Logan's Apologies

This story is about Logan apologizing to Lily after her death. It will be 4 chapters possibly. Each chapter will be stand alone. The chapters will follow what happened on the series. I always felt that Logan had a tough exterior but was just as much a marshmallow underneath as Veronica. I also believe that he loved Lily so much that he would always feel close to her as she is his first love. I also believe that Lily knew who Veronica could be and would be one day as well as that Logan always loved Veronica. I feel like she wasn't threatened by Veronica because Logan wouldn't want to "ruin" Veronica but when she became her true self he saw his soul mate.

Well enough of that, I do not own Veronica Mars (if I did we would have our much wanted movie). I only own these words to this story. Also I know this is a new story but I promise I will get back to my older stories when I find my old notebook. Now on with the story:

Logan Apologizes to Lily Season 1:

Logan left Veronica's feeling defeated. She was raped and part of it was his fault. He brought the drugs to the party; he let people do salt licks off of her. What kind of person does that? He only hoped that one day, when she realized he hadn't meant her any harm, she would let him apologize. But first he had someone else that he needed to apologize to; and they wouldn't have a chance to stop him.

When he arrived at the cemetery he remembered Lily's burial and almost ran away at the memory. But as quickly as the thought came he remembered his promise to Lily.

FLASHBACK

"Logan, I know you are Duncan's friend but I need you to help me look out for Veronica. She's innocent and she needs us" Lily said as they lay next to each other on her bed.

"Of course I will" replied Logan.

"I know you love her" said Lily.

"As much as I do any of my friends" Logan quickly replied.

"Well then promise me" said Lily as she turned to face him.

He shifted to face her as she continued "she needs you just as much as she needs me."

"I promise I'll protect Veronica from anything and everything that could hurt her" Logan replied. Lily kissed him as the memory faded.

END FLASHBACK

He stopped in front of Lily's grave and knelt down. Her stone read Lily Kane Beloved Daughter, Sister, and Friend.

"I'm so sorry Lily" Logan started. "I didn't know I really thought I was doing what was best. I mean she sided with her dad against your family. I didn't know that me turning against her would cause her to be raped. I should've been better" Logan continued as tears came to his eyes and began slowly falling down his face.

"I could've protected her, taker her home from the party. I love her, I've always loved her. You know that, you've always known that. It's why you asked me what I thought about her the first time I saw her at Prom. I hurt her when all I want to do is protect her. I broke my promise to you. Why do I hurt the ones I love? You, my mom, Veronica – I'm not meant to be happy, am I" he said.

"I promise you this will be the last time I break that promise to you. I will protect her always from this day on. I'm so sorry Lily, please make it better. Let her figure this out and forgive me. I'll protect her like I should've so long ago" he wiped his eyes as he finished.

He laid a small bouquet of flowers that were in his hand in front of her headstone. He walked to his car where a bottle of Jack was waiting to wash away his sorrows.