Title: Speaking of Michaelangelo
By: John Grace
I will archive
Rated: PG
Disclaimer: not mine
Summery: What Mulder is thinking shortly after the happenings of Oubliette.
AUTHERS NOTE: this is formated the way you would think about something. There are jumps in logic and you aren't supposed to get it all.
Scully is her name.
It sounds male. Its not. You know for the three years we have been working together I
always felt I could trust her not to totally disregard my feelings or opinions. like a male.
There is a first time for everything.
Scully damn it this really Sucks.
I mean sure, you can fight with me.
I love that.
The way your mouth does that little pursing thing that you don't know you do.
The eyebrow . You know the eyebrow.
Everything about the way you look at me.
But damn it, lately it seems that you always just ignore what I have to say, with no good
reason.
Not only ignore it but I swear to god you mock it.
And that hurts more then I could have imagined.
See, Scully, I know what I am looking for to a certain degree. My sister
The truth.
My past.
But what the hell are you looking for?
I mean, Scully, my serrate is all I have.
With out it I would be...Christ I don't know what I would be, just not here and I wouldn't
be me.
And then you mock it and I could swore that you enjoy it.
I cant undersigned why we always have to be on opposite sides of such things.
I enjoy it at work. We both thrive on it.
But I need support every now and then and you never seem willing to give it.
Scully, I wish I could tell you what I felt when Lucy died.
I wanted so much to save her.
I failed her, once again my incompetence killing some one else.
I don't know how much longer I can go on like this.
I don't know how much longer we can go on like this.
I don't know if I want us to go on like this.
This has been one of the hardest cases I have ever had to work, Scully.
It seemed to have been made worse by the fact I have had no support from you.
Oh hell, listen to me.
I am one selfish bastard.
I cant believe that I expect you to be supportive, and I have not ever been to you.
I am hardly a team player, but I wouldn't call myself codependent
oh no, I am completely fucking dependent on you.
I don't know when this happened, but some where between the files of my life you slipped
in and you are as important as Samantha.
I am afriad that i would give her up again ratherm then losse you.
I am afraid I love you.
from Oubliette
By: John Grace
I will archive
Rated: PG
Disclaimer: not mine
Summery: What Mulder is thinking shortly after the happenings of Oubliette.
AUTHERS NOTE: this is formated the way you would think about something. There are jumps in logic and you aren't supposed to get it all.
Scully is her name.
It sounds male. Its not. You know for the three years we have been working together I
always felt I could trust her not to totally disregard my feelings or opinions. like a male.
There is a first time for everything.
Scully damn it this really Sucks.
I mean sure, you can fight with me.
I love that.
The way your mouth does that little pursing thing that you don't know you do.
The eyebrow . You know the eyebrow.
Everything about the way you look at me.
But damn it, lately it seems that you always just ignore what I have to say, with no good
reason.
Not only ignore it but I swear to god you mock it.
And that hurts more then I could have imagined.
See, Scully, I know what I am looking for to a certain degree. My sister
The truth.
My past.
But what the hell are you looking for?
I mean, Scully, my serrate is all I have.
With out it I would be...Christ I don't know what I would be, just not here and I wouldn't
be me.
And then you mock it and I could swore that you enjoy it.
I cant undersigned why we always have to be on opposite sides of such things.
I enjoy it at work. We both thrive on it.
But I need support every now and then and you never seem willing to give it.
Scully, I wish I could tell you what I felt when Lucy died.
I wanted so much to save her.
I failed her, once again my incompetence killing some one else.
I don't know how much longer I can go on like this.
I don't know how much longer we can go on like this.
I don't know if I want us to go on like this.
This has been one of the hardest cases I have ever had to work, Scully.
It seemed to have been made worse by the fact I have had no support from you.
Oh hell, listen to me.
I am one selfish bastard.
I cant believe that I expect you to be supportive, and I have not ever been to you.
I am hardly a team player, but I wouldn't call myself codependent
oh no, I am completely fucking dependent on you.
I don't know when this happened, but some where between the files of my life you slipped
in and you are as important as Samantha.
I am afriad that i would give her up again ratherm then losse you.
I am afraid I love you.
from Oubliette
