-*hello everyone! I have completely gone through this story and added to every chapter to fit my new writing style... i tend to leave stories unfinished, but I will be working on many of the old ones to try and finish them... i hope that this month will be enjoyable while I use my time to it's advantage!*
Raven lost control of her emotions as her vase shattered. She cried for hours, but that is where here tormenter left her. Her father was pushing her as his dark spirit consumed her whole. He had more control, and she hated him for it. She held a goblet in front of her, a golden jewled goblet given to her by her mother that she had found in the temples of Azarath just months before this all happened to her. Her mother said that this would purify the demon inside her, it was a beckon of hope. "Azarath Metreon Zinthos" she said her mantra and the goblet glowed. She took out the blessed dagger, it seared and burned the deamon inside her. She cut a place on her palm and drained the flowing blood into the goblet. Once the bleeding stopped Raven placed a black silk bandage around it.
She focused, her body needed to focus... because this would hurt... badly. "Azarath Metreon Zinthos!" Her mantra was a spell by the monks used to change her powers into a pure and beautiful thing. The three words and the items before her turned the dark tainted blood into pure red normal blood... the blood inside the goblet and the evil with it had been clensed. She unwrapped her hand and poured the pure blood over the cut. She let out a pained scream and another mirror shattered in Starfire's room just down the hall from hers... she'd replace it like the other ones. The pure calmed down the powers her father had over her... giving her the control she desperately needed. That was the purpose of the goblet, to give Raven control. The cut was mostly healed from her supernatural abilities but still needed a few days. Raven froze hearing a loud knock on her metal door. "Rae you alright? You sounded like you were in pain... i heard Star's mirror shatter again! Can i come in?" He had great concern in his voice, for her Beast boy was not the most wanted company in the world. She gave it a few minutes... maybe he should see what she was going through, she was about to chicken out but Raven allowed him to come in her room. He walked in with genuine concern in his eyes seeing Raven covered in her own blood. His concern changed into fear "What the fuck Rae?!" He was running to her to inspect the damage. "Is that what those things your mom gave you are for?" He asked pointing at the goblet and dagger. "It's for control Beast boy...That you would not really understand... it's too complex... my emotions are at war in my head... and I need help to stop it... " Raven was the most complicated titan.
He looked at Raven in confusion and then complete understanding. "I might know more about losing control then you think Raven! Who said I wasn't having that exact struggle right now? Except... when it happens to me.. there's no way to turn it off... " As he revealed this, Raven's eyes widened. She never knew she'd feel the need to open up to the green skinned titan. "What are you saying then?" Raven said getting up balling her hands into fists holding back tears, was someone finally going to understand her torment? She hoped so... "what can you possibly understand about this?" She gestured to herself, challenging him for an answer to her questions.
He came back just as serious "I am part animal Raven I have instincts and urges from all of them, and believe me it is not easy... the meat eaters want to kill... the many of the other animals want to mate... do you know how hard it is to stay in control during my mating cycle when I have two unbelievably beautiful women in my reach? " He knew she was about to break but would she crack in front of him, then she realized he called her beautiful... she snapped out of her head. "Raven I crack all those jokes to distract myself from those urges, and that is actually why they are not actually funny... actually not at all.. and that is because there is minor thought that goes into it! It literally is just crap i picked from the comic section in newspapers and the back of cereal boxes!" She gapped at him. He actually admitted to his jokes having no humor to them. He always got butt hurt over his jokes, but now he's the one criticizing them? Raven was more confused and concerned about this situation than she originally thought. It was like everything she knew about him wasn't entirely true... but the new him wasn't joking or much different from her.
"Why are you telling me this?" She stared him in the eyes letting him see it... the emotions, the pain... the loneliness... he saw everything... and she couldn't stop it. "Because for the first time in your life you need to know you're not alone and not the only one who gets covered in their own blood because of it" He held her hands and was sounding so serious, and this was very unlike him. She finally gave in dropping to her knees crying, he kneeled with her holding her. "Such a presious thing should not hold back so much Rae, even if you are part demon you are still a young woman... you need comfort and affection... you need love and acceptance... you need someone to love you and tell you it's going to be alright... you need to let people in Raven... instead of pushing away just take it... because I'm giving you all i got... " he held her to his chest, he had grown larger and more masculine over the years. To her at this moment he made her feel safe. " I am actually surprised you even let me in...unless you are that broken Rae... I'll do everything in my power to help fix you... if you'll let me." After an hour of crying she fell asleep. She woke up hours later alone tucked in her bed and saw she was cleaned up, her hand properly wrapped in bandages. She saw a note on her dresser saying 'You fell asleep in my arms you looked exausted so I cleaned you up. By the way this little thing between us I won't speak of until you do. I want to respect your privacy, and take your trust with pride. Talk to me more often Rae - BB' She considered this, talking to him... letting him in... finally letting someone help. Holding the note to her chest she fell back asleep knowing there is more than people really say in this pool of secrets.
-*updated chapter 1!*
