"Momma!" Little EJ screeched from her crib a few feet away from Olivia's bed. Olivia woke up with that gorgeous million dollar smile. She whipped her sheet off of her and planted her feet on the ground. Looking up to see her gorgeous 2 year old world EJ. Ellorie-Jayne was fatherless, but not by Olivia's choice, David Haden slept with Liv and left her as soon as she showed him the positive pregnancy tests. She guessed that he just freaked out, he wasn't ready to be a dad, but Olivia thought they could do it together. She never planned on being alone and pregnant with no one by her side. After all, her longest relationship she had with a man, he left her too. Maybe it was her fate?
Scooping her beautiful baby girl in her arms, she takes her into the living room and places EJ in her beige baby chair. "There you go princess." Olivia says as she strokes EJ's gorgeous honey brown locks. Olivia takes her time looking at her daughter, she can't believe there was a time when she didn't want her baby girl, she was scared of being alone. But she knew now that she was meant to be EJ's mother, with or without a husband.
EJ was named after the two greatest people in Olivia's life. EJ stands for Elliot Junior, because when Olivia was pregnant, she was told that she was having a baby boy. Olivia was excited nonetheless. Yes she couldn't understand why Elliot left her, but she still cared about him. She was finally having the only thing she ever wanted, and he wasn't there to see it. Olivia just wanted some part of Elliot to be in her life, her daughter was precious, just like Liv and El's partnership was. Even Cragen didn't understand it. Sometimes they didn't understand it themselves...
For hours they played and cuddled until EJ got tired. Liv picked EJ up and carried her to her crib. She gave EJ a kiss on her soft little head, brushing away her wavy honey locks. She whispers "Semper Fi", a promise to her daughter that Olivia made ever since she the first time she held her in her arms. She just hoped to god that one day she wouldn't wake up and find out it was all a dream. Olivia finally felt wanted and needed. At least her little girl would never leave her.
Olivia's head pops up from looking down at EJ suddenly when she hears a knock at her door. She dodges all the toys like a maze. She really should clean it all up to decrease risk of injury. She brushes her clothes and looks through the peep hole. Olivia's breath hitches, and her heart is racing. It's who she sees that has got her all worked up. But is she just tired too? She shakes her head, trying to free her mind of it's impossible thoughts, only to find that what she thought was impossible, was indeed possible.
She opens the door very slowly, looking at the once adored man that stands in front of her. He face is emotionless but she can see it in his eyes. He's been crying this whole time too. She could always know what he was thinking just by his eyes. After all, she did dream of being in them for 12 fucking years. They stare at each other for a good 2 minutes before she opens her mouth. Planning to shout at him, but all that comes out is a hardly audible "El…".
