looking down at her shoes and nodding her head.

"I'm pissed you kissed Puck even though you knew what it would do to me." He told her in a quieter voice.

"I didn't mean…"Rachel started as tears appeared in her eyes.

"Let me finish!" he shouted causing her to jump back a bit.

"I'm pissed you kissed Puck, and I'm pissed that I took it the way I did. I'm so mad I totally shut you out. I'm pissed I slept with Santana because you should have been my first and I wasted that on someone I don't even like. And I'm pissed that I let it tear us apart" he spat.

"I'm so angry!" he kept going "That I tried to get back together with Quinn after what she did to me. That I was just so focused on getting you out of my mind that I turned to the one who messed me up in the first place. I'm pissed you saw all of it happen and I told you about those god damn fireworks. I'm SO pissed at myself that I watched your heart break even more and I was too damn sick to make it better or at least follow you."

"I'm just so…."Finn ran out of words to say and got really quiet.

"Pissed." Rachel supplied quietly.

"Yes." he said weekly leaning against the door they had come though.

Rachel took a step towards him "Can I talk now?" she asked.

"Yeah," he nodded not looking at her.

"I'm upset too." she admitted taking a step closer to him.

"Upset at the way things turned out." She begin yelling again "I'm saddened because I let you slip though my fingers and so angry that I hurt you, that I see the look in your eyes every day. I'm heartbroken that I drove you to trying to make up with Quinn not because she isn't me…. Well OK maybe a little bit but because I know what she put you through."

"And I'm really upset that we are yelling at each other right now instead of making up." She ended in a calmer tone.

"What?" Finn asked looking up suddenly realizing how close she was. "What are you doing?" he asked.

"Finn, not three minutes ago you told me….well you yelled at me several important valid feelings and emotions, but most importantly of all you told me you still loved me." She almost whispered as she took another step towards him.

"Yeah I do…"Finn started but never got the chance to finish his thought because Rachel threw herself forward and kissed him.

He tried to fight her off, OK no he really didn't. But he wanted to, but he also wanted nothing more than to hold Rachel in his arms and tell her he loved a few moments he seemed to be losing a battle even though he was fighting both sides, as his hands came down to rest on her hips and he deepened the kiss.

Rachel was surprised but didn't let it get in the way of wrapping her arms around his neck.

"No I can't…" he said pulling back and pushing her away slightly. "I'm still so mad." He told her.

"I know." she said bringing her hands up to cup his face "I am too. Not at you…well not only at you but at me too. I just can't keep letting it get in the way of what we have… or had. What we could have had." she trailed off lamely

"Already have." Finn said pushing off the door and backing her up towards the washer until her back was against it.

She jumped at the cold contact. "What?" she asked

"What we already have." he replied "I can't keep letting it get in between us either. It's making it so much worse" He told her a tear slipping down his cheek.

"Finn," Rachel whispered reaching up and wiping it from his cheek. "I'm so sorry for hurting you."

"I know." He nodded bringing his forehead down to rest on hers.

"There's a lot we need to work on" She told him "A lot of stuff we need to get through, but I'm willing to do the work if you are." she added grasping on to his t-shirt.

"Finn?" She asked when he didn't say anything for a while.

He reached down and lifted her up by the hips to sit her on the washing machine.

"I'm in." he told her nodding against her forehead. His lips captured hers and she wrapped her arms around him again and pulled him in closer moving her legs apart to allow him to stand in between her knees.

"Why are you still crying?" he asked after several minutes, pulling back to wipe her tears away with both thumbs.

"I'm so happy." she beamed and pulled him back in for another kiss.

At that moment the laundry room door burst open.

"Everything OK in here?" Kurt asked stepping aside to let Mercedes in.

"It's been a long time since we heard any yelling and….oh!" Mercedes stopped talking when she saw them wrapped around each other.

"We'll just let you two get back to it." Kurt smiled pulling a surprised Mercedes back out with him and closing the door.

Finn laughed and leaned in to kiss Rachel's tear stained face. He looked into her eyes for a long time before whispering "I love you."

