Author's note: Just a short drabbleP I was thinking of SasuNaru while wrting it, but itcould be any couple you like while you read it;)
Warning: Some mention of sex, but no real smut
Disclaimer: Well, this is isn't it.
What should I do? Perhaps it's best to do nothing. It's no big deal, there are no major emotions involved. But is that OK? Perhaps I should press on. Ask him if he would like to go out sometime. But no, I don't want to be too pushy. That's all I need, him thinking I'm too clingy.
Perhaps things are best the way they are. We have fun, it's nice, but since we are not emotionally involved, no one stands to get hurt. But is that good enough? I know that we would make a perfect couple, there's no doubt about that. But this is so new to me, maybe I should just wait and see how things turn out. I never thought I would be so impatient.
But my God, he's such a good kisser! I just can't hold back! Even if the only times he touches me is when we're drunk, he's the one that approached me the day after. When I was a hung-over mess of nerves, wondering if it was all just a drunken mistake.
It's happened a few times now. We'll be at a party or in a bar with some other shinobi, and he asks me to dance. Somehow the dance turns into us sitting in a corner with out tongues down each other's throat. It even went farther than that the last time it happened.
That was my first time. But still. It didn't mean anything. It was fun, we were drunk, and he's so damn hot! I don't regret it. I won't regret it even if he think's I'm a slut and dumps me. Maybe what I should be worried about is how indifferent I am? Shouldn't I be desperate for emotional closeness?
We don't talk much when we're together. My mind sort of goes blank, and I don't know what to say. We walk together a part of the way home. Why can't I just grab his hand? Show him that I like him, just in case he's as confused as I am. All I want is for him to kiss me goodbye as the road forks off, but a cheek-against-cheek hug is all I ever get.
Once home again I regret not grabbing his arm and pressing my lips against his. However, as night falls, I think about what we've done so far and feel that even if it never becomes more than this, it's alright, because it's been fun, and I'll always have the memories.
But is that enough?
"Oi! Dobe! You're over an hour late! Sakura sent me to get you, she's furious."
"Oh shit! The mission!"
