A/N This is my first twilight fic, I did it in French and now I am trying to translate it in the best way that I can. I am from the Quebec so don't be mad if my vocabulary is poor in English. I hope you will enjoy it as much as I did to write it.

Curled on myself, I was just trying to decrease pain vainly. The distress who invades my all soul when he left me at the border of the forest. I cannot believe that he drop all his promise like to be with me until I don't want him anymore or to love me until the end, only for an accident. He just swears to never go away! Liar, he is a freak liar. How can he hurt me as much after that he promise me love and fidelity until the end? He should have let me die when he had chance; it would have been less painful.

Charlie opens my bedroom door, usually I am ready to go school at this time, but now I am always under this damn blanket. It's doing a weak that I am not moving of here, except for what I need to do for survive, like go to bathroom or eat, I do breath but it's need big effort, well that' not really important

-Daddy? I am not really feeling well; can I stay home again today?

- Bella, you will need to go back a day or another. So today you are not feel better, I understand that you are hurt, but if you don't change your minds, how can you think you will go better one day?

- No, dad that is not what you believe! I just have a migraine and nausea, so I promise you that tomorrow I will go in class! But please can I stay here to rest?

A new lie, for once I did not blush, I also notice that he looked really convince. I practice all last week on my few moments where I was able to think clearly to be able to do it today.

-Well, do you want med for you migraine?

-yes, please.

A moment later, he was back with a water glass and an aspirin, it's also have a second med that I suppose it was an anti-nausea one. I rise painfully in my bed, abandoning my foetal position; it was the only position that gave me little comfort, then I swallow the pills. I vaguely thank him before to take back my position and then be able to breathe a little least painfully.

Without even think to it, my mind goes back to his principal occupation; accuse. I named each one of the guilty person for this desertion. Edward for not transformed me to the ball, Carlisle for encouraged him to clean my blood after James bit me. Jasper for try to attack me and finally Alice for organized that party, the one I specifically did want to have!

Even accusing them, I was not able to blame them. I only go deeper in my depression; I was missing them all and the way that they loved me. He was gone with them, forcing them to quit me. He was gone with my world, my life, my reason to breathe.

That night like all those for a week, I let my window open, even if the cold bit my cheeks. I was probably hoping that he will come back, that he crosses this window again, sitting in my rocking chair, waiting that I wake up and say that he made a mistake, that he would never have left me!

Each morning I wake up crying, looking to the empty chair, this morning did not was the exception. I keep my promise yet to Charlie, I got up and was getting ready to go to school without really wanting to. I suspected my dad to follow me for be sure that I really went to school. I saw that my doubt was founded when he goes after me for goes to work and that I saw the police car pass in front of the parking at the moment I was going down of my truck. I walked slowly to my first class, waiting patiently for the second bell. When I heard it, I made a U-turn and went back to my vehicle. When I get back behind the steering wheel, the tears began trickling down my cheeks. I turn the engine on and I go. I let my instinct guide me, I cannot see anything through my tears that form a thick fog in front of me.

Suddenly, I lose control of my truck, the road was slippery; there was a freeze last night. Without seeing anything I just let the steering go. Quickly, I was in my truck motionless. I open the door, and began to go down. I fell on the buttocks in the ditch where my truck had been stopped by a tree. I was only to a kilometre from the city, but I was not going back there for the chief Swan notes that I did not go to school and that I had an accident because I did not respect the road laws. I did not want to go back home anyway. I wanted to flee, I wanted to start my life back to zero, and I wanted to forget everything. So without think, I took the match package that I had in the gloves box and I lit the first that I put inside the cabin. Then I put several in, I open the window before closing the door, knowing that a fire needs oxygen to grow. I put few pieces of dry wood in the back of the truck and then I set fire and I took the last match and put it in the box truck. I run, I did not want to be near when the truck really burn, when the fuel tank will began to burn. So I ran without really knowing where I will go. After several drop, I finally slow down. I was off danger, but I continue to walk fast, I did not want anyone to find me. I finished by turning in a path about ten kilometres from the accident. I do not immediately recognized the way, perhaps because I was silly or maybe because I protect myself, but after having understood where my steps led me, I knew I would have nightmares but at least I'll have a place where I could live a while.

I hope you loved the first chapter. If you want me to continue to translate, please let me know by letting me a little review just yes or no. It's taking me a lot of time to translate so I hope to have a few comments.