A/n: Don't own the song you can find the song on the album the Sweet Escape. I don't own Twilight either

Edward POV

This meadow was the last part I ever thought I would end up at again. I couldn't just leave with out making sure that she was okay. I felt that I had to stay here for a bit longer if it was only hiding in the shadows. Everyone else has left ahead, Jasper feeling guilty that this was all his fault. However, this incident only made me realize that my life is different from hers that she shouldn't be with me, I'm not right for her. Without her at my side, life doesn't make any sense at all but to really love someone is to make sure that they are happy with or with you.

She doesn't understand this yet, but one day she will. Everything that has happen to her would be such a blur that she would start to question if it ever did occurred. The love of my life will move on, marry, have children, and die peacefully. Everything that I can't offer her someone else would surely give to her.

Even though as much as it does pain me, she would belong to someone else and not me. If I could only find a way for everything to work out and for her to be with me, that is just me being selfish.

I had to see her one last time if it was to pain me just seeing her. She never did understand how powerful her scent was to me - intoxicating. Only that it will stay in my memory forever and if I could ever dream, I would only think of her beauty and her smell.

It was getting late now and knowing her she just finish giving Charlie his dinner and washing the dishes or deciding to do her homework. This would be the last time I'll ever see her maybe if I ever do get that chance, I'll come back to see her off as to seriously say goodbye.

Standing outside her house was painful the adrenaline to go inside and just hold her in my arms was hard to fight. Charlie's cruiser was already in the driveway, I could see the lights from the living room. Suddenly I felt it, the lonely drop from the gray clouded sky and it started coming down faster and harder.

" The rain is coming down pretty hard now, I wonder if Bella is alright. Ever since he left she hasn't come out of the room. I've only seen her when she goes out to shower, she refuses to go to school its been a week. The school keeps calling, the only think that I can come up with is that she is ill with the flu. I can't say that her idiot ex-boyfriend left her to die in the middle of the woods and is heartbroken."

I didn't expect to get up the next morning and be all happy that nothing ever happened but not this bad. I couldn't bear hearing Charlie's thought any longer and quickly made my way towards her window.

I stayed by the window it was half way open as if she expected for someone to come over and visit. I saw her on the floor looking through a photo album. I knew what she was looking at, the same page I lasted visited to. I took away anything that could remind her of me including the photographs she took of me. They were of course hidden in the one of the loose floorboards in her room but she will never find them.

Trying to blend with the shadows of the night I could see that she was in her favorite pair of sweat pants and a sweater that seemed far to big for her. Her beautiful eyes were swollen red from all the tears that she shed. Immediately I felt guilty I was causing her this pain but she would soon forget about it. That's all that I hope.

I herded the stereo getting ready to play a cd.

"Did she put it in?" I've so lost in my thoughts to notice that she had indeed moved.

You, you know how to get me so low

My heart had a crash when we spoke

I can't fix what you broke

"You left me alone! You promised you wouldn't leave me", she cried. Her tears escaping from her eyes, her hands trembling as she covered her face trying to conceal herself as she fell to the floor. Her brown hair covering her delicate fingers. "I can't do this anymore" Trying to wipe her tears off her face

And you, you always have a reason

Again and again this feeling

Why do I give in?

And I always was, always was one for crying

I always was one for tears

"You said you didn't love me anymore, is it true?", she asked the ceiling, staring at as if she waited for it to reply. Tears still escaping from her eyes as they travel down her cheeks towards her neck.

"Lie", he thought, it's all a lie I didn't mean it.

"For my own good, you said."

The sun's getting cold, it's snowing

Looks like an early winter for us

Looks like an early winter for us

An early winter, oh I need you to turn me over

"How am I suppose to continue to live? Did you know that I don't remember life before you?", her voice trembling as she spoke.

"You will move on, your stronger then you think"

You said the map of the world is on you

The moon gravitates around you

The seasons escape you

"Life will never pass you by, you will stay the same forever. Time doesn't exist for you." she whispered as she struggle to get up.

"It's a curse I wouldn't want it for you" his mind said. His hand were tightly clutched in a fist trying hard to restrain himself from going to her. "This for the best"

And I always was, always was one for crying

I always was one for tears

No I never was, never was one for lying

You lied to me all these years

"Did you lie to me? You said you didn't love me, was everything we lived a lie? What else was a lie, I didn't believe that you ever lie to me" her words barely made it out of her month as she fell hard on the floor, she was to weak. This only made more tears run down her face as she angrily slammed her hand to the floor. Her hair fell to her face as she struggle to breathe through her tears.

"Lies!" his mind screamed out. He dug his fingernails into his skin any tighter his arm would have broken off.

Why, why do you act so stupid

Why, you know I'm always right

She attempted to get up again but she couldn't on a whim she decided to crawl to the edge of her bed. He couldn't see her face anymore but the back of her head. By the sound of it she was still in tears.

Looks like an early winter for us

It hurts and I can't remember sunlight

An early winter for us

The leaves are changing colors

"I can't keep being locked up in here moping around, I have to get out of here. He decided to leave me it was his choice." she whispered.

"Yes, like that love just simple forget as if it was a nightmare" his hands relaxed a bit.

Starting over and over and over again

Well it looks like an early winter for us

It looks like an early winter for us

"I'll try and live for Charlie and Renee, they need me." she said as she wipes her face and closes her eyes.

"Exactly, be happy and live without me," he thought it was for the best yet it pained him to think of it. The pain returned, he would live eternity with out her, everyday knowing that she is always one day closer to death. He couldn't bear it anymore with one look at his soul mate, he left heading to a eternity of solitude.

"Good bye Bella," he whispered.

It looks like an early winter for us

Quickly she opens her eyes and turns to face the window. She rushes and looks outside only to find the rain pouring.

"I won't move on because I am in love with you," she whispered into the rain. "I love you Edward" as she collapse on to the floor.

A/n: The song is Early Winter by Gwen Stefani... Please review!