Author's Note: This is a little drabble from Lucius's point-of-view regarding his feelings for Narcissa. This could be considered slightly AU as we really don't know much about the Pureblood culture, and I made some assumptions with it. I know there has to be much more to the Pureblood culture than just them hating Mudbloods, Muggles, and Half-Bloods. Personally, I see the Pureblood culture as being very traditional. They have traditional values and beliefs, including how they view the gender roles. This idea of the traditional culture plays a part in how I view Lucius's and Narcissa's relationship. As we will see, Lucius and Narcissa are not traditional in certain ways. I hope that Lucius isn't OCC here, but I figure that he would act differently around Narcissa than he does around everyone else. And I also believe that Lucius is not really half as confident as he pretends to be.

Additional Author's Note: This drabble takes place sometime during Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.


The man's word is supposed to be law. That's what I've been taught. That's what you've been taught. The woman is supposed to follow her husband without question or objection. The woman is just there to give her husband an heir. The woman isn't allowed to have a mind of her own.

And you should know that I don't believe in any of that nonsense. Bellatrix may obsessively follow the Dark Lord; and Andromeda may have denied her family and her blood in order to be with someone who stands against everything that we believe in.

But you are different.

You follow no one, not even me.

And I have no problem with that.

And I will do anything for you.

You speak your mind. When you don't like something, you let me know. You will argue your point.

And I have no problem with that.

And I will do anything for you.

Why?

Because you are my equal in intelligence and wits. You see and understand more than you let on. You keep parts of yourself hidden. You know when to speak and when you keep silent. You know what to tell the truth about and what to lie about. You never play all your cards at once.

I will do anything for you.

Why?

Because you lift me up when I fall. You speak up for me and defend me when everyone else abandons me. You care about me when everyone else just wants to forget about me.

I will do anything to make you happy. I will listen to what you have to say, and it will not hurt my pride to admit when you are right and I am wrong.

Why am I saying such things?

Because I need you.

I want to die. I am a failure. I have lost my pride and dignity. I am just an empty shell of my former self. I am nothing.

I want to die. I have failed both you and Draco, and there is nothing I could ever say or do that could make up for it. The man is supposed to protect his family, and my family is now in danger because of me. Because of my failure. Because of my weakness.

I want to die. I look for a knife, some poison. There are even times when I just want to jump off the roof of our manor.

But then you look at me, and your usual cold eyes are soft and filled with adoration. How can you still adore me? There is nothing left of me to adore.

But despite everything, you still see some value in me.

Despite everything, you are my champion, my only supporter.

And even though I am not worthy of you, I don't want to lose you.

I cannot lose you. If I lose you, I will truly lose everything. You are my sanity, my strength, my only source of comfort.

Please do not leave me. I cannot lose you. I am nothing without you.

I will do anything for you.

I will do anything to keep you here with me.