I was deep in thought when i suddenly felt someone pocking my arm.
` hey that hurt!`
My cousin Mina giggled: `so what kept you thinking so hard that you didnt hear me talking to you?`
I was too tired to talk about how i was thinking of my ex Andrew and how i wondered if he would ever stop annoying me with his texting and calling me every single day.
Mina looked atr me knowingly and just said: Well go stop thinking about that Idiot and go to sleep, i dont want you to look like a zombie when we visit Phil tomorrow!`
I happily obeyed her and went to sleep.
Though it was only 10pm it didnt take me long to fall asleep, being exhausted from the little sleep i had gotte the past few weeks.
I had finally managed to take a few days off, i had worked up to 12 hours a day since the break up with Andrew. It kept me from thinking about that him and the way our relationship ended.
Andrew wasnt the love of my life and i didnt grieve loosing the relationship we had but what made me sad was the way it ended and how he turned into someone i could never respect again.
I wanted to break up with him before it happened but i always put it off, thinking he would deserve a 2nd chance, after all he wasnt such a bad guy and he seemed to love me.
But one evening we got into a huge argument where he accused me of cheating on him. A pretty ridiculous claim since i wasnt sleeping with him, so why would i sleep with another guy that isnt even my boyfriend? Andrew knew im not that kind of person. Still he kept screaming at me and accusing me that i have an affair and that i didnt sleep with him bcs i had someone else.
I was scared from the way he kept screaming and acting out, and i should have left but before i knew what happened he slapped me hard across the face. The impact made me fall to the ground and left my mouth bleeding.
I was beyond shocked and cried from the pain his hit had caused me.
Andrew just stood there looking at me like he didnt understand how this happened.
After a few minutes i forced myself to calm down enough to be able to leave.
Surprisingly he didnt try to stop me or even talked to me.
I just left and took a cab back home.
The only person i ever told about it was Mina. I could have told my brother or my other cousins, but they would have harmed him and he just wasnt worththe trouble.
In the ed i was just happy to get away from him before something worde could happen. If he slapped me that hard bcz he was angry, what else could he have done in th future. Everytime i thought about that i shivered.
Of course after that he tried to contact me, saying sorry over and over again.
But i ignored him and never answered his pathetic messages.
He wrote me that he thought i was cheating bcs i refused to sleep with him, which made him think there must be someone else.
How ridiculous it that? I didnt sleep with him simply bcz i didnt feel ready. After all i felt i wasnt in love enough to go this far with him. Im not a whore who sleeps with any guy she can get. I only go that far with someone i have true feelings for and when im sure its the right time!
Now a few months after this event i feel i finally got over those events and i can move on.
I dont think about that night every time i see a guy that looks like Andrew anymore and i wont need to work non stop to distract my thoughts.
To celebrate that ill spend a few days in Seattle, meeting a good friend and just having fun.
My brother doenst know of course why Im suddenly doing much better, just like he didnt know why i broke up with Andrew and why i was so devastated after it.
