Author's Note: This was inspired by a Lucissa story that is being written by AnnaChase, "Behind Closed Doors: A Portrait of the Malfoy Family." So far, I have not addressed the sex in Lucius's and Narcissa's relationship, so I'm going to do that now. This story, though, is going to be about more than just Lucius and Narcissa having sex all the time. Sex is just one part of this story.

Additional Author's Note: Rated M for sexual content and for mentions of past rape and child abuse.

Additional Author's Note: There will be references to other stories I have written, in particular the stories from my Dead Babies series (see my profile for the full list of stories) and my story "You Will Always Be My Favorite."

Additional Author's Note: This will be a multi-chapter story.


They were friends long before they were lovers. They had been arranged to be married since they were babies, but they still began as simply very good friends.

If you were to ask them, neither would have been able to pinpoint the exact moment when their feelings for each other went from friendship to something much more.

Even before they had started Hogwarts, Lucius and Narcissa had often spent time alone with each other. However, nothing sexual had never occurred between them. Not because they didn't like each other, because they most certainly did, but they just didn't like each other in that way.

Lucius's and Narcissa's relationship was built on a mutual respect for each other. They were able to debate and discuss various subjects without ever causing the other to feel offended or insulted. Also, they felt safe sharing things with the other that they would never consider sharing with anyone else. They were close, but they weren't close in the physical sense.

That all changed one night.


It began regularly enough. Lucius was helping Narcissa to study for her O.W.L.s.

"I give up," Narcissa suddenly cried in frustration. "I'm rubbish at Potions, and nothing is going to change that."

"You're not rubbish at Potions," Lucius replied soothingly.

"But I'm not as good as you," Narcissa responded.

"Perhaps," Lucius returned, shifting uncomfortably (which was a common reaction for him whenever Narcissa doubted her abilities), "but your Charm work is better than mine."

"There's nothing wrong with your Charm work, Lucius," Narcissa insisted.

"But I'm not as good as you," Lucius grinned.

Narcissa could not help but grin back.

"All right," Lucius then said, "let's get back to work."


Lucius watched Narcissa closely as she recited the ingredients that were necessary to brew a Polyjuice Potion.

Lucius suddenly felt something stiffening in his pants.

It was not a new feeling. Lucius had come to know the same feeling with the Dark Lord, who had often come into his bedroom in the middle of the night when he had been a young child.

Lucius remembered how the Dark Lord had once ordered him to hold his penis. It had been very stiff.

Just like Lucius's penis was at the current moment.

But Lucius had never enjoyed his sessions with the Dark Lord. So, why was he feeling such pleasure from just sitting beside Narcissa? This was not the first time he had ever sat beside her. Why was things suddenly so different?


Narcissa could feel Lucius's eyes on her, but that was nothing new. They often had their eyes on each other, especially when they were studying.

But all of a sudden, something felt different.

Narcissa glanced over at Lucius and noticed that he was staring at her with an almost entranced expression on his face.

Narcissa felt something catch in her throat. She also felt a strange feeling inside her stomach. Neither feeling was unpleasant.

Before she realized what she was doing, Narcissa began to move closer to Lucius.


It was very dark in the Common Room, almost as dark as it had been when the Dark Lord had come to visit him in his bedroom.

For a moment, it wasn't Narcissa that Lucius was seeing coming closer to him. It was the Dark Lord.

Lucius felt his penis stiffen even more.

No! Lucius screamed in his head. I don't like this! I don't want this!

Lucius quickly shot off the couch where he had been sitting with Narcissa. He then made a quick exit out of the Common Room.


Narcissa was completely confused. Lucius had been looking so eager, and she had felt just as eager as he had looked.

No, eagerness was not the right word to describe what they had both been feeling.

She had felt aroused, and it had been clear to her that Lucius had felt the same way. Well, he had felt the same way until he had suddenly taken off.

Narcissa could not understand at all why Lucius had did that. It was almost as if he had suddenly been scared of her.

And that didn't make sense at all. She had never been afraid of him, and she had always thought that he wasn't afraid of her either.

Had she thought wrong?

Had she done the wrong thing when she had started to move closer to him?

But he had been looking so aroused.

And Narcissa had been feeling so aroused.

