Hi i'm Alaa and this is my first ff so plz be nice. i know im not that great of a writer but plz r&r!
Dimitri s supposed to come out of the clinic today. I'm so glad that he got better. I dont know what I whould have done if I hadnt saved him in time. All I know is that I never wanted him to get injured again. I flashed back to the day at the caves. I remember how it felt when the strogoi bit into him. It felt as though my heart was being ripped apart. Your not there anymore I remonded myself. Just then there was a knock at the door. Sigh. who could it possibly be. I opened the door to see Alberta. she had this strange look in her eyes like she had something important yet horrible to say.
"Hi gaurdian petrov," I said as cheerfully as possible. "we need to talk" she said. "ok. um come in?" I said it more of a question form but she came in. "Im going to be blunt about this." she paused for a split second the nshe continued."Gaurdan Belikov left." I stood there probably looking like an idiot. I stood there waiting to hear what she had to tell me. Thats when it sunk in. "What? No! youre lying! He promised that he would stay. he told me he was done keeping his feelngs locked away!" I realized I had just told her about me and Dimitri and I being in a relationship but at this point I couldnt care less. In that moment felt like a lttle girl that wanted her mommy but my mother wasnt here. Somehow Alberta felt that I needed someone so she hugged.
I dont know how long she stayed in my room comforting me and telling me it was ok but it made me feel better. Thats when it occured to me that she knew. She knew i loved Dimtri. dont know how she knew but I knew she knew. "How did you know?" I asked. "Ive known you since you were about four years old Rose. I know when your in love. I know when your in pain. I just know." It may not have been that best explaination but it was better than nothng. "You should eat. you havent eaten all day." "I dont feel like eating." "Nonesense." she said. "How about this. You go take a shower while I get you somethng to eat and excuse you from the classes that you missed." I couldnt do anything but agree.
Half an hour later I was all washed up and I was eating donuts wth alberta. When we finshed she had to go. She said something about having a shift somewhere. After she left the full truth hit me. He was gone. Dmitri the one I risked my life to save. The person that was reason for being alive had left me. He didnt love me. For some reason I needed to make sure that he really didnt care so I grabbed my phone off my nightstand wped my tears away and dialed his rang a couple of times before he answered. "Hello" he said. "Dimitri" I said. I sounded so desperate. "O. Rose. My apologies but I thought you were informed that i had left." "Yes but I needed to know why." "I decided I loved Tasha and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her so I took up her offer." "What about us." "sorry rose but there s no us. I love Tasha now." "But you told me you loved me." "Its different now" "how? you dont love me anymore." "Rose, love fades. Mine has and yours will to." and with that he hung up the phone.
That night cried. I cried like a child that was being whipped. I cried and cried until i fell asleep.
