Title: How Now?
Genre: NCIS
Pairing: Abby and Mc Gee
Rating: K (please don't fall off your chair is shock)
Timeline: Season 7, tags Endgame.
Spoilers: None really.
Summery: Abby and some rambling thoughts about Tim and his "new girl".
Disclaimer: Ha! I wish... but alas not mine.
A/N: Okay so a few weeks ago, South Africa being what it is, "Endgame" was screened on the public broadcasting station, and although I never gave much heed to the pairing, my heart bled for Abby… Don't get me wrong I love her as a character, but as DiNozzo said "she's an oxymoron rapped up in contradictions", so she's not a easy character to write, and many tend to depict her, I don't know… a bit scatty, and although on first "meeting" her she may seem that way, there's a lot hidden under that visage… and every once in a while we get to see a glimpse of it.
Written: August 2011
Word Count: 565 (very short, more a character study.)
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I know I have no right to feel this way, and that Timmy seems happier, and I should be happy for him, but I can't. I know I said to him once that I love him like puppies, but he has always been more to me. Just like I know we had a chance to make things work but Timmy is just so… normal. And that scares me. I have never been good at relationships, for some reason I always end up picking the crazy, derange and often outright dangerous ones, and it's not as if I'm actively seeking it, I'm not. It's just that Tim has become my best friend, and it's really weird to think that there's someone he enjoys spending time with, that isn't one of his gaming buddies or… me. I know that he can see whomever he likes, and the dating has never really bugged me, well that much, and only because he always talked to me about them. This is the first girl in a while that he's gotten serious about. I mean their seeing one another… and that implies that they could be doing more… no I'm not going there, just the thought that he could be doing the naked pretzel with her… God now I sound like Tony, and that's never a good thing. Ugh, if only I could get past this, I know he was serious about me, okay and maybe a little pushy… It's just that I'm so scared that things don't work out with him and me, and then I would loose his friendship, and things would be awkward around the office, and Gibbs would be angry and I'd probably get a head slap for breaking rule twelve. And then Timmy would end up leaving the team, because he's good enough to have a transfer application approved in record time, and almost anyone would take him. He's so cute, and trustworthy and smart, and I like having him around. He can keep up with me, like Gibbs. And Gibbs would be livid, and I can't have that, he knows that I care about Timmy, about as much as Tony and Ziva care for each other. But they will never admit it, I wish they would, that would be so great, then I can allow Timmy in and then Gibbs will just have to be angry with all of us. Then I won't feel so bad. But even still I'm too scared of loosing him to risk something with him again, because with him it's different. And I know it is selfish and that I should not want to hang onto him, but I cannot help it, he just, I don't know, he makes sense somehow, and it's always better when I'm working with him, he helps me to focus. He helps me to think from different perspectives, and we always have fun. But to think that there's someone else there now, and that he would be spending less time with me, it hurts, really hurts. Tony has Ziva and Ziva has Tony, yes I know they are in denial, but you have to be blind not to see it. Gibbs has… well the next available red head and I have Timmy, but Timmy has the new girl, and that eats me. Where's my CAFF-POW? I need caffeine. Caffeine will make it better… caffeine and Timmy.
