Disclaimer: This is not mine; I only use the characters' names for entertainment purposes.
Summary: Hermione and Ron broke up… What goes through Hermione's mind afterwards? Read and Review please!
The Broken and the Confused
"I love you," I said softly as I watched him walk away, my heart breaking. God knows today isn't going to be fun… I turned away quickly; just to be sure if he did turn back around that he never saw my tears and the pain that was shining bright in my eyes. I gripped my wand tightly in my hand and strode to the library, head held high in determination to not cry.
Days went on like this.
I sat through my classes, taking notes, not looking at him, just avoiding him, trying to ease my own pain. When lunch came around I would go and tell Harry that I was staying in the library again, and he would touch my shoulder lightly, offering some small form of comfort and nod his head in understanding. Ron just sat there, staring at the table, not shoving food in his face like he always did. It made me wonder if this was affecting him as much as it was me, but then I just shoved that thought away. It's no use getting my hopes up at a time like this only to have them dashed down again…
I wasn't sure how long I'd last before I finally broke. How long would it be before I finally sought him out, asking him to reconsider breaking up with me, telling him that he was wrong, that I would change—and for the better!—?
I don't see why I keep doing this when some days I find myself thinking, "Does this even mean anything anymore? Has it just become routine, us being together? Is this even love? I'm so confused… What happens next? How do I find out? I don't know…"
That last thought is a constant presence in my mind. I can't shake it off and it constantly embitters me, making me think the worst about everything. Wondering if he even cared about me to begin with. What was he thinking? Why does this hurt one minute and then the next it's as if nothing happened, as if I am normal and didn't even bother with him. In that moment I feel happier than ever. But I know it's not real… How can it be? Life's full of pain and disappointment and Love is just a fleeting caress of what could've been…
