Chapter: 1

This is total and utter, bullshit! Why do I have to go, when I've made it perfectly clear that I'd rather die?! I can't believe my parents are actually making me go to a stupid vacation to a relatives house- on the other side of the world, I might add- for some stupid party! I don't even know these people! This is just another pathetic way to try and change me. I know my parents are planning something. I can feel it.

You see, I'm not exactly 'the perfect daughter' you could say. In school I'm known mostly as the Gothic girl who has no friends and makes no contact with anyone, except the teachers occasionally. And at home I'm the daughter who tends to get in alot of trouble because she has anger problems. But, there's a reason I do that. You see, I have a slight... minor... problem with trusting people. But, I swear it is sooo not my fault, I have trust issues. It's his fault for crushing my heart into a million pieces.

Anyway, back to the problem at hand, I don't want to go to a dumb mansion in Russia for a whole god damn month, for one stupid party!!

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The next day I was on a plane to, 'My own personal nightmare, Russia.' Oh, did I mention that I'm in one of my Cousin's, Aunt's, Father's, Wife's, Best Friend's, Cousin's personal jet, we're actually landing on the house's property. You finally know your rich when you can afford your own landing stripe. Oh, and the house I'm staying at; it's a mansion. Seriously! I looked it up online and the label of the house is The Blake Mansion. These people have money out the ass! And that's not good because that means there all snobs.

I hate snobs!

"Will all passengers buckle ther seat belts, while we decend?" The person said over the intercome.

Wonderful. We're here.

I was right, they are all snobs. I've pretty much met everyone- yeah all 250 of them- and there all the same. Spoiled, pampered, goody toe-shoes. I haven't met one person I can relate to, not one! Out of 250! How pathetic is that?

One person in particular was a huge snob, her name is Melanie. She is the barbie of the mansion and unfortunately my cousin. As soon as I walked in the door she skipped- yes, skipped- right up to me, with one of the fakest smiles plastered on an equally fake face- I swear she looked like a plastic surgeons protege- and hugged me. She sounds so sweet for hugging her cousin doesn't she? Wrong. I forgot to mention her threat to stay away from a guy named William. Gpd, I'm asshamed to even be realated to that girl.

I've offically made a promise to myself to not go anywhere out of my room, until everyone is asleep.

Around midnight almost everyone was asleep except some of the help. I quietly snuck out of my room and down the grand stairs to the back yard. If you have a mansion you obviously have to have a pool, right? Yeah, they did, a huge one. In the middle of the pool there is a small bridge that's surrounded by rocks and plants. Boosting myself on the railing of the bridge, I watched as the tree leaves rustled in the wind. Even though it's so crazy inside, it's actually kind of peaceful out here. The mansion was close to the woods so I could here the animals scurry around the forest floor. I don't know why but I all of a sudden felt like singing. So I did.

A broken heart
Shattered dreams
How could someone do this to me

I didn't know where I was
Not knowing what to do
I thought I'd found my salvation in you

You were my way out
A place without pain
A place to hide, but what did I gain

Too much time between
And your change of heart
Pushed me away and ripped us apart

Now here I am
Tattered and torn
For myself and my life I now mourn

I know I was someone
I don't remember who
I seem to have lost myself in you

I no longer know what I am
I've disappeared without a trace
All I know now is my name and my face

As I finished the song, I felt so depressed. I knew exactly why that song came to my head. It's because of that bastard Jason. I still don't understand, after a year, why he would do such an awful thing to me. I never did anything to him except love him. A silent tear slide down my cheek and I just realized I was crying. I quickly wiped it away and let a shaky breath. I usually don't cry. I don't know why all of a sudden felt so sad about Jason.

"That's a beautiful song." A voice said behind me. I screamed in surprise and fell off of the bridge. When I fell I landed into the pool that I forgot was below me, what I didn't expect was to hit my head so hard, on the bottom of the pool.

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A/N: Sorry, if this chapter is a little slow and not really grabbing your attention but I promise that it will alot better. Just, please don't give on me or this story yet. !Review!

- GothicaGirl-911