For a moment, Narcissa considered going after Lucius to make sure that he was all right. But then she decided that probably wouldn't be a wisest move for her to make. Lucius was clearly struggling with something, and Narcissa's presence (instead of being comforting like it usually was) would only at the current moment make things worse for him.

Narcissa decided to remain on the couch and to wait for Lucius to return.

Narcissa picked up her Potions textbook, which had fallen to the floor at some point when she had been drawing nearer and nearer to Lucius.

She then attempted to read about the Polyjuice Potion, but she found herself unable to concentrate.

All she could think about was Lucius. A part of her was completely confused. But another part of her was upset that Lucius didn't want her in the same way she wanted him.

Wait, when had that happened? Just minutes ago, they had been studying, which was nothing new for them.

But now everything was different, and Narcissa could not explain when or why things had suddenly changed.


Lucius was some distance away from the Slytherin Common Room before he finally stopped running.

Lucius then looked around. He looked to be alone. He had managed to lose the Dark Lord.

Wait, what? What would the Dark Lord be doing at Hogwarts?

Lucius tried to remember what had happened. He had been studying with Narcissa.

Narcissa.

It had been Narcissa who had been coming towards him, not the Dark Lord.

And Lucius had ran away from her as if she had been something disgusting.

What did she think of him now?

Lucius closed his eyes and pictured Narcissa in his mind. He had always considered her beautiful, but now her beauty meant something different to him. Her beauty was now making him desire her.

Lucius suddenly became aware of the fact that his penis was still stiff. No, it was even stiffer now than it had been before he had ran from the Common Room.

He still wanted it, and he wanted to do it with Narcissa.

And he wasn't going to allow the Dark Lord to get in the way.


Narcissa suddenly heard the entrance to the Common Room opening. Several moments later, Lucius was standing right in front of her.

The look on his face made it clear what he wanted.

And Narcissa had a feeling that if she had been holding a mirror in front of her, she would see her reflection having the same exact look.

Narcissa stood up and placed her hands on Lucius's hips.

Lucius did the same, but he did more than just place his hands on Narcissa's hips. He also stroked them.

Narcissa released a sound of pleasure.

Lucius, mistaking the sound that Narcissa had made as being one of fear or pain, quickly stepped back, away from her.

"No, no," Narcissa quickly said. "It's all right. You didn't do anything wrong. I want this."

"It will hurt," Lucius breathed.

Narcissa looked at Lucius in confusion. How could he possibly know what it felt like? Had he had it before? But that wasn't possible. Narcissa knew in her heart that she was the only one that Lucius would ever want.

Unless she had been wrong.

"I, I read about it in a book once," Lucius said, seeing the look of anger and betrayal on Narcissa's face.

Narcissa immediately relaxed. She did feel guilty, though, that she had allowed herself to believe (even if it had been just for a moment) that Lucius had been with another.

She knew him better than that.

"I'm willing to accept whatever pain might be involved," Narcissa said. "You don't have to worry about hurting me, Lucius, because you won't."

Narcissa took a step towards Lucius. She then wrapped her fingers around one of the buttons holding Lucius's robe closed.

She saw Lucius's entire body stiffen as she undid the button.

Narcissa looked up at Lucius in concern.

"I'm fine," Lucius smiled weakly. "I guess I'm just a little nervous about disappointing you."

"I seriously doubt that's possible," Narcissa breathed in a husky voice.

Lucius just nodded his head. He then closed his eyes and took several deep breaths.


When Lucius opened his eyes, he saw that Narcissa was looking at him in concern.

"If you don't want to do this, Lucius," she said, "I will understand."

"No," Lucius breathed, "I want this. But only if you do as well."

Narcissa took one of Lucius's hands and placed it on one of the buttons holding her robe closed.

"Does that answer your question for you?" she grinned.

Lucius grinned back as he undid the button. He suddenly felt all his fears and nervousness disappearing, at least for the moment.

This was Narcissa. He had nothing to fear from her.

At that moment, Lucius made a silent promise to himself that he would never give Narcissa any reason to fear him.

She was the one person in the world he never wanted to hurt.

Lucius just hoped that he would be able to keep his promise, even if it had just been a silent one.