A/N - a divergent fan-fiction written by two people (also found on wattpad under the account of motherflippinpancake) who is the co-owner of this story :) my co-owners fan fiction account is dauntlesscake51. Thankyou for reading :) (set after tris' dauntless initiation - no war story)
Chapter 1.
It's a dark, cloudy day, with low-lying fog surrounding me. I quickly pace into the large building. I enter the building only to have the door slam behind me.
"Tris, that you?" a tall figure says from the shadows. His deep voice beckons me to him. I walk over slowly, knowing he won't be happy me coming, he told me not to. My heart starts to race as I approach him, longing tickling my spine. I shiver, he will be mad, we said no more secrets. He knows I am here because I can't let him face this alone. Emerging from the shadows a candle outlines his features. I look up to see his striking blue eyes; they used to be so kind. His eyes stare into me scanning my small figure up and down, I want to run up and hug him, but I wont, I need his forgiveness first, and he needs mine. I'm about to apologize when he interrupts me.
"This is the worst way to do this, Tris. They'll be here any minute!" He says softly.
"I need to get back, and this is the way with least danger to you!" I snap.
I want to leave here, but I know I can't without Tobias. He looks down at the floor, anywhere but my eyes. I try to read his expression but I can't. A loud sigh escapes his lips, his eyebrows furrow.
"Tris, you broke up with me. You left me, and now you want me to come here to take you back to Dauntless after a year," Tobias says.
I want to touch him to comfort him. He needs to know why I broke up with him, that I only did so we wouldn't end up where we are now, waiting to be caught as Divergent's, but my attempt didn't work.
After my training and acceptance into Dauntless, Tobias and I were together for the brief time, but soon I had to leave the compound to protect him from my divergence. The dauntless leaders back then were hunting down the divergent and anyone who associated with them, and I was afraid that Tobias was in danger of me. I knew he could hide his, but I was not so sure about mine... So I left him, maybe leaving in the middle of the night without warning was not a good idea.
They still are hunting Divergent's, but not through Dauntless. That government was overruled and dauntless has new leaders now. But this was all a year ago; I am 17 now.
The new leaders are now protecting the divergent so I decided that now would be the best time to come back. I spoke to Tobias for the first time in a while through Christina and he agreed to take me back to the compound. Tonight. At his own risk.
I hear footsteps approach the door. It will be those who want the Divergent's. Someone told them.
"Tris. We should leave now." Tobias voices my own thoughts aloud. I pull out a gun I brought with me, my hands trembling with each second of touching the cold barrel. Tobias' eyes widen.
"It's not for me" I say slightly annoyed as I press the gun into his hands. His hands are shaking as they brush mine. His eyes stare into mine and I know instantly that getting me out of here safely is his only goal.
"Tris, run. They want you more than me, you are in more danger." He says. It's a shame he hasn't realised I am not leaving without him. He holds the gun up to the door, still shaking.
"Leave, now" he says.
"I can't" I say, my voice shrill. "Never again."
Tobias' eyes shine in the dim light. It takes every fibre of my body not to kiss his beautiful, soft lips but I know that there is a task at hand.
"Fine" he replies back. "You need some sort of weapon, do you still have that knife?" I nod and reach down into my jean pockets and pull out a throwing knife.
He nods at me and pulls me behind a tall wooden beam. He keeps himself hidden, only the end of the gun poking out from the beam. I am lent up against his chest, his heart beating rapidly. A sudden loud bang echoes through the room and Tobias pulls me closer, an arm wrapped around my waist. He is not focused on me but he is focused on what just emerged from the door. I thought I knew what was coming, but I was very, very wrong. I was expecting a pile of dauntless traitors or the old dauntless leaders to emerge from the darkness. And I was half right. A familiar figure emerged from the door way leading a trail of unknowns. It's Christina who entered the building first, shooting directly at Tobias and I.
"CHRISTINA!" I yell, crouching low, "CHRISTINA!"
Tobias tucks me under his arm protecting me.
