I hope you all like the story...I don't write a lot of fanfiction, but I've been thinking about Brooke and Peyton's relationship for a while and thought I would try to write about it. Thanks for reading and reviewing!


Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart

Brooke's POV

Brooke had seen that Peyton was calling her, but she couldn't bare the thought of actually speaking with her once best friend. How did things get so messed up? Well actually when she would allow herself to think about what all had happened it would open old wounds and her heart would break open all over again. She couldn't keep doing that to herself.

It had seemed just like yesterday when she thought she had it all figured out, but man was she wrong. The summer after high school graduation turned her world upside down.

A buzz from her phone drew Brooke out of thoughts and she realized that Peyton had left her message. Was she strong enough to listen to her voice, one that she hadn't heard in such a long time, but yearned to hear everyday. With all of the courage she could find, Brooke pressed play.

Hi, it's Peyton. Yeah I'm sorry. I know it's late there, I just...what happened to us you know? I don't know who I am anymore or how I got here. I miss who I used to be. I wanna have a home again, you know? And the friends, you know, the kind of friendships we used to believe in. I miss that and I miss you! I guess I just miss all of it.

Brooke didn't know what to think of the message. On the one hand just hearing her best friend's voice was incredible and she realized how much she really did miss her. On the other hand, Brooke couldn't help but feel anger at her friend's words. She was the one who had chosen the life she was living. She was the one who had abandoned their friendship. No, the more Brooke thought about it the more pissed and upset she was getting.

Before she knew it, she was thinking back to that summer and what had happened between them, opening her old wounds she tried desperately to hide.

When they had both gone to LA, they thought the world was their oyster and nothing could stop them. Peyton had started her internship at Sire Records and Brooke was able to get an internship with Teen Vogue. They would go with each other to special events and party it up. It didn't seem to matter what age you were in LA.

Brooke knew that Peyton always had a special part in her life, but that summer she started to come to terms with her true feelings. All of the fights they had had in High School were starting to make sense and it was terrifying the brunette. She realized that whenever the other was with a guy, the third wheel would be jealous or try to come between them. Peyton always coming in between her and Lucas, Brooke getting angry of friendships the blonde had had. She was beginning to see that she loved Peyton Sawyer and wanted to be with her.

Through everything they had been through together, Peyton's moms death, psycho Derek, boys, fights, Bitchtoria…they always came out on the other side stronger and more connected. Together they were invincible! But how could Brooke tell Peyton the truth. She knew that her best friend just didn't feel the same way.

Peyton's POV

She had to call her former best friend, hoping that by some miracle she would actually answer her phone. It had been so long since they spoke and she missed Brooke…craved her actually. They were inseparable and then in one instance they were torn apart. But in reality she didn't have anyone else to blame but herself. She would love to find some excuse, but any that she thought of were never good enough.

"Damnit", she said to herself when she got her voicemail. She couldn't help but smile, though, hearing her friends raspy voice, one she had always loved listening too.

She didn't know if she should leave a message or not, but she had too…Brooke would have seen she had called.

"Fuck", Peyton said after hanging up the phone. She knew the message she had just left Brooke did not come out the way she intended it too. If she still knew her best friend, Brooke would be upset by it because Peyton knew exactly what had happened between them.

That summer in LA with Brooke had been one of the best times of her life. They were meeting cool people, going to events that all their friends back home were jealous about, and they were attached at the hip. She had never felt so connected to someone than she did to Brook Davis that summer. But what did it all mean?

She and Lucas had decided that they were better off as friends…it was hard for both of them to accept this, but they knew deep down that they just weren't meant to be. Peyton would always have a special place in her heart for Lucas, but she knew that he wasn't the person she wanted to spend the rest of her life with.

When she was with Brooke, she would find herself staring at her for a little longer than was probably normal, as well as realizing just how beautiful she was. These thoughts though scared the shit out of her and she just kept suppressing them, pretending like they weren't there. Everyday she was discount her thoughts, telling herself that Brooke was her best friend and was nothing more.

Then in one night, everything had changed between them.