Rachel closed her eyes and took a deep breath. After a moment she opened her eyes back up and looked at him with a huge grin as a new tear made its way down her cheek "I love you too." she said pulling him into a hug.

"I love you." She repeated in a whisper as she kissed his neck pulling him further into the embrace by wrapping her legs around his.

"Never again." He whispered as almost a reassurance as he started rocking them back and forth.

"Finn?" Rachel asked after a few minutes of silence.

"Yeah?" he asked rubbing her back.

"What do we do now?" she asked running her fingers though the hair at the bottom of his neck.

"Well, everyone is still outside and I mean it's your house….so"

"No." She giggled kissing him on the cheek and pulling back to look at him "About us?"

"What do you mean?" he asked.

"I mean do we just pick up where we left off? Should we set up some time to talk or maybe make another meeting with Ms. Pillsbury?" She asked

"Um, I'm not really sure" He told her "What do you think?"

"I." She started then took a breath "I just want to make sure it works. Maybe we should just sit down and talk about what happened. We don't need to say who is right and who is wrong because I don't think it matters anymore. But more about how it made us feel. Then once we think we got it all out, we can just move on, and let it be something that only makes us stronger."

"I like that." He told her "Well maybe not all the feelings and stuff but the part you said about it making us stronger. I want that. So why don't we talk tomorrow? You can come over to my house and we can spend all day going over everything, but then after that it's done, we can't keep holding it against each other."

"That sounds very smart." Rachel beamed at him.

Finn smiled too "Thank you."

"I think we should probably hold off on this kind of stuff until we talk it out." She said motioning to the nonexistent space between them.

"What? Why?" he asked.

"Just for tonight I mean. That way we don't have to answer a bunch of questions and hear rude comments before we know where we stand. Just in front of everyone. Just for tonight this can be just for you and me. We'll be the only ones who know."

"Well you me, Kurt, Mercedes and probably Blaine." Finn told her "I'm pretty sure they could figure it out from what they saw."

"Yeah." Rachel laughed "But he's your brother and they are my best friends so, I think that it's OK for now."

"In fact." Rachel smiled as she kissed him on the cheek "Kurt! Mercedes! Can you come in here for a moment?" she yelled towards the door.

"I'm sorry did I hear my name?" Kurt asked sticking his head back in the room.

Finn turned around to look at them but stayed in his place in between Rachel's knees with her arms hugging him from behind.

"Can you guys come in here for a sec?" Finn asked.

"Sure what's up?" Mercedes asked trying her best not to smile as Kurt shut the door.

"Oh stop it." Rachel rolled her eyes at them with a smile. They both broke into huge grins.

"Here's the deal," Rachel told them resting her chin on Finn's shoulder "We are, back together, kind of."

"Kind of?" Mercedes asked her smile fading slightly.

"Well we have a lot to work out over the next few days, so it's not 'public' yet but we will be getting back together." Rachel told them.

"Oh thank god." Kurt commented sounding relieved.

"We wanna keep it quiet for now." Finn told them.

"Got it." Mercedes nodded.

"We would like to figure out where we stand without having to deal with everyone else's questions and opinions." Rachel told them.

"Look just don't tell anyone." Finn said making it short and simple.

"We won't." Kurt promised.

"You take the lead and we will follow…. As always" Mercedes added with an eye roll making everyone laugh.

"Awesome, can you just give us a minute then? Well meet you in a second." Finn told them.

"We'll wait right outside." Kurt promised.

"It's gonna suck to not be able to kiss you for the rest of the night." Finn told her as he turned back around in her arms.

"Yeah, but it will be so much better once we get everything figured out, I promise." She told him kissing his nose.

"OK," He nodded "I believe you."

"One last one for the road." She said leaning in and capturing his lips with hers.

It was several minutes before they both backed away gasping for air.

"OK, let's go." she said pushing him back and hopping down.

Finn grabbed her hand and headed for the door, where they met Mercedes and Kurt and headed back to the party.

The party continued with lots of music and dancing until the wee hours of the morning when Rachel suggested they watch a movie to let everyone sober or stay the night.


A/N 2: the next chapter will be the conversation. Im almost done with that so it should be posted soon. please let me know what you thought of this chapter.