"DONT HURT HER!" I yell to him as he takes aim. He looks at me, his eyes warm. A bullet flies close me, right above my ear, and Tobias eyes turn cold towards Christina. A bullet leaves his gun and hits her smack bang in the leg, causing her to topple. I leave Tobias' side, rushing over to her. Tobias looks over at me, I can see so much pain riddling his eyes. I know he's keeping something from me but I just don't know what.
"Tobias", I say sternly. He ignores me and instead keeps shooting towards the door. More men pile in. Bullets whirl past my head and more people topple over. I can see faint glints of red pooling onto the ground. I try to help but I am defenceless at this point without a gun. Tobias sees Christina again and shoots for a more fatal shot. I pull Christina with me behind the beam. Shots stop firing, and Tobias runs over. Christina gasps for air, pressing her hand to the bullet wound in her thigh starts to talk.
"I'm sorry, I ran ahead and started shooting anywhere to warn you they were coming!" She gasps.
"Lies," Tobias says.
I look over at Tobias. He isn't scared or concerned like I am. He shows no remorse, only fury that bores into Christina's soul. I don't know why he's acting like this. And then a gun shot goes off, straight to the heart, of Christina. Christina is on the road to her death.
"WHAT THE HELL TOBIAS!" I jump up averting my gaze from Christina.
I run over to him prepared to punch him hard in the chest, but he grabs both my hands before they even get near him. He holds them above me in the air and I struggle. Tears are leaking from my sockets. I see a determination in Tobias' eyes that tells me he won't stand down. More footsteps approach and I realise that we need to act fast. I give myself 10 seconds to let the tears roll down my cheeks until the fear wakes me up from this nightmare. I drag Christina across the floor, blood trailing behind her. She smiles weakly. I can tell that she's welcoming the oblivion to come.
"Everything is going to be okay." I say trying to convince both her and myself. I take her to the next room leaving Tobias alone. I sit Christina down. Just as the light leaves her eyes, she whispers, "I'm sorry,"
I reply tenderly, "sorry for what?" That's when the life leaves her body.
Suddenly more gunshots are firing. Tobias.
I push any pain away and poise myself. I run out the door and duck behind the beam quickly. A tall man is firing bullets at Tobias. He is skilfully dodging each one, but the man is good too. I quickly step out from behind the beam and ditch the knife hard at his chest. It lands where I aim, the man falls to the floor. Tobias looks at me.
"We are leaving now, right now before more come," suddenly Tobias is pulling me out the back door. What about Christina we can't leave her there... Christina. She's gone. I can't believe that my best friend died; at the hands of Tobias.
As we run away from the abandoned structure, I try to drag my body along the gravel but Tobias has to hold me up to make my legs budge. I attempt to swat him away but I know that I still need him. I try to tell myself that everything is going to be okay, but I know that it isn't. Why did he kill Christina?
After walking/running through the abandoned section of the city in silence Tobias stops at the train tracks. Taking a deep breath, I brace myself.
"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR? YOU JUST KILLED MY BEST FRIEND, FOUR!" I use his nickname in spite and his head and hands jerk away from me. Tobias' mouth twitches into a frown. He looks as if he has tasted something bitter.
"Don't use that name, Tris." He sighs.
I stop walking, staring directly into his eyes. He exhales deeply, knowing that I at least deserve an answer.
"After you're..." he looks down, not knowing how to deliver the news. "After you disappeared, I found something out..."
I stop and cross my arms.
"Found. Out. What?" I say sourly staring him straight in the eyes, those deep blue eyes. He opens his mouth, about to start talking but stops as the rails shake next to us. A train. Perfect timing... He starts jogging and calls over his shoulder.
"Tris I'll tell you when we get back to the compound, I'll tell Zeke and everyone else there as well, just trust me," I feel like a petulant child. I just want to know why my best friend is dead and why Tobias was the one who killed her.
