James likes Kendall. No, James loves Kendall.

But right now he isn`t very fond of him, which is weird because James rarely gets mad at Kendall.

Everyone knows that, so when the Palm Woods stars catch the sight of a fuming James running away from a concerned Kendall, they can`t help but stare in shock.

James runs to the door of their apartment: the 2J. Confusion, anger and hurt written all over his pretty face. He`s running for the bathroom when something catches his arms, looking down he sees that it`s Kendall`s hand that`s stopping him.

"James…" Kendall says, trying to catch his breath

"What?" James asks annoyed, yanking his arm away from Kendall`s grasp

"James, what the fuck happened back there? Why did you suddenly took of running like that?" the blonde asked, not quite knowing whether to be angry or concerned at his tall friend.

"You should know why, Kendall!" the pretty boy snapped at his confused friend.

"What do you mean by that?" Ok, now James was confusing Kendall. What was he supposed to know?

"Nothing, just forget I ever said that" James mumbled avoiding Kendall`s concerned gaze.

"No, James. Tell me" He was starting to get worried. What was so important that he couldn`t even tell his best friend?

"Just drop it, Kendall" James said frustrated.

Kendall reached out his hand to touch James`s shoulder in a comforting way.

"James, whatever it is, you know can trust me" He looked up to meet James`s gaze, his heart wrenched at the sight of the pretty boy`s eyes filling with tears. "What should I know James?" he asked in a soft tone.

"That I`m in love with you" James thought bitterly, now if only it was that easy to say it out loud. "It`s nothing, Kendall" James said, hoping Kendall would just drop it.

But of course being Kendall, he was stubborn and wasn`t about to back down.

"It`s obviously something if it`s bothering you that much, so just tell me!" He was getting a little frustrated now at James.

"Kendall, seriously leave it alone" James said walking away.

Kendall was having trouble trying to figure things out. What made James so mad back at the pool? They were only hanging out with Logan, Carlos and Jo, he leaned in to kiss Jo and when he turned around, James was gone.

Was it something he said? No it couldn`t been that. He hadn`t said anything to James all day and at the pool he was too busy kissing Jo.

Wait… he saw James running off while he was kissing Jo.

He let out a shaky breath as a sudden possible realization hit him.

"James…Do you" he gulped. "Do you have a crush on Jo?" he asked, not wanting to know the answer to his question.

James froze and stopped walking mid-track.

Did Kendall seriously think that? So all those times flirting with Kendall had been in vain? The boy seriously was clueless. And now for him to think that he liked his girlfriend?

And just like that James Diamond finally snapped.

"God, Kendall, you`re so stupid! You seem to be the only one who doesn`t have a clue of what my problem is! Seriously, I think that even Logan and Carlos know hell even Jo! I wouldn`t be surprised if the whole Palm Woods residents knew. But for some reason you`re the only one who doesn`t see it!"

"See what?"Kendall yelled back, shocked at his friend`s little speech.

"That I`m in love with you!" James screamed.

His eyes went wide and he put a hand over his mouth realizing what he just did.

Kendal visibly paled and his eyes went wide.

"You…you what?" Never in his life had the blonde been this confused. James had romantic feelings for him? He…he loved him?

Then it hit him, all those times he and James were alone, they always seemed to be flirting. At first it was weird, but Kendall thought it was like James to flirt with anything that had two legs, so he started flirting back, in a joking way; he was joking, but apparently James wasn`t

Damn! How could he be so stupid? Everyone else seemed to notice, at least, according to James, except him.

He felt a strong wave of guilt washing over him; he knew what he had to do: break James`s heart, break his best friend`s heart.

"James…" Kendall said, his voice laced with sorrow, his eyes sad and pleading for James to understand him, understand that he had to do this.

"Yeah, I know…" The pretty boy said sadly with tears running down his cheeks.

After a long moment of silence, neither of the boys knowing how to take the news, James spoke up.

"So…I guess this is what it feels to be rejected, huh?" James gave Kendall a watery smile that turned out more like a grimace.

"I do love you James! … But not the same way you… love me" Kendall said, not wanting James to feel rejected or hurt by his lack of romantic feelings for the pretty boy.

He meant it, he really loved James.

Everybody knew that four members of B.T.R. had a very strong friendship, a bond that no one could break; they often called themselves brothers because it just felt right, they were brothers.

But only a few selected knew that it hadn`t been always the four of them, their friendship actually started with only two boys.

*FLASHBACK*

Five-year-old Kendall sat and began coloring his "Spiderman Color Me" book, while humming "This little light of mine" a song that his mother sang to him every night before sleeping.

Today was the first day of school, every little kid was excited and happy to start school, make new friends, learn more, and of course, every little kid`s must: play with dirt.

Everyone, except one James Diamond.

