GHOST OF YOU

Tony and Gibbs Father and Son, NOT A SLASH

Summery: AU Tony realizes some things and comes to a conclusion that he must take control of his future before it is destroyed by the person he was supposed to trust the most.Little Tony.

P.S. I realy like the Tony Sr. they have made on the show so to not taint his aboutness I'm changing Tony's father to Mike DiNozzo just in this story.

I DO NOT OWN NCIS OR THE SONG

So now enjoy and tell me what you think.

~*NCIS*~

Turn my back, to the door

Tony adjusted the strap of his book bag over his shoulder, he took one last look at his childhood home. Well if you could call it that he never really ever called it home.

Feel so much better now

As he reached the gate at the end of the drive he saw Jimmy, his dad's gate guard asleep to the sounds of a football game in the back ground. Tony shook his head at the sad security detail that his dad had. He then took a right and left the place for good.

Don't even try, anymore

Though his dad had tried many time during his youth to get him to be just like him, rarely tries at all anymore if at all. After all the verbal abuse, and yes even sometimes the physical abuse, Tony wanted nothing to do with his father.

Nothing left to lose

Taking a right at the road he started on his hike to the closest transportation system that he had enough money to pay for. Just himself a twelve year old boy and a bad of things to fight the streets of New York for the night. Hopefully though he wont have to do much of the actual fighting he made sure to dress in the most casual and less expensive clothes he had. Which was actually his best friends Tommy's clothes since he asked him a day before hand for the clothes. For the last weekand he heard his dad talking over the phone to a lawyer about taking him out of the will. To say that Tony was Hurt was an understatment, but then he also heard him talking about sending him to military school and Tony could not and would not handle that very well at all, so on the short notice that he had Tony packed what he needed left what he wanted and cut off all ties. Nothing left to loose now.

Theirs a voice thats in the air,

saying dont look back no where (no way?)

Theirs a voice thats always there...

After making it to a subway system Tony got on the one that would take him to the closest airport out of this hell hole. But the further he got the more he got a little scared that maybe he was being naive, maybe he was over reacting. But then a soothing feeling came over him and he could have swore that he heard someone tell him everything would be alright, but when he looked around because of how late or early 'he wasn't sure' it was there was no one in there with him.

And I'll never be, quite the same, as I was before this

Tony realized that now that he cut off all ties to his father he had to change, he had to start taking care of himself. Because of his young age no one would hire him, or they would but would rip him off for money. He knew this city too well, so he had to go someplace ells.

Part of you, still remains, though its out of focus

He has over five hundred dollars cash halve is what he had saved from the butler giving him money everyday from his father, he never did know why he kept giving him cash he just saved it. The other half is from his fathers stash, he known's that if he were to ever get caught his father would consider that steeling and probably more then likely beat him to a pulp. Tony remembered a time when his mother was still living that his father wasn't so bad in fact he was more of a father then, then he was someone to fear, and that's what he was to Tony, Someone to Fear.

Your just somewhere that I've been,

Tony could just imagine his dad, as he woke up realizing that some of his money is missing and then the nanny come running in saying that so is his son. Tony smiled as he entered the Air Port. He went over to the flights to see which he could take and how much it would cost.

And I wont go back again

Your just somewhere that I've been...

Tony came up to the both that the nice lady was at selling tickets.

"Excuse me I would like a one way ticket to Washington DC please." Tony said placing the right amount of money down that would get him there. The lady smiled at him probably thinking he was meeting his other parent or relative on the other end of the flight. Well technically he was he just hasn't told him yet. The lady told him they were boarding now so Tony ran to get on.

I'm breathing in, breathing out

Tony sat in his seat and buckled up for the take off, he breathed a sigh of relief that he made it so far.

Aint that what, its all about?

This is how he will be different from his father, independent, better.

Livin life, crazy loud

Tony was going to make something of himself, make himself be someone special not just some business scum but someone who helped other people.

Like I have the right to

He had a right to be who he wanted to be this was just him grasping at it and not letting go no matter what or who got in the way.

Know my words, in my mouth

Though he only knew one person in Washington DC he knew he couldn't go see him not at first maybie later when he's on his feet. For he knows that that person would more then likely send him right back home or hand him over to the cops, and or a social worker.

Nothing left to figure out

Tony felt the plane take off and knew there was no going back now, he's made a decision for the rest of his life he will have to live with the consequences no matter good or bad.

But I don't think I'll ever break through

Thinking about those consequences brought some not so good memory back and Tony flinched at them. He then placed his hand over his right cheek and slid it up to his eye. Remembering a time when the same eye was swollen shut, in fact it was swollen so much the doctors were afraid he wouldn't be able to see out of it again. Tony let out a shaky breath and tried to forget what his fathers drunken eyes looked like.