It's getting harder and harder to even move my legs as grief is threatening to swallow me whole. Wind is tangling my hair as I run so fast that my legs start to burn. I find an open carriage as far away from Tobias as possible, who leapt into the first one. I may want answers but I don't want to talk to him right now. All that's left to do is jump.
I am sitting with my knees pulled to my chest, my head resting on them.
"Tris," Tobias says softly, standing at the entrance to the carriage. He left me alone for the first half an hour but has been standing there watching me for the last 5 minutes.
"What?" I say, rubbing my temple with my palms in attempt to relieve some stress, which it doesn't.
"We are going to get off now," He mutters, so I get up and march over to the door. I see the roof of the dauntless compound nearing us. My peripherals see him raise his hand to steady me, then hesitate and hold onto the bar of the train instead. At least he respect me needing space. The platform of the dauntless compound nears us and I brush him out of my way. I file back a couple of steps and then take the plunge. As I jump, tears streak my face reminding me of simpler times. I can still remember the first time I jumped off of the building into the darkness, only to be caught by the net and Tobias.
I can't stay mad at him for long. He is always there to catch me. He can't stay mad at me for long either. I am his rock.
I land easily on the rooftop and Tobias lands even easier next to me. Ignoring him, I stride over to the other ledge and take a deep breath. I bend my knees and am about to step of the ledge when...
"Tris, I want you to know that what I tell you down there, won't make you very happy and you won't want to speak to me after I tell you," Tobias stands a good metre away from me as he says this.
"Why? Why Tobias?" I say and he steps closer. His deep blue eyes swallow me, and my anger towards him melts slowly. I take a sharp breath and find a spot on my lip and chew.
"Because, you won't like it," Tobias says bluntly. He then steps forward again and takes my hand. A want to be stubborn and pull it back, but I can't. He steps up onto the ledge next to me and we jump.
Being dauntless always meant you were brave, and feared nothing in your tracks. Bravery was and always has been a way to mask the fear that everyone feels inside. As I jumped off of the building for what felt like the millionth time, a realised that I was made out of a crippling fear that was threatening to shut me down. I needed to wake up. But that was impossible when everyone you love was either dead or has betrayed you in some way or another.
I land in the net hard, but the heavier weight of Tobias next to me causes the net to sink, causing me to fall into his open arms. We lay there for a second, not talking, until I heave myself up off of him and tumble out of the net. He looks at me the same way he did on the first day he caught me and never let me go.
"Welcome to Dauntless," he says in a teasing but sexy voice. A smile tugs at my lips. In that moment I forget about everything. I forget about my mother and father. I forget about my brother who betrayed me, sided with those who are hunting the divergent, I forget about all the physical and emotional hurt layered on my skin. And I forget that Tobias and I aren't together anymore.
We stand so close to each other, tension rising high. I forget about everything and let my guard down. I submerge myself into his deep, blue eyes and that's when I make the first move. I turn to him slowly, and raise my calves and stand on my tippy toes. I hover in front of his face for a split second. His eyes, dark deep strong blue eyes... I suddenly lean my lips finding his. He is still for a moment, probably from shock for as to why I am doing this, though I still don't know myself. This was not how I was raised.
Tobias hands find my waist and mine hold his.
"FOUR YOU'RE BACK! TRIS! WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU DOING HERE?" A shrill voice is yelling from the corner, ripping us apart. It's Zeke, who is sprinting over from the doorway.
I break myself away from Tobias, going against every teenage urge in my body. All I want is to feel his lips on mine. To smell the scent of his sweat mixed with the smell of the earth. To feel is calloused hands on the small of my back. To feel the only feelings that I've ever had towards a guy. Get yourself together Tris… You're not together anymore!
Tobias looks over at me, longing staining his eyes and then turning towards Zeke. Zeke finally catches up to us, his face puzzled. He gestures towards Tobias and I, raising an eyebrow. He breaks out into a chuckle.
"Only a matter of time wasn't it!" He winks at me and I can feel the blood rush to my cheeks, "Knew you would come back for him, told you mate…" Zeke continues.
