I told you that it wasn't a fanfiction.

It's just a letter, but not really... let's just call it a diary.

Firstly, I got two besties. I call them sisters! You know, it's the first time in my life for having that kind of someone. They stand by me every time, help me when I met something difficult, and the most important thing is that they stay after knowing how good or how bad I am. They got all those criterions of what people may think about 'best friend'. You can be envy of what I have! I'm so lucky!

We met often, almost every day 'cause they loved to come to my boarding house. Yeah, this story is about our togetherness besides the college life. Living apart from family and alone in other people's city, having those similarities made the three of us closer. By the girls talk we did, I realize that we have so much more same things that we've experienced in our life.

K-pop made us one! That was the first thing made us bumped to each other. Uncha, the oldest of us, and I are obsessed to be a mom of Seventeen and BTS. Ms. Park, the second oldest(?), has been dedicating her life for iKon's Hanbin, forever. You can't stop her. We never run out of topic to talk when it comes to K-pop!

I miss the old times—like I always say. We locked ourselves in the room watching weekly idol, seventeen's one fine day, mix and match, running man, MAMA, everything. I can't count how many moments and memories we did and made together. All I want is just going back to that time! But that's impossible.

College life is over. We leave that habit, that life, that room, that town. We come back to the place where we belong to. It's been few months since our last meeting and I'm still feeling numb. I don't know whether they feel the same. Or not.

Separated from them seems like losing a part of my life. I'm not overacting this. I mean it. I have so many thoughts in my mind. What if they forget me? What if they found someone better than me? And many other what if's. It's because I'm not enough. I never give them something valuable except love and caring. That's all I have.

I asked them, 'are you happy?' they said that they were happy. Well, glad to hear that but… but they're happy without me. I know that I can't be the only reason why they should be happy but still…

Yeah at least they're happy, and it would be my happiness too.. I'll try to live happily as well.

I just miss them.

I don't know what I'm writing now. I'll just end this right here.

Bye