Song 1: Katy Perry - Circle The Drain...

(You are more than welcome to suggest a song to me. I'm more than willing to give it ago.)

Sure Dean had never been a light drinker, but lately Cas had noticed that Dean was drinking more and more. Sam told him not to worry about it but Castiel couldn't help it.

One night Sam went out all he said to Cas before he left was that he would be back sometime tomorrow. Castiel wasn't really interested about Sam he was trying to watch over Dean; who was drinking himself to death these past few weeks.

"Don't worry Cas, this is the last one" Dean hiccuped as he tried to grasp the beer bottle in front of him to down the last drop.

"You said that, four beers ago" Castiel rolled his eyes as he walked over to Dean. "This isn't a holiday, what are you celebrating?"

"Life" Dean said standing up and accidentily dropping the bottle, causing it smashed, "Oppos" he laughed, "clean that up will you? I'm going to get another." Dean could barley walk.

"No" Castiel said waving a hand to clean up Dean's mess, "your going to sleep. Now!"

"You're not the boss of me!" Dean shouted, taking another beer from one of the packs he brough earlier that day.

"Why should I not drink? I work hard! I deserve to relax and -" Dean began but he was cut off. By Castiel saying,

"You always give 100 reasons why! If I had a dollar for every time I heared you say just one more the past few weeks, I could buy a bank!"

"Are you using sarcasm on me?"

"No. I've been counting and I really would be able to buy a bank if I had a dollar for every time you said that!" Castiel said sitting opposite him at the table.

"Why don't you have one?" Dean offered.

"No! I drank once before. I was a mess when I came out of it" Castiel rubbed the back of his neck. "Dean, what is the matter? Why are you doing this?"

"I'm sick of burying my friends! Sick of watching them die! Sick of them leaving! I just want to forget about things, for awhile at least!" Dean shouted throwing the bottle he was holding.

"You are a hero, Dean. You could be the greatest hero, but you'd rather get wasted!"

"What are you saying?" Dean asked gesturing for Cas to clear up his mess yet again.

"I'm not going to stay and watch you go down!" Castiel shouted and got ready to leave.

"Wait" Dean begged graping his sleeve.

"I am not here to be your mother Dean. I want to be -" Castiel stopped himself before he said the 'your lover.'

"Cas, things are getting harder to deal with by the day, I can't have you walk out on me too"

"I don't want to stay and watch you circle the drain while you drink yourself to death" Castiel shouted pulling his arm from Dean clasp.

"You think your so rock and roll, don't you?" Castiel turned to Dean, "you are no more than a joke now Dean!"

"I love you Cas" Dean bulleted out turning his back on the angel.

"You won't remember that in the morning!" Castiel shouted.

"I will!" Dean shouted back, "I'm not drunk!"

"Prove it!"

Dean tried walking in a straight line but he tripped over his own feet.

"That's what I thought!" Castiel said sternly holding his hand out for Dean to take.

"Can I have one more?" Dean asked as the angel hurled him to his feet.

"No!"

"Why?"

"Because your already half gone!"

"Why do you care?"

"Because I love you too Dean" Castiel was tearing up from having to see Dean like this.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"Because I was afraid, the only reason I'm telling you now is because I know you won't remember in the morning" Castiel pulled Dean into a hug. "I can't be your savior Dean" he admitted pulling away. "I don't have the power...not if I have to watch you kill yourself!"

Castiel walked over to the sink and got a bucket from the cupboard under it and brought it back over to Dean and held it out in front of him.

"Thanks Cas" Dean said as he puked up his last few drinks.

"It's okay" Castiel said sitting Dean on the end of the bed and rubbing his back closing his eyes and turning his head every time Dean was sick.

"I'm sorry you have to see me like this" Dean coughed whipping his mouth on the tissue Cas handed him.

"I've seen you bleeding, possessed, angry, sad, being tortured and torturing others. I'm sure I can handle watching you vomit. Are you done?" Cas asked when he looked back at Dean.

