"Please...Wait for me" he said

Padme watched as Anakin walked away, entered his ship and flew off

"His eyes weren't blue" she thought. They didn't seem to be any color it was as if the light had faded from them. The light she fell in love with and gave her strength. It wasn't there anymore, Padme had looked into the eyes of another man, a man she did not know sure he looked like Anakin but he wasn't. She walked back to the veranda hoping that maybe he would come back but she knew better.

She knew what he was going to do he had talked about wanting to do it many times before and now...it was actually happening, But he wouldn't really do it would he? he couldn't not her Anakin he would never murder another being in cold blood... there was that one time though, where he murdered an entire village of Tusken Raiders "But they had killed his mother" she said to herself,

No not all of them not the women and children they didn't deserve to die...but they did

just like the separatist council was now going to die. "His eyes weren't blue" she thought again.

Why this? why did this fact keep spinning through her head when so much had already happened this day? why could she not stop thinking about the color of his eyes while he was off on some dark deed?

"I feel so helpless" 3PO said as he tottered off "I think we all do threepio" she said to herself

If only he was here again maybe she could talk him out of it, he had changed even before he had that dream of her death. The war had changed him he had told her that himself. he had once stood on the back of a galloping shaak to impress her now he would consider the deed childish. he was so serious now even more serious than she could be at times, he hadn't smiled in days .

"Something's happening, I'm not the Jedi I should be"

Was it the Jedi? she wondered. could what Anakin had said been true? is that why the light was gone from his eyes was his order becoming the thing they fought to destroy? was his life as a Jedi for nothing? "Everybody always wants something from me and I'm the bad guy if they don't get it" he had said. how it made her cry, "everyone is using him for their own ends he feels empty and meaningless and this is why his eyes aren't blue anymore " she said to herself "he needs me I must go to him" she made up her mind to disobey Anakin's wish to wait for him. she would go to Mustafar and be there with him and show him his life had meaning she would hold him in her arms and kiss him and stare deeply into his blue eyes again and everything would be okay again when they returned...