The ghost of you...

Tony looked out of the window at the clouds below and just watched.

Wear your memory like a stain,

Even though he tried, more and more memory's of his fathers drunken or not so drunken fits kept flittering across his mind.

Cant erase none of the pain

And subconsciously sometimes he would graze a spot on his body where it used to be broken or badly injured.

Here to stay with me forever...

Soon Tony finally closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Im breathing in, breathing out

Tony woke to the sound to the pilot announcing there descent. Tony looked out the window and saw that he was here, a start to his new beginning.

Aint that what, its all about?

After the landing Tony got up and reached up for his back pack that was in the slot above his head. He then followed the other people out of the plane.

Livin life, crazy loud

Once he was in the Washington Air Port, he immediately tried to find a way out before security found it strange a child is not rushing to greet family.

Like I have the right to

Once outside he took a look around, it was amazing and so much different from New York.

Know my words, in my mouth

He saw a Taxi and hailed him, telling him the address that he had memorized. Even though he said to himself he wouldn't go there yet, he just wanted to be sure that is were he was still at also it would be nice to put a face to a name.

Nothing left to figure out

As they drove through Washington Tony looked out of his window amazed. It was exhilarating, even though he had been to many places all over the world he had never been to Washington DC, his father always went though but never took him saying that it was not a vacation and he would just get board and make him angry.

But I don't think I'll ever break through

Tony's smile faded some again he still couldn't get his father out of his head no matter what he did it seemed everything reminded him of him.

The ghost of you...

He remembered the words that he had yelled at him many a time in a drunken rage.

One of these days I'll wake up from this,

He remembers the pain he felt when his father struck him not just the physical pain thought the emotional one too, the one that said this is his own father that had hit him.

Bad dream I'm dreaming

He used to think that he was just having a nightmare but the next hit, just reminded him that it was not a dream.

One of these days I'll pray that I'll be

Tony desperately tried to just forget everything, he didn't want to remember any of this he just wasn't to start over without his father.

Over, over, over you

Even though he felt like this there was still a part of him that remembered the man he used to be, and he also desperately wished for that man back.

One of these days I'll realize that,

Tony felt a tear slip down his cheek and he angrily whiped it away, DiNozzo's don't cry.

Im so tired of feeling confused

The Taxi finally stopped in front of a nice house, and Tony paid him and got out. Looking at the house with the number on the side as the same number he memorized from all the letters that was sent to him.

But for now, there's a reason that your still hereIn my heart...

Even though again he promised himself he would not, could not come to this person until he was ready. Like when he was on his own two feet, but he had to be honest with himself, he was almost out of money nowhere to stay and he's only a twelve year old kid.

Im breathing in, breathing out

Tony headed up the short drive that could probably hold two cars at least.

Aint that what, its all about?

He got to the side walk and started counting to the door.

Livin life, crazy loud

He got halfway to the door and froze for a second.

Like I have the right to

Tony took a deep breath and took a few more steps that landed him right in front of the door.

No more words, in my mouth

Tony then realized he had no idea what he would tell him, had no idea what he would say to him.

Nothing left for me to doubt

Taking another deep breath Tony shook himself and knocked. Just then he remembered a time that he had knocked on his fathers office door so early in the morning and how that ended out, and he got instantly scared. But then breathed and reminded himself that this was not his father.

But I don't think I'll ever break through

Dang it! He did it again, just forget him.

The ghost of you...

Just then the door opened and Tony held his breath and just looked at the person that stood there holding the door open who had a shocked look on his face.

Breathing in, breathing out

Breathing in, breathing out

"Hello mister Gibbs.." Tony felt tears come dang it he wasn't supposed to cry.

Like I have the right to

"I hope you don't mind…I…" Tony's voice broke as he was on the verge of tears.

Know my words, in my mouth

Tony could have swore he lost the ability to talk but he took a deep breath a plowed on.

Nothing left, to figure out

"Can I live with you please?" Tony brokenly cried and whispered, Gibbs by this point had fallen to his knees and taken the child into his arms. All the bruises, broken bones, and scratches started to appear then as well, like they were always there. Making them very obvious and apparent.

But I dont think I'll ever break through

"I had to get way from him, I can't live with him anymore, please Mr. Gibbs." Tony whispered into Gibbs shoulder. Gibbs rubbed his back.

"You'll never have to go back I promise Tony." Gibbs whispered back.

The ghost of you...!

THE END (OR MAYBE NOT TELL ME IF I SHOULD CONTINUE IT OR NOT.) : )

SONG: Selena Gomez~Ghost of You