Title: Silent Tears
Author: Ali
Email: AlienEcstasy@obsession-network.com or RoswellianGrl22@aol.com
Rating: R
Summary: Short Tess POV just after Nasedo dies (Dark Fic)
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Numbness fills my entire body and tears quickly cloud up my vision as I watch your body disinigrate before me. How could this happen? We could always bring you back before, what went wrong this time? I look over at Isabel as she puts her arm around my shoulder and tells me shes sorry.
*
The numbness is back as the winds whips through my hair as Max drives us back towards civilization, and I stare absent mindedly as the desert passes in front of me. Silent tears slip down my face, and seep into the corners of my mouth and I taste the saltiness upon my tongue.
*
Valenti's. They have taken me in, and Kyle has given me his room while he sleeps on the couch. I pull the blanket tighter around my body as is it weren't already, I sigh deeply and rest my head upon the wall behind me, and more tears stream down my face.
My protector.
My Teacher.
My Guider.
and The Only father I knew.
Gone.
*
I watch the clock as time passes by, it is now 3:00 in the morning and I'm still up thinking about you.
The pain in my head increases and it feels like it will explode.
The blankets fall from my thinning frame, and the coldness I feel hits me like a brick, Kyle is sleeping, I can tell by the gentle rise and fall of his chest and the quiet snoring.
I walked into the bathroom and turned on the light. I look like shit. My hairs all rumpled, my eyes have ark circles under them and look like they've sunken in to head, and then that disturbing throbbing comes back to me and I remeber why I came in here in the first place.
Pills.
Lots of pills.
I pull the bottle from the cabinet marked "Asprin" and walk over and sit on the lid of the toilet seat, I can barley read the dosage as tears blur my vision, I could end it now. Now that I am alone in the world without guidance whats the point in living a life of despair for you know the people around you loathe you? The bottle stares at me, what the hell am I suppose to do?
*
Sobs rack my entire body, and I throw the bottle of pills at the wall, and cover my tear stained face behind my hands, what am I thinking? Killing myself? For You? You didn't give a shit about me so why should I care so much that your gone?
Footsteps.
I hear the footsteps in the hall. Great now I've woken the whole house up. The gentle knock on the door doesn't surprise me, as I squeese my eyes shut and pray whoever it was would go away.
Another knock came.
"Tess.....are you okay?"
It was Kyle. I opened my mouth to answer, but before he could say anything he opened the door, and stepped inside. "Tess what the......" He stopped and saw all the pills that has fallen out of the bottle. The tears came faster now, as I willed myself not to look at him for he would see me as the little weak thing that I truly am.
He placed himslef in front of me and knelt down and waited for an answer, I took a deep breath and looked at him "I know he wasn't human, but he was the only father I knew." Kyle nodded and ever so gently pulled me against him as I let go and tears soaked his shirt. He pulled back and held the bottle up. "Did you......."
"No"
I saw him sigh in relief.
"You're safe here with us Tess," I smiled as I saw in his eyes that he meant that.
What was I thinking?
I can move on and learn to trust again.
No longer will I mourn you.
Author: Ali
Email: AlienEcstasy@obsession-network.com or RoswellianGrl22@aol.com
Rating: R
Summary: Short Tess POV just after Nasedo dies (Dark Fic)
____________________________________
Numbness fills my entire body and tears quickly cloud up my vision as I watch your body disinigrate before me. How could this happen? We could always bring you back before, what went wrong this time? I look over at Isabel as she puts her arm around my shoulder and tells me shes sorry.
*
The numbness is back as the winds whips through my hair as Max drives us back towards civilization, and I stare absent mindedly as the desert passes in front of me. Silent tears slip down my face, and seep into the corners of my mouth and I taste the saltiness upon my tongue.
*
Valenti's. They have taken me in, and Kyle has given me his room while he sleeps on the couch. I pull the blanket tighter around my body as is it weren't already, I sigh deeply and rest my head upon the wall behind me, and more tears stream down my face.
My protector.
My Teacher.
My Guider.
and The Only father I knew.
Gone.
*
I watch the clock as time passes by, it is now 3:00 in the morning and I'm still up thinking about you.
The pain in my head increases and it feels like it will explode.
The blankets fall from my thinning frame, and the coldness I feel hits me like a brick, Kyle is sleeping, I can tell by the gentle rise and fall of his chest and the quiet snoring.
I walked into the bathroom and turned on the light. I look like shit. My hairs all rumpled, my eyes have ark circles under them and look like they've sunken in to head, and then that disturbing throbbing comes back to me and I remeber why I came in here in the first place.
Pills.
Lots of pills.
I pull the bottle from the cabinet marked "Asprin" and walk over and sit on the lid of the toilet seat, I can barley read the dosage as tears blur my vision, I could end it now. Now that I am alone in the world without guidance whats the point in living a life of despair for you know the people around you loathe you? The bottle stares at me, what the hell am I suppose to do?
*
Sobs rack my entire body, and I throw the bottle of pills at the wall, and cover my tear stained face behind my hands, what am I thinking? Killing myself? For You? You didn't give a shit about me so why should I care so much that your gone?
Footsteps.
I hear the footsteps in the hall. Great now I've woken the whole house up. The gentle knock on the door doesn't surprise me, as I squeese my eyes shut and pray whoever it was would go away.
Another knock came.
"Tess.....are you okay?"
It was Kyle. I opened my mouth to answer, but before he could say anything he opened the door, and stepped inside. "Tess what the......" He stopped and saw all the pills that has fallen out of the bottle. The tears came faster now, as I willed myself not to look at him for he would see me as the little weak thing that I truly am.
He placed himslef in front of me and knelt down and waited for an answer, I took a deep breath and looked at him "I know he wasn't human, but he was the only father I knew." Kyle nodded and ever so gently pulled me against him as I let go and tears soaked his shirt. He pulled back and held the bottle up. "Did you......."
"No"
I saw him sigh in relief.
"You're safe here with us Tess," I smiled as I saw in his eyes that he meant that.
What was I thinking?
I can move on and learn to trust again.
No longer will I mourn you.
