Forever Doesn't Exist

"This is your life and today is all you've got now

Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have

Don't close your eyes

Don't close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be"

The words trickled from the speakers as the song slowly began to start. It was a very good question.

"This is your life, are you who you want to be".

Was she what she wanted to be? Is this what she dreamed it would be? Both questions were answered with a no. She wasent who she wanted to be. This wasent what she dreamed it would be. It was nothing close to that! Her life had been going in a down spiral since August. Nothing went right for her anymore. It always seemed to turn out badly. She was heartbroken. And her friends around her were getting heartbroken to. Life isen't easy for them anymore. Things change, and we all know we hate change. No matter who you are, you know that change will come. And your secretly dread it. It's true nothing lasts forever. Forever doesnt exist. For anyone. Thats how life is. You only live for a certain amount of years. Your years may be cut short, but thats for you to decide. She knew this all. She knew it to well. She had friends coming close to ending it. They couldn't and didn't see the tole this was taking on her..They didnt see it at all..

She could always change herself.. She could become like the rest. A carbon copy of everyone else.

No..No..

That wasent what she wanted. This is about what she wanted right? Right. So if she wanted change she should change for the better...right? Right.

Or atleast this is what she thinks. She's different. She wanted change for the better, for herself. Not for everyone else. She wanted to make a difference in the world even though she knows deep down inside she cant. But that's not stopping her. Atleast not today it isent. Sure. It might some other day but not today. She wants to change. She wants to be everything you want of her. Even though she doesnt wanna change for everyone else. She's really striving to change for those close to her. Maybe they'd like her better then. Maybe just maye they would. The closest person she had.. she's always changing for that person. Putting up fake masks and sheilds just so he thinks it doesnt still affect her. Oh how they worked. They worked wonderfully.. but saying that would be a lie. Somewhere deep inside she knows he knows she's faking it. But she changes for him none the less. She changes for you. She changes for him, she changes for everyone. How much more can she change just to keep everyone happy? Thats the question we'd all like to know the answer to. Maybe it'll come someday. Maybe she'll finally break.

Maybe, just maybe.