Sacrifice
Does anyone realise that to play this game you've got to be willing to sacrifice so many different things?
No, you don't. You never can understand since you're not the one who has to give up everything you know just for the sake of the greater good! I, unfortunately, did and continue to sacrifice everything for the likes of you!
You complain about how hard your life has been, about how bad it is that you've no longer got cable, about how you won't see your families everagain.
I don't have that luxury. I have nothing to complain about. Nothing.
I have nothing because I am nothing. My name is irrelevant, just a name that others can call me, it holds no special significance to me. I am merely a ghost in the machine. I repair for you what I can and help where I can but in truth, I am not wanted.
I wonder, if I really did leave, whether through death or being left behind, how you would all cope. Would you be able to fix the things I can fix? Would you be able to make the sacrifices I make daily to save your sorry skins?
Or would you flounder like a fish in an oceanless desert? Would you want me back because, though you may hate me and want me dead, you realise you need me if you are going to survive?
Could you swallow your pride and tame your ego? Sacrifice your reputation for the greater good? Give your life to save but a few?
I know I could, but I'm not so sure about you.
"Hey Doctor Rush!"
"What Eli?"
"I've got hot coffee... thought you'd like a cup."
"..."
"I'll just leave it here then."
"Thank you Eli."
Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe there are a few who could do what I can... maybe there are a few who care about me in some strange, unfathomable way.
I do not know for certain but I doubt that I will die by coffee... the boy's too kind, too human to do that.
Not too sure about the others on this ship though.
"Hey Rush, Eli."
"Hey! Scott!"
"What is it?"
"Huh?"
"What's wrong!?"
"Nothing Doc. Just wanted to see how you guys are doing... you kinda live in here."
"..."
"Don't mind him. He hasn't finished his coffee yet."
"Soo... what are you guys doing anyway?"
Perhaps I should reassess my opinions of some of the people aboard this ship... some are more worthy of respect than others...
"Err... Doctor Rush? Why are you staring at us?"
"...Just thinking..."
"Oh... oh-kay then...."
"Eli... could you teach me how to use on of the Kino's? I wanna see how they work."
"Sure! Doctor Rush?"
"Go ahead Eli."
"Come on Scott!"
I used to believe I was nothing... a ghost in the machine. Not wanted but needed... I can see that, for some, that is not true. I am wanted, by those I suppose I can call friends of a sort. They care about me and don't want me to die...
My name has a meaning now... Doctor 'Doc' Nicholas Rush.... that is who I am... that is who I have always been but never knew...
I have friends... and I can smile with that knowledge.
Maybe being wrong isn't so bad after all.
FIN
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