"Mommy, please don`t make me go!" five-year-old James screamed while kicking at the air as his teacher tried to get him out of the car.

Brooke Diamond barely even glanced at her son, while fixing her make up. With one wave of hand he told his teacher to get him out, because she was getting late for work. Finally after ten long minutes of screaming and crying, James let go of the car seeing that his mother was getting angry. James went inside the classroom as he looked around; he wondered if he could make friends with someone here.

No such luck.

After talking to almost every kid in the classroom, nobody seemed to want to be his friend; feeling sad and upset he made his way to the back of the classroom to color.

He grabbed a random book, took his 100 crayon box out and began coloring, when he felt a soft hand on his shoulder, he turned around to see a mop of dirty blonde hair.

"Can I borrow your red crayon?" asked the strange little boy with bushy eyebrows and green bright eyes.

"Yeah…" James mumbled, handing the boy his red crayon.

"Thank you" the strange little boy gladly took it and went back to color Spiderman`s costume.

After 20 good minutes of coloring and playing around, the teacher announced that it was time for recess.

Kids ran out excited chatting with their new friends, with their lunch in their hands to the yard.

James sat far in the corner, so no one could see that he was alone and friendless.

He started to think. Why didn't anyone wanted to be friend with him? What was so bad about him? He didn't wanted to be a loner, he wanted friends, just like every other little kid, but no one wanted him.

Maybe his dad was right after all. Maybe he was just a burden to everybody else that couldn`t be liked by anyone; after all he and his mother told him that all the time, and his mommy and daddy would never lie to him, right?

Tears started to swell up in his eyes thinking that he was useless, and worthless, and many other words that five year old boys weren`t supposed to know, but James had to listen to those words every day of his life.

James started to cry silently, his little body shaking with sobs. He felt eyes on his back, turning around he met with the green-eyed boy from earlier watching him confused and somewhat sad.

"Are you okay? Why are you crying? Are you sad?" the blonde boy asked with a frown. He didn`t like to see people sad, much less a boy that seemed so pretty and sweet.

"I`m fine" the pretty hazel-eyed boy said sniffling.

The bushy eye-browed boy looked at his puffy red eyes worried.

"You were crying, that`s not good. Do you want me to go get the teacher?"

"No!" James screamed causing the other boy to jump slightly startled. "Please, don`t" James whispered, not wanting to scare the other boy away.

"Ok. But I`m staying right here"

James blinked surprised that the blonde boy wanted to spend his time with him.

"I`m Kendall" The blonde said snapping James out of his troubled thoughts.

Kendall… James smiled, he liked that name, he liked the boy, but he didn`t want to get so close to him, he didn`t know what made him have the sudden change of thought, 5 minutes ago he would`ve jumped at any chance of having a friend, but the memory of his parents made him remember: everybody will always leave him.

"I`m James" he said, avoiding Kendall`s excited gaze.

"So, erm, James do you…?" But before Kendall could finish his sentence, a loud bell rang signaling that recess was over.

"I have to go" James said jumping out of the floor.

"-want to be my friend…" Kendall whispered sadly.

Kendall kept and eye on James since recess, he knew he should be learning, or whatever the other little kids were doing, but he was worried about James, and besides all the classes were boring anyways.

He kept watching James like a hawk until gym rolled around. Gym was by far Kendall`s favorite class, he loved running, and playing, especially hockey, but unfortunately for Kendall, today they were playing basketball.

All the little kids started changing into their gym clothes, all except for a tiny little boy who was looking around scared out of his mind. Kendall watched the little kid with confusion, until he noticed that the tiny kid was no other than James.

Kendall wasted no time and ran to the direction of James, when he got there, out of breath, he asked him.

"Why aren`t you changing to your gym clothes?" Kendall paused before each word.

James looked at him for a minute, as if deciding whether he should tell Kendall or not. "I don`t want to" it was barely a whisper, but it was loud enough for Kendall to hear.

"Why not? Don`t you wanna play?" Kendall was confused. Why didn`t James wanted to play? Every other little kid seemed to love gym. Bad thing James wasn`t like every other little kid.

James`s eyes started to water. "I have big bad bruises on my arms and legs, I don`t want everyone to see them…" James felt ashamed, he just told Kendall part of his biggest secret, he barely even knew the kid, Kendall was probably gonna laugh at him now, after…

Kendall wasted no time and hugged James tightly, feeling tears blurring his eyes.

To say James was shocked would be an understanding, but James felt himself returning the hug and started crying with Kendall.

That day James told Kendall all about his parents and how they abused him, Kendall was shocked and wanted to tell an adult so James wouldn't have to stay with them anymore but James begged him not to tell, and with those pretty hazel eyes begging, Kendall had no option but to say yes, but not before he promised James he would do anything he could do to protect him, as they hugged one last time again, a promise in the air hung, a promise to protect each other forever and ever.

*End of flashback*