"For now" Dean swallowed.

"Any more just say" Castiel nodded cleaning the bowl out and laying on the floor.

"Cas" Dean looked up at the angels face and smiled,

"Yes, Dean"

"I love you"

"I love you too. Now go to bed!"

"Will you lay with me?"

"Yes" Castiel nodded as he layed on the bed next to Dean, "I don't sleep though."

"I know. I just want to be with you."

"Okay."

Castiel sighed as Dean cuddled up to him under the covers. He knew Dean wouldn't remember any of this in the morning and that he would be confused and Castiel knew Dean didn't really love him either! But Castiel was happy to finally confess to Dean his true feelings but it made him sad to know that Dean didn't really know. He wasn't really himself and would wake up with a hang over and then he'd be confused to find Castiel laying next to him as well, but when Castiel felt Dean's heart beat he couldn't bring himself to move away.

"Thank you for everything Cas" Dean whispered in his ear.

"Your welcome" Castiel said back, he was trying to pluck up the courage to kiss Dean's forehead but he was too nervous. 'Just do it!' He said to himself. 'He won't remember it happening!' Castiel took a deep breath and finally placed his lips to Dean's forehead and kissed it. Dean smiled as he felt Castiel's lips on his head. He moved up slightly so they were face to face and Dean kissed Castiel's lips. Castiel couldn't bring himself to stop Dean mid way though and Dean started deepening the kiss. Castiel knew he should. He knew it meant nothing to Dean, but it meant a lot to him. Sure Castiel didn't want their first kiss to be a drunken blur that Dean might later come to regret and get angry at Cas for not stopping him but Castiel couldn't help it. Castiel was about to stop Dean and tell him that if he really loved him then he can kiss him in the morning. But Dean was already asleep.

The next morning, Dean woke up. He noticed that no one was next to him as he felt around the bed, but the sheets next to him were warm so someone was in there with him last night and only recently left. He peeled his eyes open. His head, he saw some water and pain pills on the bed side table. Sam walked in the front door slamming the door behind him.

"Dammit Sam, Shut up will ya" Dean groaned as he took the pills.

"Sorry, thought you would still be asleep, where's Cas?" Sam apolaigzed watching his brother drink the glass of water.

"Cas? I don't know! I don't remember where he went? What did I do?" Dean asked holding his head in his hands.

"I don't know. What do you remember?" Sam asked sitting on the chair at the table facing his brother.

"I remember, you saying you'd come back in the morning. I remember being sick. I remember - shit!" Dean said as he watched the flash back of Castiel pushing Dean off him. "I kissed him!"

"What!" Sam laughed a little.

"He stopped me!"
"Wow"

"It's not funny. You know how I feel about him. Now he knows too"

"He properly just thinks it's the alcohol Dean. Don't worry."

Suddenly there was a flutter of wings as the trench coated angel appeared by the bed side.

"Dean" Castiel said forcing him to look up, "your awake. I brought breakfast."

"Thanks"

"How do you feel?"
"Hung over!" Dean said taking the bag from Cas as Castiel layed a hand on Dean head,
"better?" he asked.

"Yeah. Thanks" Dean smiled at the angel as he tucked into his bagel. "Cas, last night. I might have said somethings or done somethings"

"like what?" Castiel asked trying to hid the fact that he hoped Dean remembered the kiss,

"I don't remember. But incase I did; it was just the alcohol. I hope I didn't do anything that would ruin the friendship" Dean said blushing a little.

"Do you want to remember? I can show you!" Castiel suggested hoping Dean would say no he wouldn't find out about Castiel's feelings.

"That would be great, Cas" Dean said smiling. Castiel although disappointed done it anyway. Dean's mouth feel open as he stood up and kissed the angle again.

"I said I loved you and I meant it. Why would you think, I was lying?" Dean asked as he pulled away.

"I don't know" Castiel shrugged.